min yoongi.

slowly picks up Taro into my arms, fiddling with the little loose tag on his precious bow collar before smiling slowly at the words on it as I decide to hand the kitten to you.

Yoongs.. Yoongi.
You're the best thing thats ever happened to me in my entire life even possibly in my past life as well and I want to keep it that way with you and Taro here...
I wouldn't have want any other way than this where I can proudly proclaim my love for you with everyone knowing just how deeply I fell for you..
I probably might up these words and become a stuttering mess again, probably speaking half English and Korean and you'd wonder what the hell I was saying so... I'll let Taro give you the message that I can't properly say...

lowers my eyes as I motion toward the collared bowtie around Taro's neck. A lustrous glow amongst the fur revealing a ring with intricate cuts filled with diamonds whilst the loose tag hanging next to it read:
"Moogle, will you marry me?”

x x x

moogle, you’re getting older today but when I think about it- do we really keep track of it? Of course we still celebrate it because it’s your big day though I feel like even when it’s your birthday, I’d still be spoiling you with the same lips, the same subtle touches that I’ve always been giving you. I want to give you so many things in life that I can’t even explain in words but with what I can even afford, I feel as thought it’s not enough for someone as precious as you.
Now that we are having an addition to the family, I just want to make sure you’re eating well and properly taken care of at all times..

lowers down to your stomach and rests my ear against it as I speak softly, fingertips lightly tapping against your belly.
I know that you’ll be a great mother...father...- mother.
A beautiful at that. With the way your eyes begin to disappear when your smile grows wider- my heart stops and I forget how to function as a human being altogether.
I love you with all my heart, you probably already know that but just in case, I’ll keep saying it multiple times.
I love you yoongs.
I live so I love you.
You and our little beanie baby.

x x x

kim namjoon 4 minutes ago Reply Room →

@min yoongi ˢᴱᴹᴵ ᴴᴵᴬᵀᵁˢ The things that I can’t help but admire- even before we progressed to this situation. I’ve always found how you handled yourself so endearing. How you always observe things quietly and speak out when you feel the need to. The way you play with your lips, no matter if you’re playing a game or eating, working or sleeping. The faces you make when you’re up on that stage and exuding so much charisma, the way you get shy when someone finds you attractive or acknowledges you to a high extent. I find myself being rude, just staring at you more than I should but I can’t help it. My eyes are greedy to become more clear when you’re under the spotlight, my ears drown out everyone else when your voice chimes in softly yet stern. You have something about you yoongs, something that I could never get enough of...and I want to fully embrace that than push it away and regret such things that could hurt me later on in life. I want you to be able to have the knowledge of what I think about when I see you, when I touch you, when I provide practically my entire life to you. You and I, we’ve been together the longest, and I’ve always silently watched over you as I’m sure you do I. Seeing you work your way up and accomplish that happiness, it brings such warmth into my chest; it’s so foreign and I never could figure it out...sometimes I thought ‘what’s wrong with me?’ often times I made excuses to myself and passed it on as being proud of a colleague of mines. But ...that wasn’t being honest with myself, not at all. I lived my life normally, slept, ate, worked, the cycle repeating over and over but I never realized that...among that whole time I was enjoying it. I was always smiling each day and I always looked forth for the next...and the next after. Why? I was too oblivious as you say. I clouded my thoughts with so many nonsense that I didn’t see the clear picture. Everyone before me, I’d greet with warm smiles and respect only because it was the polite thing to do. With you, everything comes naturally and I feel as if I’m able to do anything with the idea of you at my side. How I’ve gotten this far in my life? Why there was always that one person that kept me company, that gave me that bit of strength when I needed it, that always whines when I teased them over the stupidest of things...and that’s when I realized, on my own time. ‘Ah. It’s him. He’s my reason I’ve made it this far.’ That’s what lingered in my mind and from that time on, I grew more wary of you. I was selfish to not wonder about your own mindset. Wondering if you were okay, if you needed that support that you’ve given me.
I never acknowledged you properly. Whether you lent me a shoulder when you were the one who needed it most. Each day I just wanted to be closer to you, to protect you, to...

exhales for a moment and retains that last sentence before continuing on with a new one, my palm rubbing at my nape a little as my eyes refuse to look to you, a bit sheepish for even being able to say this much.

I didn’t want to make it obvious that I wanted to do those things so I was patient until you took the initiative. I was elated of course though I tried not to think too much of it, but things progressed even more- more than I would have thought and now I’m unable to contain anything. You telling me to just let everything go made me relieved that I could do everything I’ve been wanting to without hesitation. It made me realize how lucky I am honestly.

To be able to see you so close, 
to be able to touch you when I wanted to,
being able to wake up and see your face first thing in the morning and even the last in the evening.
You’re an important being in my life yoongs.
I can’t fathom the idea of a life without you.
I really can’t...

takes both your hands and bring them to my chest, a pained expression slowly spreading across my face just saying those few words, chest becoming warm as I speak.

I don’t want to imagine that life.
nor would I want it to ever become reality.
I just... I’d be lost without you. I wouldn’t be that leader everyone thinks highly of if it wasn’t for you...of course the other members too.

lowers my head as I keep silent for a moment, wanting to say more words but I’d end up choking on them; averting my eyes as I take a moment to regain myself.

Even if you are my pet.
I...have to admit sometimes a part of me, deep within
my soul- strips that title away and I embrace you as more than that.
It’s probably silly isn’t it? But in reality, it’s just how it is...

x x x

kim namjoon 1 day ago Reply

@min yoongi ˢᴱᴹᴵ ᴴᴵᴬᵀᵁˢ takes a moment to process my words, fingers playing at the tips of each other 
before parting my lips; not quite sure how in the world, of all things, this would be more 
nerve wracking than even the speech I had pulled in the UN. a hand resting at my chest as take in 
a breath...

I guess its now or never isn't it..to explain these unimaginable emotions I have towards you..
its crazy, it truly is.. but thankfully I'm still alive to even say the things I'm about to say-
not that for some reason I'd go missing...
if that ever happens, be sure to file a missing persons report that way I can be presented back to
you safely..
but anyways...off topic - this'll happen often I should warn you. so please bare with me.

first things first. 
it seems like I can never properly breathe when I see you. its almost as if I see the world
in black and white but when you show up- everything starts to show up in color and it makes
me feel like I'm in a whole other world. a world where I could live my happiest life.

I feel like I'm dodging the true meaning of how I feel. ah..
its such a bad habit of mines but for sure I'd get to it soon. of course you wouldn't 
mind that at all..
yoongs. as I've said before, id give my all for you.
I'd spare glances if my back was turned to you.
I'd walk across the world- well thats not possible so..I'd walk miles 
just to see your face. your face of all things.
if I had just 10 seconds to live, I'd waste it on you and for damn sure I'd make 
the most of that 10 seconds somehow.

I really do have a soft spot for you, if it wasn't that obvious which 
I highly doubt. its as if the spotlight is on you in my eyes and everything you do is 
so ethereal, your imperfections nonexistent as theres only perfection when I lay my 
attention onto you. all I could ever do is just shower you with all this flattery bc thats 
all that my heart is telling me to say. 

pauses momentarily to mentally think about if my words make sense so far and I 
lose my train of thought, seeing as I can never think of my words ahead of time with you
and I just spew out the first things that come into my mind, fingertips sneakily reaching to lightly
caress at your palm; hesitantly initiating a proper handhold, not wanting to make eye contact just 
yet as I'm too awkward at the moment to even want to see your expression.

the little things...
I always thought the little things make the biggest impact. like this.
holding hands, you'd be able to feel how nervous I am just doing sappy stuff..
but I know that its not all that bad...that it'll somehow get my point across why I'm such 
a dork at these things..

my other hand resting at the back of my neck, now becoming a habit for when 
I do things a bit out of my comfort zone, showing this side of me that I never really 
thought existed; wondering if I lowkey have lost my mind bc of it.

I feel like I'm gonna keep saying these things over and over 
but its not ever going to get to the point, yoongs- I just ...
you're my pet I know that. I don't even know if theres rules to that sort of thing
or not, having a pet in all but let me put that aside and flat out say this
so that you know and probably either acknowledge or stray away from the topic
but I've really taken a liking to you. If that doesn't clear things up properly then 
think of me as someone who you could come home to after work, throwing all your 
belongings on the ground and proudly saying 'honey, I'm home. whats for dinner?'

something along those lines, with you having thinking of me as your comfort,
your support, and your happiness.

x x x

kim namjoon 19 minutes ago Reply

I’ve come to the conclusion that I 
Trivia 承 : Love 


yoongs-

inhales
I

Trivia 承 : Love
Trivia 承 : Love
...
Love
yoongs

I love yoongs.
exhales while clutching my chest

x x x 

kim namjoon12:34:08Reply

@min yoongi ˢᴱᴹᴵ ᴴᴵᴬᵀᵁˢ kitten, yoongs, I just wanna remind you that I love you so,
more than anything in the world...
brave of me to start saying these things when my hair is so unkempt and
I'm lying weakly in the bed with my voice as deep and cracky as it is, but you understand...hopefully?
even in sickness I can't keep my thoughts astray from you and its a little addicting,
you are, to be engraved into my thoughts each second, minute and hour of the day.
the entire time, even during my partial slumber, the first thought that came to mind was
'is he doing alright?' 
'does he need me?'
'should I check up on him?'
I was eager to know these things despite my trying to gather myself for a moment and trying
not to resemble so much like an excited loyal dog at the door, tail wagging and ready to 
pounce.
...I just- I just compared myself to a dog. 
blinks a few times and stares quietly at the ground, sniffing a little bit even though it just slightly 
painful.
all these years that we've lived together, it felt as if my whole life was practically dedicated to
you. all the efforts I've given, the songs we've written, the exchange of smiles and stealing glances.
they meant everything. and I'm glad that its not like one of those things where after we work we go 
our separate ways, no. we end up leaving together almost side by side to the place we invest our 
life together in.
I'm sure with all those years, I'll even admit, those times we'd accidentally hold hands or accidentally
end up saying things we never really thought about-
those things make just the bottom of my heart flutter a little. 
and I'd end up staring off for a moment lost into my thoughts sometimes wondering what
the hell. I love yoongi.
I love you. just as our fan's would love us and be with us forever-
I, I'm always gonna be like that towards you.