Personal Message
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eomjichan.
dear you,
dear you,
the first
in the year of 1997, 24th of may, a cry of an angel announced her presence that would soon be a blessing to the world. of course, a boy who'd be born at the same year a few months later wouldn't know that she was, in fact, more than a mere human being because the way they met was not a typical start of a romantic journey - or maybe it is since it leans closer to the enemies turned to lovers dynamic. anyway, this is the story of us. the story of how i met the first and the last girl that i'll ever love.
i've been far behind with the amount of letters that you have sent me, each and every one of those i still read that brings a fresh flutter unto my heart, as if i've seen it for the first time once again. even though you've said multiple times that it's okay if i don't reciprocate a reply because you enjoy writing those, i still want to give you a gift that has been long overdue. i'm writing this from the bottom of my heart, three letters for you.
time flies like a brush of wind. you wouldn't see it but you'll just feel and realize how months after months have already passed. it's been almost a year after we've met but i can clearly remember our chaotic beginnings like it just happened earlier today. i guess i can truly say how you were not like the other girls for the fact that your impact in me had engraved deep into my mind. our rough start, our unexpected twists, those that lead to our never-fading love that blossoms between two people who never started out as "friends."
it was amusing how our little "game" turned into some surprise (no pun intended). our levels ascended and descended like a crazy rollercoaster. it was inevitable and some people (re: joy) just kept pushing us together even if one second, we'd be civil right before we start drowning each other, whether metaphorically or literally. but the thing is, our game never had its formal rules, no goals, no fixed prizes, nor hidden levels. we plotted it on our own and i could say this with confidence, that we both won it.
who knew that dropping down to level -100 would be a way for us to win until we reach the season 2 of this chaotic idea? june 2019 me would never believe where we are now.
i've been far behind with the amount of letters that you have sent me, each and every one of those i still read that brings a fresh flutter unto my heart, as if i've seen it for the first time once again. even though you've said multiple times that it's okay if i don't reciprocate a reply because you enjoy writing those, i still want to give you a gift that has been long overdue. i'm writing this from the bottom of my heart, three letters for you.
time flies like a brush of wind. you wouldn't see it but you'll just feel and realize how months after months have already passed. it's been almost a year after we've met but i can clearly remember our chaotic beginnings like it just happened earlier today. i guess i can truly say how you were not like the other girls for the fact that your impact in me had engraved deep into my mind. our rough start, our unexpected twists, those that lead to our never-fading love that blossoms between two people who never started out as "friends."
it was amusing how our little "game" turned into some surprise (no pun intended). our levels ascended and descended like a crazy rollercoaster. it was inevitable and some people (re: joy) just kept pushing us together even if one second, we'd be civil right before we start drowning each other, whether metaphorically or literally. but the thing is, our game never had its formal rules, no goals, no fixed prizes, nor hidden levels. we plotted it on our own and i could say this with confidence, that we both won it.
who knew that dropping down to level -100 would be a way for us to win until we reach the season 2 of this chaotic idea? june 2019 me would never believe where we are now.
the start
maybe i couldn't really pinpoint the start of these feelings that burst out of my chest whenever i'm with you. i could say that i can never predict the outcomes that would come out of our, rather "unique," experiences. it was funny how we bickered almost every time we see each other in the room, driving each other further to insanity as we never ran out of childish teases, and yet, we'd also be tied together in the most questionable scenarios, as if there was a string of fate that intertwined us together. even if there were other people that could've gotten our attention, everything just leads me back to you. how odd it was that you were the last person that i'd want to wake up to when we found ourselves frantic in that motel, but now, you're the one that i would want to greet my mornings.
who knew that the longest three weeks that i've ever experienced, would end with a blessing that i would journey with for a lifetime. the harmless threats and insults bundled up to a budding feeling in my heart and then suddenly, every moment that i spent as your "temporary boyfriend" makes me wonder what if...it wasn't just a daring agreement? things took a full 180 degree turn when our interactions in public became limited, but we both know that somewhere beyond what everyone can see, we'd end up wrapped around in each other's embrace. let's make the most out of the short relationship, i thought, but time grew and i began to accept the fact that i wasn't happy if it were to end.
and as the days gone by, i realized that i had to be selfish. for once. it took me a while to shatter my pride into pieces just to confess that i like you. i like you and that's enough reason for me to prevent ourselves from going back to our usual cat-and-dog squabbles. when our childish arguments could grow to be saccharine whispers of love, our playful smacks become tender and deep longings, i just had to say it. i like you, yves.
and when you said you liked me back, i swear that i ascended up to the heavens.
who knew that the longest three weeks that i've ever experienced, would end with a blessing that i would journey with for a lifetime. the harmless threats and insults bundled up to a budding feeling in my heart and then suddenly, every moment that i spent as your "temporary boyfriend" makes me wonder what if...it wasn't just a daring agreement? things took a full 180 degree turn when our interactions in public became limited, but we both know that somewhere beyond what everyone can see, we'd end up wrapped around in each other's embrace. let's make the most out of the short relationship, i thought, but time grew and i began to accept the fact that i wasn't happy if it were to end.
and as the days gone by, i realized that i had to be selfish. for once. it took me a while to shatter my pride into pieces just to confess that i like you. i like you and that's enough reason for me to prevent ourselves from going back to our usual cat-and-dog squabbles. when our childish arguments could grow to be saccharine whispers of love, our playful smacks become tender and deep longings, i just had to say it. i like you, yves.
and when you said you liked me back, i swear that i ascended up to the heavens.
the only
and so here we are towards the end of this massive love blabber that i've written. you're probably worn out by the amount of text blocks that i've made you read. this is the last era that i'll be titling my letters with (yes, i shamelessly named the letters after our albums).
i didn't want your special day to end without giving you whatever i can offer. yes, i may be gone for most days recently and i've been inconsistent of being around but i prioritized gifting you on your special day, especially because i've missed all other opportunities for me to give this special present.
what started as an unsure "i like you" became much more as our romance grew. the next thing i knew, i couldn't stand a day without wondering how have you been, did your day went well, were you thinking about me at times. there were insecurities that held me back from doing things like what if i couldn't give her the best that she deserves? what if there was someone else worth it? but i've learned to brush past through those worries because i had my heart poured out all the love and trust that it could offer and gave it to you. soon, the thought of you made every people, problem, worry, and issue vanish into thin air. you're my sweet escapade from reality and yet, you make me whole as a human.
i love the way our lips fit together like a perfect puzzle piece, the warmth and comfort from our embrace that feels like a reward after a long day. i love every inch, every flaw, every beauty, everything about you. you're my eve that's more worth than the main event. you're my sado pup that makes me courageously accept that i'm your maso kitty. you're my banana baby whatever embarassing story lies behind it. you're the reason for my laughter, the source of my happiness, my inspiration, my other half. you give me strength and energy to become better and you fuel my passion to give you all the love that i can give you.
and this may sound so cliche, but i offer myself as your birthday gift. this is long overdue but i feel like this would be the perfect time to do it. i don't need an immediate answer and i'd be willing to wait for a decade whatever you'll respond.
to the only woman that i'll ever love, the one who shared my past, blessed my present, and whom i'd want to spend my future with,
miss ha sooyoung, will you finally, and officially, be mine?
i didn't want your special day to end without giving you whatever i can offer. yes, i may be gone for most days recently and i've been inconsistent of being around but i prioritized gifting you on your special day, especially because i've missed all other opportunities for me to give this special present.
what started as an unsure "i like you" became much more as our romance grew. the next thing i knew, i couldn't stand a day without wondering how have you been, did your day went well, were you thinking about me at times. there were insecurities that held me back from doing things like what if i couldn't give her the best that she deserves? what if there was someone else worth it? but i've learned to brush past through those worries because i had my heart poured out all the love and trust that it could offer and gave it to you. soon, the thought of you made every people, problem, worry, and issue vanish into thin air. you're my sweet escapade from reality and yet, you make me whole as a human.
i love the way our lips fit together like a perfect puzzle piece, the warmth and comfort from our embrace that feels like a reward after a long day. i love every inch, every flaw, every beauty, everything about you. you're my eve that's more worth than the main event. you're my sado pup that makes me courageously accept that i'm your maso kitty. you're my banana baby whatever embarassing story lies behind it. you're the reason for my laughter, the source of my happiness, my inspiration, my other half. you give me strength and energy to become better and you fuel my passion to give you all the love that i can give you.
and this may sound so cliche, but i offer myself as your birthday gift. this is long overdue but i feel like this would be the perfect time to do it. i don't need an immediate answer and i'd be willing to wait for a decade whatever you'll respond.
to the only woman that i'll ever love, the one who shared my past, blessed my present, and whom i'd want to spend my future with,
miss ha sooyoung, will you finally, and officially, be mine?
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from the bottom of
my heart,
i confess that
i'll love no one else
but you.
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ironic how i'm using a layout made by ahem- yes. but anyways. happy belated birthday, my masokitty. i know this isn't much, but i reckon it was due time for me to reply to your letter to me.
funny how we've gotten this far despite the arguments and childish banters we got into. but i can surely say there was never a moment in the time we spent together that i had regretted. well, maybe that one time where we decided to 'end' things off completely. yeah, that? let's not do that again. it was hard. but despite it all, i'm glad it got us to where we are now.
september 13th marks the day a certain kitty was born to irk and annoy a little pup. who would've thought they'd end up here? probably no one (except for one, coughsjoycoughs.) then again, there was always a part of me that loved the way we interacted, even if our words were basically daggers to the other.
i loved the way we could make each other breathless (in more than one way), the way you'd lowkey care for me in the beginning, how you'd always be there and offer me a hug but pretended it never happened just to save my mortification of being soft around you. i like how you keep up with my childish insults, how you return it back, and how it ended up with a big. whole. surprise. pun intended. i like the way you hold me, how you kiss me, from my forehead, to my nose, to my lips. i like the way you say things to me that you don't say to others. i like the way you get corny and cheesy, and super duper soft when we're all tangled up in bed. i like how warm you are. i like the way you don't mind how needy i am for your kisses, and how you're always willing to give me more. i like those three weeks of heaven, getting to call you mine even for a short while. as if it wasn't obvious enough, i definitely, 100% like you. as in, like like you. i like you with my whole devilish heart.
this message wasn't suppose to get long, but i guess i had so much that i liked about you, it became a whole letter. then again, i can keep going, but i'll stop for now. the point is, happy birthday. although it /is/ your birthday, it has been me who received a gift. a gift that goes by the name of lee hyunjae. and i couldn't be more grateful. here's to hoping i'm able to be as much of a gift as you have been to me.
love, your sadopup。
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