i like me better...

              when i'm with you ♥

Hi big beanie!!! We made it!!! The big 3 month mark. I don't know about you, but I know most couples find it hard to make it to three months so I'm really happy we did. I feel like I'm not the best with words, but I really wanted to write you a letter to show how much I love and appreciate you. 

You make me the happiest girl alive. I know i say that kinda alot, but i mean it. Just being in your presence puts me at ease and brings a smile to my face. It always makes me laugh how comfortable I am around you. How we feel like an old married couple sometimes--ones that obviously still get it on like rabbits do considering that I'm always in the mood with you. I love the feeling though. Sometimes it scares me, like what if you get sick of me because we've progressed quickly ya know? But then you come around with your pretty smile and perfect words and make me feel all whole again. 

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No matter what face we have, whether its fetus or oldies, het or homo, I'll love you forever. I remember when we started out with our baby faces and I was So So Shy around you. I knew that we both liked each other and that I probably was being silly, but being hurt in the past made me so nervous that I would things up with you. Even when you told me you loved me for the first time I couldn't believe it. For the longest time I almost thought you only said it because I hinted towards it. But of course, I was wrong, per usual. You've stuck with me when I've been bratty, when I've been soft, when I'm super duper clingy and hate myself for it, when I'm sad and angry at the world, and of course, when I get like really and sometimes forget that you might not be.

I love you Park Jinyoung. It's a simple fact. I'll love you forever, no matter how old we grow, no matter which faces we change into, no matter if the world suddenly stops spinning. Because if I have you by my side, then there's nothing I can't do. Happy 3 months, I can't wait for the rest of our lives.

— park jiwon.