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park jinyoung2:59:39 AMReply

TT ______ TT you own my heart park sooyoung

park jinyoung1:57:55 AMReply

sweats i will ask consent anyways but joy will you allow me to center my lips a little bit...

park jinyoung10:56:53 PMReply

kneels in the sand again
PARK SOOYOUNGGGG

park jinyoung 1 week ago Reply

@park sooyoung secondly, this one might be a lengthy one but… i’ve been preparing this over the last few weeks actually… i just wanted to put my foot down now. i’ve watched you become more and more comfortable with expressing your feelings that i think i need to express them just with a bit more coherence, a bit more heart than usual. why? because you’re worth the little extra, you’re worth everything.

park sooyoung,

my memory favors that time we all came together and had a pool party and those silly antics afterward. i remember this not only for its revelry but the small remnants of my heart which i had left. i wish to pick them back up at this moment. that time, i defended your honor, if you remember. and where i first became your demon slayer at that. i realized then that defending your honor came to be a somewhat juvenile act at the time yet… but oh, i realized that i can defend your honor again and again. then hmm… how about i also seek to not only defend your honor, but also to salvage it, coddle it, and allocate time to attend to it. additionally, how about i not only defend your honor, but your laugh, your warmth, your smile, your cheeky remarks. as time grew steady and passed, i realized that i favored all of the above. i’ve been leaving a trail of my beating heart ever since. as your demon slayer - defending your smile, attending to that heart of yours - it no longer became a matter of that i /had/ to do it. no. i /get/ to do it. i think it’s time for me to retrace my steps to where i can make my heart feel just a bit more whole, a bit more adequately adjusted. park sooyoung, i want to tell you how i truly feel about you.

i… really don’t plan on talking for an eternity. but in order to keep up with how immensely infatuated i get for you with each passing second, i just might have to. i’m not very good at this still, i guess. i get utterly silent trying to decipher out what i’d like to say to you every time you show up. i try drawing a line with my eyes, from those elegantly construed irises of yours to the angle of your lips which let each smile sit fondly upon. yet familiarizing myself with those delicate features of yours is promptly obsolete, because then i am surprised by what accompanies them - that bashful laugh, which precede the voice which is comparable to an angel’s caress. im forced to start over, hopeful that the next time i see you, i’ll be ready. but my pulse races every time, and i trust my heart to make the judgement for me - i’ll never be ready. i’ll never be ready to not fawn over your essence which makes you you. yet the odd thing is that it doesn’t stop there, it never does. your charisma and ability to attract others raises my heart above my head. to not fall for you is to not fall for someone so inviting, accommodating to others, and sincere to the flesh, the very bone. etched into your heart aren’t just the characteristics of your outward beauty, but also the inward charm. the heart matches its physical holder - absolutely stunning. i realized this long ago, but was afraid to speak out on it, unfortunately. i was afraid to speak out on many of these aforementioned details in the past, simply because i wasn’t sure how you’d respond. but i’ve grown to be a little bit more open to you, and if you don’t mind, a little bit selfish. my mind tells me, ‘forget the insecurities, jinyoung. you need to start caring about your feelings more.’ and i want to. i want to care more about my feelings for you, even more so than i have. if i had let you in through a small crevice in my heart, then i’ll make it bigger. i’ll increase its size tenfold so that i can be more open to you. there was always something i’ve wanted to say, but at the same time, i didn’t know what it was, if that even makes adequate sense. that feeling that culminated exponentially inside of me, it heeded to no tangible words but i knew what it was trying to say. i brought you here today to tell you that now i know what it was trying to say... after all of this time.

i’m ready to be a good boyfriend to you.

or at least the very best i can be. i wouldn’t dare falter, nor stumble, especially if your heart were on the line. i want to be someone that can provide for you, comfort you, be someone that abides by the rules of your heart, mind, and soul. what is now growing as a burning infatuation - i just want a little bit more for us, but only if you are comfortable with saying yes. if i could draw our hearts in the sand, they’d be joined not only by our intangible heartstrings but by the words we’ve shared with each other all this time, and the laughs which cast its melody in the background of our journey thus far. but… no kneeling this time for me, not for something like this. i will let my feet dig into the sand for you and let my stature stand up to its fullest so that i can competently and coherently proclaim that yes… i want you to be mine, park sooyoung. nothing else matters to me. i want to continue being there for you. my princess, my baby - baby girl, park sooyoung. i love you. i love you very much so.

forever and a day?
how about forever and two days?
or three?
what lies beyond forever is something that i want find out, but i wouldn’t want to without your hand in mine. maybe then, forever will come to us.

happy birthday again, dear. hopefully i didn't shock you or surprise you too much. i've been meaning to do this for quite some time now. but... i feel like if i didn't do this as soon as i could, then i'd regret it. so with that being said, i really only have one thing left to ask. i ask that you also answer this with your heart, with how you truly feel. my heart would feel all the more thankful.

park sooyoung, will you be my girlfriend?