hi babie, so my creativity juices is still at an all time low and i'm not sure if it's bcs internship has worn me out this much but anyway it's no excuse for me to not do something for you?! this isn't much compared to previous gifts bcs i really,,have no idea what to do but i hope you like it still. 

 

another simple love letter from me to you,

 

as with all of my "essays" for you, i'm not too sure where to start and this might get a little messy to read since it's not structured; just going to write the first thing in mind and go from there. 

 

to talk about where we are now: loving you is as easy as breathing, it's effortless, something i don't even have to think about. it has become familiar, like i've known how to do it my whole life. loving you is a dream come true-- you're a dream come true. but you've also turned my reality better than my dreams and sometimes, perhaps more often than not, i find myself yearning for you at nightfall. i'm like a well, and each thought of you that crosses my mind is a drop. it fills me up until i overflow and my heart is consumed by thoughts and images of only you.

 

it's strange bcs i would've expected to be better with words by now, after all the love letters i've written, after all the times i've simped for you. yet, as time passes, the lesser words i'm able to string together to make sound of the feelings i hold for you? the love i have for you runs deep in my veins and i'm not good at expressing, so the only thing that i end up saying is "so cute". but it's so much more than that, i'm actually always overwhelmed by the immense love that i want to shower you in. 

 

ne ways, here we are?! 5 months in!?!? and i'm already looking forward to spending 6 months together with you, 7, 8, 9, 1 year, until we can't count anymore. ngl i have my worries with every r/s and it's not bcs i doubt my partner but bcs i doubt myself? part of the reason why i'm not interested in pursuing a love interest is also bcs i get bored really quickly so it'll be a waste of time to seek for something that'll last,,tops a month?!? even if i don't get bored i just,,,end up wanting to drop it bcs it feels like a huge responsibility?! eetz bad so i just don't do it at all to save both parties the trouble. with you tho, it's so natural. i've mentioned how i've,,grown attached to you? or how at first i didn't really take it too seriously like i didn't have any expectations going into this but the more time we spend together, the more attached i get? the more feelings i have for you? just more,,, of all things nice. gradually you even manage to get the p word side of me out haha i've never done that o____o what magic or manifestation did you do omo that's never happened but with you things are different and everything is just,,, it feels a lot better?! so i shouldn't be too surprised. but yes i think what i wanted to say is that you make me want to do more? it's more of a need, really. you motivate me to do better and you know how i mentioned about doubting r/s,,,it's bcs i can't always be interesting, you know. i appear in a way (like a crackhead) but i can't always keep that facade up so i guess it worries me sometimes that eventually i'll end up boring and there's nothing to look forward to anymore?! or if i'm lacking in any aspects,,,which i definitely have bcs i'm human haha my flaws omo,,,that worries me bcs i wouldn't want you to get tangled in it. but a lot of my perspectives change?! i wouldn't want to lose you and just go like 'yeah you deserve better anyway' i'll be too,,,p word and salty O /// O so instead of moping around i just,,work towards improving myself?! i like growing with you so it's not like i'm forcing myself-- you don't force me either so i've been growing at my own pace eetz nice!?!?!

 

it's been 5 months now and i can say the only thing that has changed is the amount of love i have for you. i don't know how you do it or how this works but i really do fall for you more each day, my love for you grows exponentially and i'm pretty sure it won't stop growing. i love you so much and there's still a lot i want to achieve with you, experience with you, so bear with me babie :^

 

as with all my other letters / rants / essays to you,,,iono how to conclude it but all i can say is that i absolutely adore you and i'm very fond of you <3_____<3 fun fact, i was researching on rings and stuff bcs you know,,,and i didn't know there were so many different types of rings for different reasons (?) like an engagement ring, purity ring, religious ring,,, aha a promise ring is cute,,, so there's this one called the claddagh ring and it symbolises love, loyalty, and friendship. fitting innit qwmnqnr here there's a whole history behind the ring too but yez,,,two hands clasped around the heart represent friendship, the heart represents love of course, and the crown represents loyalty. apparently there's a way to wear it too?!?! haha since we're dating,, on your right hand with the heart pointed inwards,,,i don't want to make a whole promise speech here bcs then it'll sound like i'm saying my vows,,,but a few things that i promise!1!1!! like a reassurance1!!1!

 

i promise to always be here for you, no matter the circumstances you're facing; be it if you have problems or if you're feeling icky, i won't ever leave you. i promise to always make you happy or at least try to, bcs your smile is one that i want-- need?! to protect and your laughter is something i never want to stop hearing. i promise to always be honest with you, even though i'm stubborn and i'm not as expressive when it comes to emotions especially the ugli ones, but i'm trying, working towards being more communicative!1! i promise to always be loyal to you, my eyes and heart and soul and just my everything?!!? yours only. i have a lot more to say but then what will i say at our wedding,,,

 

damn i really ramble a lot this was supposed to be like a conclusion qwnmbwqm tldr?! i love you and i always will, with my whole heart. happy 5 months my babie, my love, my tiny, my nugget, my muffin, my future wifey!!! to many more with yOU!!

 

also here's a collection of stamps,,,kinda?! i call it the jung jaehyun special,,,a limited edition for the one and only ha sooyoung. if you hover over each image there's uhm, a short description of what it is. it's like pokemon, gotta catch them all?!?! like which sides of me you have unlocked?!

 

 

and because i felt that it was inadequate,,,,i made some crack edits too?! i tried my best not to show you everything the other day yez!11!1!!