kim yohan
09.22.1999 / 20
university student
kim yohan was born into a rather competitive family. one that holds itself to the greatest standards of perfection. in a family like that, yohan was to be no different from the rest. he needed to do something amazing to match up with everyone else, and his father noticed what yohan's calling was from a young age. yohan was always filled with energy, and watched practices that his father would take him to with the biggest, most curious eyes.. that's how yohan started practicing taekwondo, under the guidance of his own father. it came almost naturally for him, as he was so young and could easily learn anything at that age. it was just an innocent hobby until he got a little older and his father truly started pushing him to participate in the sport, in all sorts of competitions. after his first and the rather good results from them, the competitive side of his family started showing up to impact him. the perfectionist side. they demanded more from him, made him really realize how important these things could become. and without realizing it, they were rude and harsh to the boy, making him place his self-worth on such results without ever resting or taking time to congratulate himself for the process. due to his dependence on the sport and his achievements in it for his self-confidence, well.. he doubted he'll stop anytime soon. only when he can't anymore. but that day came to him sooner than he expected. a major match he had caused him a severe knee injury that would stop him from being able to play again, and resulted in one of his first losses in a long while. it caused the boy to fall into a severe slump, which started with him just distancing himself from the outside world because he didn’t want to hear their pity-- or the anger and disappointment of his own family. first it was just to avoid others, but soon enough yohan found himself wanting to avoid himself and thoughts about himself. since he put so much of his life, effort and esteem into this one thing- having it taken away from him affected his thoughts about himself and turned them very negative. but no matter what, by isolating himself like this- he had no way to stop himself from extreme thoughts and extreme choices, because all he saw was just his lost self. a series of those occasions happening consecutively is what pushes yohan to try and pursue any sort of normalcy once again, just to escape this self imposed prison his decision to hide away became. that’s how yohan finally picks himself up together and starts interacting with people who live in this complex, alongside with attending school. of course, the wounds have not healed and yohan is still desperate for some quick solution to his injury so he can return to being an athlete - despite being told that would be impossible for him - but he’s at least at the start line of moving on, for once.
gmt-4

yohan said hippity hoppity
my life put it to a stoppity