he grew up under a roof filled with daily arguments and disappointment, poverty, flying fists and sadness. there's trauma within youngjae, and he has found comfort in status symbols.
it all started right in his early childhood, when youngjae's parents struggled financially - their situation had taken a toll on him, however, he never noticed - after all, he was used to it. he'd been growing up like this. he'd grown up to his parents fighting, he'd grown up to silence at t he dinner table, to death stares where love should've been. honestly, his parents had always been so busy with their problems with each other that they seemed to have forgotten about their only son.

like this, youngjae has found himself playing in his room by himself to silence the voices of his parents fighting over money every single day. he thought that if they had money, maybe his mom and dad would get along better. maybe he wouldn't wake up nearly every night because their arguments just got so loud, or because he was scared they might hurt each other.
alway having carried around this burden, youngjae wasn't like the other kids in his class, he wasn't one of the kids with the successful, the cool, the funny parents, he was just a weirdo who always seemed overly hyped about social contact. in his teens, eric was, in fact, very bubbly - which leads back to him not being able to feel joy at the place he called his "home".

it was when he was 14 years of age when the young lad's parents got into a fight so intense that youngjae called the cops on his own mother, who was threatening to take his father's and her lives.
it was at this moment that youngjae's childhood had died, it was at this moment when he decide to take responsibility for his mother's words.

after his parents finally saw that it was time to let go of their marriage for not only their own, but also their son's sake, it already was too late ot give eric his childhood back - he was worried sick, he was scared, he was on edge, on alert, always - and the only relief of his past trauma he could seem to find was to make up for his initial struggles: money. having it felt good. it was a night when he was hanging out with... a selection of some of the wrong people that youngjae got a taste of luxury, and it was the same night when he fell for its charms and its appeal oh-so foolishly, and soon, he fell for shopping, and he soon was found visiting the mall, both buying and stealing several different kinds of things at the tender age ot 17 years. he hasn't done it for all too long, however, he never got caught stealing.

youngjae only introduces himself to people as eric in order to keep his privacy secured.

in order to get to spend money recklessly without literally walking into the police's arms, he needed another kind of income - and oh, the sumiyoshi-kai clan's search for "pets" just seemed almost too perfect to him.
after all, he was promised to be paid well, very, very well, even, and he didn't care about what exact danger he was exactly getting himself into simply because he had no clue just how serious all of this was.

because he feared the wrath of the clan and still does, he remained obedient, even though he doesn't like how he slips into the yakuza life more and more, day by day, with every man's hand he lets himself have laid upon his chest, and how he loses control over his own life because of it, and seeing that he can't even do anything about it himself leaves him scared to wake up the next day. on his job, however, he gets greedy for the money, which is why he takes the risk despite having mixed feelings - as long as he can afford his addiction to shopping and luxury, all is good, as it is the only thing that brings him joy at this point - since he sells his intimacy, he couldn't imagine to ever find joy in another person and still kind of can't.

today, eric is haunted by flashbacks from when he was still living at home and paranoia from the times he had stolen in the mall. overall, he knows how to put on a good fight, however, as reckless as he might seem, eric has an insecure core through and through, if you pay him enough, he'll let you do pretty much anything to him. he doesn't do lovers, he does business. buriness to make money. but oh, no amount of money in this world could ever make up for the amount of love he'd missed out on in his life - leaving him jealous and bitter towards anyone who has received it in a proper way.
he curses himself for letting his life spiral down further and further, and once the realization that he had become part of the yakuza, he started to reflect and question his priorities, and everything else. knowing very well that his money couldn't buy him happiness, eric is convinced that spending money on expensive things would be the closest he'd ever get to being happy.

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