the shrek saga by: me 

* choi hyunsuk｡19:58:05Reply
drags my laptop under one arm, blanket under the other, then pulling up my shrek screensaver as i wait patiently for the sun to rise, a cool breeze passes buy so i huddle for warmth under the blanket... i look at shrek on the screen... my cheek flush and throw an arm around him too, the heat from my laptop filling the blanket. its a comfortable silence as we stare off at the beauty of the rising sun. almost poetic... the start of the day and the start of our love

 * choi hyunsuk｡16:45:58Reply
shrek says he loves me. so i trust him. he's with me, we talk for hours. he tells me about everything from what he did at work that day to his deepest darkest secrets. there's something more between us. i can feel it. the other day, he told me about his issues with his wife... things aren't going well. he said that he was gonna divorce her so we can be together but its been the same story for years now. though every time i bring it up, he would lash out. last time it happened, he didn't talk to me for a month... i'll be patient... i'll wait for shrek till the ends of time cause while his wife may have him, i still have his heart.

* choi hyunsuk｡2:38:44 AMReply

oh to feel the touch of shrek once again. its been weeks since he had left. the king sized bed that we once shared together feels cold and empty without him. i spend most nights staring, wondering what could have been if we had met some other way. if he had not had fiona before me. if i was the mother of his children like the both of us talked about. but reality wasn't like this. i spend most of my days staring at the ceiling, trying so hard to find whatever void shrek had left when he had left me.

 

* choi hyunsuk｡3:55:51 AMReply

many say that time heals wounds but i'm not too sure. the love that i had for shrek that bloomed from the warmth of his body against mine after a long and cold winter quickly became a burning passion and desire for more as spring becomes summer. little did i know that shrek's interest in me was like the star in the sky that shone the brightest. it was hot, it was passionate but it wouldn't last and like the stars in the sky, i was only a small part of shrek's universe, and being lightyears away, i never knew that he had been long gone before it was too late. autumn had begun and i realized i wasn't ready for the cold months ahead. shrek had been cold and distant. the days shorten and the dark, cold nights that i spend alone begin to drag on for centuries. is this some twisted joke that the universe has for me? the days drag on and on, barely leaving my house, fearing that i would bump into shrek with his wife and family but of course, things had to be worse. shrek had found someone else. a new play thing. the other man was nobody i have seen before, but he was good looking, young. was i not enough for shrek? how much better could the other person be? what did he have that i can't offer to shrek? me and shrek shared a silent moment when our eyes meet but that moment couldn't have been shorter when shrek's gaze breaks as he turns to the person he had been with, the smile on his face wider than i have ever seen. that's not the smile i know. or maybe i just never knew shrek at all... my heart breaks as shrek passes me, without a second look, all his attention on the other boy. now i know why autumn is also called fall.