happy birthday, beautiful.

i wanted to do something special for your birthday, but it's a difficult day to do something special for, isn't it? it's not just your birthday, after all. so what does your boyfriend do on a day like this? i mean, other than ramble on in a note about things he doesn't have the courage to just say to you, and make a fool of himself in the process.

each day since you agreed to be mine, i find myself wondering the same things. what did i ever do to deserve you? how can i make you as happy as you make me? why can't you see just how incredible you really are? ... do you really like my ?

okay, maybe that last one was part of the "make you as happy as you make me" initiative. i can only hope it made you laugh.

i love you, byun baekhyun, with all of my heart, mind, body, and soul. you're my soulmate, my other half, my twin flame—you're my whole world. when you smile, you light up the room. when you laugh, there's nothing else i want to hear. when you say my name, i feel like i could take on anything. but it's not just your happiness i love. i still love you when you're sad. i still love you when you're upset. i still love you when you're only putting on a brave face for the world.

i love you for who you are, inside and out. no matter your shape, no matter your size, no matter your hair, no matter how much you hate cucumbers. i will always love you.

you told me once that others have picked at your faults, but i don't see them. i see your character. i see the things which make you unique. most clearly, i see the man i love and i see the man that i would happily spend forever beside if given the chance.

all that said, i still don't know how it is you looked at me and decided i was worth your love and affection. i don't know how you stayed beside me while i was in my low. i don't know how you can stomach taking care of me, or let me take care of you. but you do, and i will never stop being grateful for that.

the day you agreed to be mine, you made me the happiest man. i'm not trying to rush into anything when it's only been about three weeks, but i know there's no one else i want. we agreed to forever and always, so maybe that starts with a
promise?