As a child my family and I didn't get along, my mum and I got along but my father was always a dictator, made me feel that I was lesser than I was, so when I went off to culinary school, not because I wanted to, no, it was totally because my dad wanted me to. I did everything he told me to, until it got to the point that I was over it. I went into this club and started dancing, there was something about the idea that my father knew that me doing dancing that would have killed him and I was all for it. I hated him more than anyone in the world, so when I went back after I graduated school and said that I was going to be a dancer, this kind of opened up my way into the sub/dom scene, I liked it when people watched me, but I liked it more when I watched other people, and told them what I wanted them to do. It was something that I didn't expect, something that I hoped wouldn't come to me, the way I acted like my father. Telling people what I wanted them to do and expecting them to do it....so truth be told when I go into that mode, sometimes I go into a state where I feel I need to be punished because I don't like being treated the same way. But this doesn't happen often....