▹ bang chan ʰ Nov 14, 2022 6:17:50 Reply History 
mon coeur ♥

happy monthsary. i went to the padlet and edited things. took a few things out, added a couple things. but i also wrote a letter for you - i hope you like it.
for forever and beyond, i love you, hwang hyunjin.
https://padlet.com/unfreeze/4sxgdbw0mnl0zsgx

 

▹ bang chan ʰ Oct 10, 2022 9:17:24 Reply History 

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late night thoughts before bed.
can you believe it? in four days we would be dating for 3 months. should we do something special? i know i have the day off from work so if you want, we could plan something. a nice little date in celebration, even if we end up curled up in the couch in the end. any day i can have to spend with you is like taking a glimpse into what heaven would look and sound like. there is not a moment that i don't cherish.

i've been doing a lot of self-reflecting lately. i wouldn't say i have a lot on my mind, i just wonder a lot. about everything, really. there's still a part of me that is convinced that this is all just... one big dream that i haven't woken up yet. that one day, when i /do/ wake up, it would be an entirely different scenario - and i also wonder what i would do if that did happen. useless things to meddle about, i'm aware, but when it comes to you, my thoughts are endless.

i wonder if i would be able to continue on as if it was nothing. as if the dream was just that. but then i wonder if i would be devestated to know that something that felt so real and grounding was all just make believe, perhaps i would mourn a love that never existed if that were to happen.

thing is, though... i wake up every day knowing that you're right there. always have been, always will be. at least, one could hope but i digress. the point is: you have quickly become the planet that i orbit, that i tend to and watch over. you are a constant in my life. always have been, always will be. there's nowhere else i would rather be. there's no one else i'd rather be with. i know we never really talked about marriage and things of that sort... i don't know if you even want to get married at some point, but either way...

you are my constant, hyunnie.
you are my forever.
somewhere, i know our names are written in the stars... i just know it.

remember: i love you.
i love you so much.
forever and always.
❤️

 

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