I never believed in love until I met you. it was definitely not love at first sight, you were a little boy and our adorable baby that we all loved to dote on. I saw you grow up and turn into a fine young man. I was in denial for a long a time cause for long, I kept just seeing you as the little boy that relied on us, that had his big collection of plushies that I definitely added on a lot... and the little boy that would shield his own feelings and thoughts to be there for us, to bring us a smile with his cuteness despite also breaking inside. but you... I don't know what you saw on me and I really didn't want to see it at first but you really managed to wedge yourself in my heart. you made me realize that life had a lot more colors than I thought, that everything was so much beautiful and enjoyable when you were by my sight. you saw my insecurities and you hugged them and made me feel like everything was okay, that i had nothing to fear or worry about because you will always be there for me. because no matter what life throws our way, you will always fight by my side. you really wrecked my life in all the best ways and I honestly would be so stupid if I ever let you go.
huening kai, I loved you before, I love you now and I will keep loving you until the day my soul ceases to exist because even when death comes, I will keep loving you in the afterlife.