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     Hua has never felt comfortable with anything in life, starting with his birth when he was born into the wrong body. Sure, physiologically he was a girl but psychologically, emotionally, he was a male and he chose to express that image. As a child, things were relatively easy. He kept his hair short and clean cut, wore boy clothes, and his mother managed to convince the school to address him as a boy. She figured if she indulged this "phase" as she liked to call it, that he would grow out of it.

    He didn't.

    But everything was relatively fine. Life went on and he was happy. That changed when he entered middle school and puberty hit. He had to bandage his chest (and still does) and be extremely cautious when that time of the month rolled around. The teachers in his middle school were not nearly as understanding and the students found out, leaving Hua to deal with torment day in and day out. He was bullied constantly for being a "freak" and a "dyke."

    That year, he tried to commit suicide. Twice. Both times he was unsuccessful, thankfully, but it caused the tension that was already rising within his family to skyrocket. His father left and his mother fell into a pit of alcoholism. That's when he started withdrawing from everyone around him even more so than he was and started cutting. He was only 13 years old. He went through countless therapists, countless hospital stays, in the year that followed. They diagnosed him with schizotypal, avoidant personality disorder. He was cleared as "stable" (i.e. not suicidal) and sent back to live with his mom but when he walked in, he noticed she was nowhere in sight. She was gone. He never saw her again.

 

He dropped out of school that year and got a part time job as a cashier at a local cafe. However, he soon realized that his life was not going far and he would never become successful if he didn't return to school. He applied to Opium Academy as an Art major and, surprisingly, was accepted rather quickly.

So far, no one at the school knows that he is actually a girl. He applied as a boy and he made sure that all of his documents showed that he was male. No one knew, not even the teachers, and he wanted to keep it that way. If someone found out his secret, he didn't know  what he would do and how he would react.

Because of his personality disorder, Hua spends the majority of his time alone. He doesn't talk to anyone and he avoids being in groups of people whenever possible. Instead, he spends his time, isolated from the rest of the world, in his room or in his corner of the library and draws. He draws on everything and anything he can get his hands on. When he's not drawing, he's reading or writing music. Singing was his secret vice but he never shared it with anyone. The only time he sung was when he was alone and usually at night when everyone else is asleep.