I don't understand.....

......why am I alive?

Why am I here?

What kind of purpose would I serve......

.........In a world where I'm a clone

Where do I go?

What do I do?

I just don't get it......

......I just want to die.

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Sehun Alpha 1

Sehun Alpha 1 was made from the worst parts of Sehun. He was born with cold dead eyes, his emotions masked by his blank stare. He didn't want to live, he hated living, but he knew he couldn't kill himself. Sehun began to do drugs and drink, his only source of money coming from a mafia he now owed a large sum to. There wasn't a day where he wasn't hyped up on ecstasy, or injecting himself with heroine. He knew deep down inside that he wished the drugs would just kill him, taking him away from the life he never wanted. When he failed to pay off his debt, the mafia came after him. Sehun had one of two choices, die in the most painful way possible, or work for the mafia. From that day he became a gooney for the mafia, doing all sorts of odds and ends for them. He killed people, and slowly became a monster. His emotions flew father away the more he involved himself in the mafia. He was cut off the drugs, the boss claiming that he needed to be in his right mind while he worked. He would come back every night with a new cut, bruise, or broken bone. Sehun knew his life was going no where, and it never would. The only time he ever felt something again, a speck of emotion, was when he was ordered to kill a women. He had found her protecting her children, tears streaming down her cheeks as she held her body in front of theirs. That night no one died, and Sehun had used heroine again. That side of Sehun that made him stop, that made him walk away from the mother was the compassionate side of the real Sehun. Even with all that bad, he still had a little good.

 

Occupation: Mafia gooney

Personality: Cold and emotionless, not very open with what he really feels, hates wasting his time, only feels soft spots for very few things, hates living and wishes he were dead, has a small bit of compassion and good in him deep down inside

 

 

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