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❝Kim Taehyung

 

 

 

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Kim Taehyung's journal notes. ( the highlighting i'm too lazy)

 1/4/14--Ugh I miss you. I'm going to start a mini log so I won't try to miss you, I'll be sure to write it every two days or more. When you come back, should I tell you to read it or let you find it on your own? Still wondering if you would ever call me oppa. Probably not. I feel so lame and sappy but I miss you. To think I thought you would always be around. It's weird for me and I don't like feeling like this, time go by faster. Time go by quickly please... ppali.

1-6-14- I still miss you. It's quiet at times and I don't know what to do. You'll be back soon enough right?

1/8/14 Hopefully you can drop by and say hi soon. I miss hearing your voice. Your hair looks nice. I feel like a lovesick pup. Our pup. I don't even know what to name him yet. I didn't get to show you mochi yet either. Mochi and him get along pretty well too. You'll be here soon enough right?

1/9/14- I rewatched some of the gayo daejun performances and you looked stunning as usual. Really stunning, like everyone looked nice but you, had this sort of glow. I feel creepy sorry. I should write more but I don't really know what to say you see. *grins*  See you soon Bomi ah.

1/10/14- You were here yesterday, briefly, very briefly. I feel the distance growing.. That's not a good sign. Why do I feel like you're going to leave here? Bad feelings need to go away. I remember you wanted to leave a few months back but then you stayed. If you aren't happy here, why do you stay? Am I thinking this all in the wrong way? Am I being dumb, or am I being realistic? Sometimes I don't want to even know. Just tell me what you want to say.. We used to talk every day but I guess you're busy. I shouldn't be worrying right? Not clingy right.. Be a good boyfriend.. But I can't help but miss you.

1/11/14- It hurts but this is better right. I should've known better, you disappearing practically right after we got together. I should've known it wasn't right. Every single moment you were there, I couldn't help but feel wrong. Not wrong but it didn't feel right, how could I be with you when so many others tried? I guess I won't hear from you for awhile, I have no idea how I'll say hi to you again. It's going to end up like we're strangers once again. I'll miss it. I'll miss it a lot, but if it's not what makes you happy, it wouldn't make me happy right? I dated half of the dates as above in 2013 and I just fixed it. All these days I felt a mess, hoping you would stop by when in reality, I should've just stopped. It's not your fault really. It really isn't. I love you. I'm tired, it's ridiculous how tired I am. I want to sleep but I just lay there. There's something wrong with me. Something is wrong..

1/13/14- Wow today was a long day at school. I really don't like half the people there. I just want to forget everything. Go back to when times were easier but life just doesn't work that way does it? I wonder if anyone ever reads these. I want, to just be carefree. Today is a strange day, I feel like there's more to come. Life is going to be weird isn't it?

1/15/14- Is it bad that I don't really want to talk to anyone right now? It's just bothersome. Not everyone but a lot of people seem really down recently. Then there's a few people who still shine as bright, I applaud you. Stay optimistic.

1/17/14- Haha,, So I got sick and I feel like . Medicine didn't help that much and god I'm burning. My stomach is in knots and it's not that fun..

1/19/14 I'm feeling a lot better. Sick wise. My mind still is egh. I don't want to think. I just want to go out and have fun but what's stopping me? Wow I'm such a sap. See you around.

1/21/14- Yesterday I felt better, today I felt sick again. This dumb headache needs to stop. Does my body not know it should block out these pain signals or something. I made a few new friends. they're nice, yoonji noona and bambam got together I think yesterday too. It's cute I guess? But then again. Mochi is cute. This is such a load of nonsense.

1/22/14- What am I even writing for? Does anyone read this, if you do, hi. I think you're adorable and you should be happy forever. I'm hungry, and I should go eat. My cold is almost gone, I just sort of have a sore throat/cough now. I don't know when it will go away though.

1/24/14- I keep dating these wrong gdi. N I see you, you little creep. Lately it's been a ltot different. I don't feel as sad that's good right? I still miss her now and then but who wouldn't. She was my friend before it all happened. Maybe that's why is wasn't right. Sometimes I'm late editing this meh. Why am I still sick. This is ridiculous, cough go away. Lately I've been listening to a lot of VIXX and it's terrible because i like it so much. N help me. /dies-

1-26-14  Should I be happy or sad.. I think I should be neutral but I'm feeling more happy. I just want to know some things that will probably never sort itself out. Some people irl are pissing me off though, like can you not I will throw you into a ditch. School is gross as usual, I don't know how people don't get that there's something wrong with the system. I'll make you smile today, and again tomorrow okay? Don't be sad anymore please. It makes me sad when I see you're getting distant. God I'm clingy. Note to self, be less clingy..That won't work at all.

1-27-14 There's days I wake up and just feel unneeded. That's bad right. I don't know how people deal with some things. I feel boring and not neccasary. Someone told me I was a waste of space. They're right aren't they... Even if it's true or not, I don't think I'm a waste.. Right..

1-28-14 The events going on this week are cute. I wonder who's just going to just buy all the people who don't get bidded on. That should happen. Someone do that. Buy forty different people with like five points. But then again that might hurt their feelings and guh feels. On a whole different note, there's people reading this. There are times when I question everything, like why do people talk about people? Why can't feelings be easily sorted out? Why don't those people that aren't in a relationship but are so god damn thirsty, just go find something to do. Or water... Water is good for you. Bomi is a . A face. Stop locking me in cages.

1-30-14 Dawww forehead hyung gave me candy. Why thanks you lovely pewp face. I laff you too hyung.You is a special creature, like half the time, I don't understand what you are doing or saying but that's okay because you're insane.You're one of my closest friends here and if you were gone, I would've gone ape and made you come back. Or creeped and followed you until you laffed me back. OUT FRIENDSHIP IS SO STRANGE. LIKE I THROW POTATOES. YOU MAKE FRIES. YOU THROW CANDY. I EAT IT AND SMACK YOU WITH FLOWERS. THIS LOVE. IS TOO GREAT FOR WORDS.                I am feeling pressured, like I will get to that thing that I must do, but that thing I am waiting for the perfect moment because this thing is important and I don't want the person for the thing to ever forget. /flails/ STRUGGLESISREAL. Please don't hit me for saying that. Someone called my smile cute. someone. called. my smile. cute. hah. I am not completely sharkified. Or am I ohohoo. /rolls/

2/4/14- Woops I forgot to write here for the last few days and wow okay. I missed writing a lot. There's some really great people around here but then there's some that I don't love talking to. I guess people don't know my pet peeves and neither do I until one of those are hit. But on a side note, have you seen herbuttlikejesuswhateven, I don't even know what I should write today, it's going to be a tiring day that's all I know, have practice from 7-9 guh. Not ready to get my kicked. 

2/5/14- I hope you don't think I like other girls. I do talk to a lot of other girls now that I look at it, but I talk to people of both genders.. I guess I'm that one guy that just has a bunch of friends and I'm friendly...? I didn't always used to be like this. I guess I changed for the better but I'll be sure to not be close with them. Just trust me please.

2/6/14- I don't know how I should have reacted to that. I still think you're cute. You say you're y but I don't know. *shrugs* I just want to hug you and keep you close but but that would be clingy? Do you like clingy. I'm not clingy am I? I just.. like being near you and being able to hold your hand and gwaaaaaaaaaaaah. so much mush. I'll just melt  into a pile of goop.

 

2/9/14- Why am I like this. I'm sorry, I never meant to make you upset. I didn't know if it was too soon or not, I just don't want you to disappear. Maybe I just have abandonment issues or something,..

 

2/12/14- All the confessions are so sad.. If you liked someone, wouldn't you tell them? Or is it better to keep it in like everyone else has. Why does everyone end up getting hurt? I can't keep everyone happy. I'm trying. It's difficult trying to live up to expectations. 

2-15-14- Huehue. You're so cute. I'm finally on break so I can get a chance to catch up on all that sleep I've been lacking, which isn't that much anyways. Hopefully it will be a great week. I hope you feel happier soon, it's not nice seeing people I care about sad. 

2-16-14-  You're such a strange kid, like matching underwear what even. Are we going to get a btsvixx ship going on hyuk?

I'm sorry I can't make you happy. I've tried. I really have but I guess it did more worse than good didn't it?

3-1-14- It's pretty bad I haven't been around in a few days, I'll do my best to be around. I won't let anything happen alright? Just please believe in me. Things have been getting crazy, the sudden amount of work I've been getting it's overwhelming but I'll push through, and make it. There will be times when I'll be exhausted and feel sick but all in the end, it will be good. Trust me.

3-10-14- wow these are getting really inconsistent. I blame school. It's been pretty tiring but I'm trying really hard to make time. It's just a little hard for me to be around. I'll still come. Always and always I will come.

 

  

 

Friends' letters. I'm going to write you something, sometime when the time's right. If you're not here, chances are I don't know what to say to you or we aren't  close. I'll change it often, maybe adding to a person's or adding people. To be finished eventually never.

Baekhyun: Hey mom, remember that day when we first thought of the Hyun family? One of the best days of my time here.  That definitely started all this craziness we have going on. I really like spending time with you and turning you into a belt display was definitely fun.You put up with my ridiculous shrieks of terror, and my constant rubbing of your head, how do you do it? I just want you to know you're the best Baekma I could wish for.

Bomi: You're the most evil creature in the entire world. I don't like cages. >-< I dun like it stahp why do you do this. /smacks you with a brick/ Even if you're a face, and you hit me all the time now, and you're the most ed thing in the planet, i still laff you. Not laff laff but laff. Like. What even how do I explain this.

Daehyun: Hi Dad. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU FORGOT ABOUT YOUR ONE AND ONLY SON. You have Alzheimer's that's why you'll forget me again. If I dressed up as cheesecake, would you remember? Even when I cling to you, and rub your hair at times, you treat me well.

Dongwoo: Hyung, will you be coming back anytime? I miss you. It's weird, I'm used to your strange dino ways then suddenly you stopped talking and disappeared. It threw me off in the most weirdest way. We miss you dongpoop. Come back and I won't call you a pewp. Hyosung noona definitely misses you.

Forehead Hyung: You are so gross. Like ew. Stop with that dp man. Just kidding. You know I love you even if you're crazy, or strange, or even when I throw you into the ocean. It's all out of love. I still don't get how you deal with me. What even, like how have you not ran away from me yet?

Hara: We met awhile ago and at the time, you were really down and I was too. It seems like you're more busy now so i hope you still come and say hi. It's really fun spending time with you, playing in the water even if you tripped me and all. But it was really fun, I'm hoping your heart's is getting better.

Hoseok: You are one of the most interesting person. Yano is one lucky kid isn't he? But then again so are you. I think I scared off your boyfie though. J-horse will take us through this new year, and we shall be successful and great.

Hyosung: Noona noona noona. How long have we known each other? It's been quite some time hasn't it and we talk and talk and get shipped and talk some more. I like spending time with you, it's fun and laid back. I don't really have to care if I'm being weird or not because, you know you are weird too. Don't you dare try to deny it.  But hey on the side note, you really are one of my favorite noonas. shhh don't tell yeon that.. or yoonji for that matter. I don't know what to do to make you smile again, please smile soon. It hurts to see you so sad and I can't help. I do care for you I really do.

Hyuk: You are such an interesting person like what even. Underwear seriously? I will never comprehend the amount of strange that radiates from your body. Let's be friends forever and let me kidnap you. I'm making a collection of maknaes. So far it's you and yugyeom.

Jisoo: You are a peasant. Your bofie is a peasant. All of you are peasants. Besides that fact, you were one of the first friends I made here and I'm pretty sure you shipped yourself with everyone at that time but you don't laff me no more because you always try hitting me and shiet. Like what even woman stop the abuse. I STILL SHIP YOU WITH INSOO. DON'T DENY THAT KISS. okaibyeiloveyoutoopeasantnoonar.

Jiyeon: I remember when I first applied, you said something either me being your slave, or you claimed me before I even came. heh. You don't laff me as much now though. Then now we're friends and stuff but you get busy a lot and I feel bad for bothering you all the time and aren't you basically running the rp by yourself because kaimin are on semi hiatus? If you need help for awhile I'm here but idk. *flails* Idon'treallysayIloveyouthatmuchbutIdoandwithoutyouwherewouldmyprincess be? 

Jongdae: Hehe hi dad number two. TREASURE BAEKHYUN FOREVER AND EVER. I've come to love talking to you and spending time with you, even though I'm annoying as hell and you probably want to whack me. Baek can't hit me though. We do weird things together, let's set the kitchen on fire. Just kidding baekhyun would hit you and me and we'd die. I like your head. It's like nicely shaped and I can pat it.

Jungkook: JEEEEEEEEEON JUNGKOOOOOOOOOOOOK. You are so chill. I don't even understand how laidback you are at times. Don't call me a girl. I will get you. Just wait kid. 

Krystal: Noona. Stop calling me a pabo. You're probably one of the people I've known the longest around here. Yeah you weren't in this rp from the start but hey, I still got Sam the Snake. *grins* I hope you're feeling great, because you seem more tired than normal. There's this tiredness in your eyes. 

Kyung

Minhyuk

Minhyun

Luhan

Naeun

Namjoon

Sanghyun

Sehun

Sungyeol

Yoonji: I just felt the need to write this now and right now. I'll most likely add to this often so hey. I like you. Why do I like you. You're so playful and it's relaxing to spend time with you even if it's filled with bites and pokes. All this time, all those weird feelings that have been kept inside are now on display and I don't know how I should deal with them. Am I supposed to fawn over you freely or will that turn you away? What do I do to keep you by my side? I'll find out.  

Youngjae

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ᴛᴏ : kim taehyung
ғʀᴏᴍ : the forehead

❛❛ hey there bb. otl you are like my first actual real friend in spectrum so I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. and you know you love my forehead. i love your potatoes. i'll try not to fry them okay? i'm always here for you and even if you don't come to me, i'll go to you. plus, i stalk your blog so i know everything e u e WHY ARE YOU SO DANG CUTE. ANYWAYS. I THINK OUR FRIENDSHIP IS THE BEST AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I CANNOT ENGLISH RIGHT NOW. OKAY BYE. ♥ ❜❜

 

 

look what a pretty qull < 3 /shot; ilysm. - yeonnie

no yeon stop

prettierthanallthenoonasintown

of course you are. coughceptmecoughs you're going to miss korea someday ;; < 3

why would i miss korea? like i'm here? *throws confetii*

i left out a word ;; otl *be miss korea o u ob

OTL I don't wanna be miss korea. /dies

why not? ;; and then you could give your prize money to me o/

what prize money? i don't have nayyy