Personal Message
Illnesses
Pyromania ; Paranoid Personality Syndrome ; Kleine Levin Syndrome ; Schizophrenia
Extreme Fears
Agraphobia (Fear of ual Abuse) ; Genophobia (Fear of ) ; itiphobia (Fear of )
Description
THE MONSTERS AREN'T UNDER my BED, THEY'RE IN my HEAD.
‹ lee donghae . oct.15.1994 . age: 19 . patient . scared›
at the young age of 5 was the first time I found out I was a pyromaniac. my mom was using matches to light the grill and I picked up the box to use one. next thing I knew, my mother's skirt was on fire and at that young age, I thought the flames were the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. a few years later, after setting quite a few objects, sometimes even people, on fire I found out about another problem I had. one day I went to sleep like normal, and when I woke up my parents were crying and hugging me. I didn't know what happened but they told me I had been asleep for 3 weeks and never woke up. that's how I found out I had kleine-levin syndrome when they took me to the doctor's. after that, I still sometimes slept for 2-3 weeks and still set things on fire since I was only 9 years old, and kept on.
‹ lee donghae . oct.15.1994 . age: 19 . patient . scared›at the young age of 5 was the first time I found out I was a pyromaniac. my mom was using matches to light the grill and I picked up the box to use one. next thing I knew, my mother's skirt was on fire and at that young age, I thought the flames were the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. a few years later, after setting quite a few objects, sometimes even people, on fire I found out about another problem I had. one day I went to sleep like normal, and when I woke up my parents were crying and hugging me. I didn't know what happened but they told me I had been asleep for 3 weeks and never woke up. that's how I found out I had kleine-levin syndrome when they took me to the doctor's. after that, I still sometimes slept for 2-3 weeks and still set things on fire since I was only 9 years old, and kept on.
i've been hurt more than once, time can't heal me.
after Donghae found out about his two very uncontrollable problems, he was signed up for counselors and health specialists. nothing seemed to work though, in fact, things got worse. then one day, when he was only 11 years old, he was once again playing with the matches his mother used for the grill. an urge to set something on fire overtook his senses and all he remembers is lighting each match and dropping them on the floor randomly while his parents were asleep. then he was outside, watching the entire house burn down, his parents and siblings inside it. once he finally realized what he'd done it was already too late. so he ran away, not wanting anyone to catch him. he was cautious and tried to hide from the police. hiding so much that he developed yet another problem, paranoid personality disorder. this caused him to always thinking someone or something was always coming to get him. so he lived on the streets for quite some time. he reached the age of 12 just months later, and just days after his lonely birthday, everything finally broke into a million pieces. he had been trying to go to sleep in a dark alley when a drunk man stumbled in and saw Donghae. 12-year-old Donghae didn't know what to do when the man grabbed him by the arm and tried to scream but the man covered his mouth. that was the night Donghae was . after that, the man left him laying in the alley, his clothes ripped and rain starting to fall from the sky as he laid their and cried. after the incident he became completely silent and never spoke a word. Donghae continued living on the streets and was finally found one day by an old couple when he was passed out on the sidewalk in front of their house. they called the police to help him and when they found out about his problems, they sent him here at the age of 14. Donghae's been here ever since, and hasn't spoken a word.
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don't you know... you are toxic
❝don't leave me...please.❞
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mood → 012345 // eargasm → link // thoughts → help me...please, help me
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