What Defines Me

I guess you could say I'm not anything, or I'm a mix of everything and nothing, if that makes sense. Well, being a little more specific, a lot of times, people call me slient and creepy like Slenderman, then when they hang around me a little longer, they notice that I'm somewhat talkative (when provoked) and cuddly like a care bear. They say I'm a and that I'm too serious, yet later on they find me charming and silly... Honestly, I think because I'm indecisive and innately confusing, people find it hard to truly get me and be around me. But most people are that way. I mean, I can stitch as many words to my name as I poosibly can, but later on I'll rip them away and replace them with their polar opposites. For that reason, I probably will never be able to tell you what I am like: I'm too many contrasting things for me to put it correctly. However, with that said, the only time I know if I am something, it is when it's an ongoing thing. That thing could be that I am troubled. Might not be able to put an exact word or definition to it, but I'd know that I'm not completely right in the head. So overall, erratic comes to mind when attempting to define myself, as you'll soon see.

 

Why It Defines Me

Around the time I was eight years old, I time traveled for the first time ever. I had always known I could, but I never had perfect timing. When it finally happened, it was lovely. Even better than running away, though I wasn't used to it. One didn't have to onstantly leave and hide out, and they didn't have to look over their shoulder to make sure they were safe as often as a runaway would. It was just like living a whole new life.

Back in my day, I had nothing but a drugged up drunk of a father that only wanted me for and an uptight up of a mom that was famous for being an emotionally abusive , though abuse was always something that was heavily present in my life. Thankfully they were divorced, so not all the pain I went through came at once. It was spread out throught the course of each week, month, and year. Since I was tolerant toward the torment, after a while, I wasn't so much afraid of them or what they would do to me; I was more afraid of feeling it. If I ever got caught after time traveling, I would always have an excuse, a believable alibi, and they'd almost never question it. The times they did, I hated most, so I'd leave again soon after when they were either gone, or while they slept. Eventually, I found some friends to enjoy this new hobby of mine with and to provide better "proof" that I wasn't doing anything "inappropriate" while gone. When one or both of my parents grew skeptical about my sudden absences, they were always prepared and took care of everything: they forged signatures and feigned illnesses when needed, they gave me a couple marks and bruises to make my bullying stories realstic, and they oten persuaded my parents into letting me do things I wanted.

Another eight years later and I turned sixteen. Got emancipated asap, dropped out of school, got a few jobs, and got on with my life. At first, it was hard. Eating instant noodles for breakfast, lunch, and dinner was better than what I used to eat, but it grew old before I ;earned to appreciate it; working day and night while trying to get back into the whole school deal was definitely tiresome, but I knew I would need to do it anyway; and bumming around places wasn't as fun as I had previously thought, espicially because of how often one gets pooped and pissed on. But I did it. I got into college and did something with myself... then I gave that up at the mercy of uncertainty and my need to relax, and I don't regret that decision. I don't see myself doing anything anyhow, so why waste precious time trying?

 

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☷ WANDERLUST  :: Plot info here.
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☶ STABILITY  :: Plot info here.
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☵ STATE OF LIQUID MATTER  :: Plot info here.
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☴ DRIFT AND MEANDER  :: Plot info here.
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☳ BOOMING  :: Plot info here.
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☲ BURNING  :: Plot info here.
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☱ FLOAT  :: Plot info here.
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☰ UNSETTLING RAPTURE  :: Plot info here.
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Out of Character Information

● I LIKE PARAGRAPHS, BUT NOT ALWAYS WILL I USE THEM. MY PREFERED WRITING STYLES ARE MULTI PARA (GENERALLY IN FIRST PERSON, BUT ALSO IN THIRD) AND SCRIPT (IN THIRD PERSON), THOUGH I DO VENTURE INTO NOVELLA ON RARE OCCASIONS.   
● I DON'T LIKE RANDOM STARTERS ON MY WALL AND WILL (MOST LIKELY) NOT RESPOND TO THEM. ASK ME IF I WANT TO ROLEPLAY BEFORE YOU POST.
● I ADORE PLOTTING AND DETAIL; I TYPICALLY DON'T ROLE PLAY WITHOUT SOME KIND OF IDEA GOING. IF WE EVER PLOT TOGETHER, BE AS SPECIFC AS YOU BOSSIBLY CAN: THE MORE INFO THE BETTER, AND IT MAKES LIFE SO MUCH EASIER.
● I'M SLOW AT REPLYING; DO NOT ROLEPLAY WITH ME IF YOU CANNOT RESPECT THAT. TIME ZONES ALSO PLAY A ROLE IN THIS, SO UNLESS YOUR TIME ZONE IS SOMEWHERE AROUND GMT -7, CALM YOUR AND WAIT. DON'T POKE ME UNLESS IT'S BEEN OVER A WEEK EITHER.
● I'D LIKE IT IF YOU WERE STRAIGHT FORWARD. THAT'S HOW I AM AND WILL BE; TELL ME OF YOUR PROBLEM WITH ME SO I CAN FIX IT.
● IF I SAY I DON'T LIKE SOMETHING, THEN I DON'T LIKE IT. LIKEWISE, IF I SAY NO, NO MEANS ING NO.