A message to my dearest DaeHo...

It's funny how things like this happen, isn't it? When we first met, you couldn't stand me and I spent my time thinking of ways that I could get my revenge for you breaking my camera.  Back then, you kept talking about how easily you could shoot and kill me, yet when I actually did get shot, you lost it. I used to act like I didn't care what anyone thought of me, even though it was actually all I thought about. Now, I act like I don't care, and I really don't care what anyone, as long as they aren't you, thinks of me. You used to build up my hope before shooting it down, like that time when you said that you would never be attracted to me, and yet again, things have changed.

I know that I don't exactly make it easy to figure out what's wrong, even though you always notice right away, and I know it must be frustrating to always have to dig for answers. But, I want you to know that it means so, so much to me that you care, notice, and try. Looking back on the day and the way that we met, I honestly think that Kage was the angel sent to bring us together, because I'd never had run into the man who ended up meaning the most to me that anyone ever has. 

I bet you never knew, or maybe you did, after all, you do know everything. But it was kind of love at first sight with me, though I know, and understand why, it took you longer to love me. Sure, it took me quite a while to believe that I actually loved you, but I think that it's true. I mean, I did have pepper spray on me that day, and if it were anyone else, I would have used it. But I didn't, and now we're here as an inseperable couple. I went from hating you, to annoying you, to being thankful for you, to hating again, to trusting you, the cycle always changing. And somewhere along the line, I couldn't imagine my life without you. Funny.

I love you more than everything, Yang DaeHo

 

Now to the rest of my ever growing family:

 

Hongki, my brother who I just found not long ago. I've always been one to know that it's not the blood that makes people family, but the bond. We bonded quite quickly if I do say so myself, even before we knew what our biological mother had done. Even though we couldn't be there for each other before, through all of the hard times, I'm glad that I have you now. I love you, hyung.

 

Suho, my pregnancy buddy. What can I say? You're a great friend who's always willing to listen to me cry or philosophize about life with me. I'm excited to go through this craziness of child rearing with you. Hopefully our kids can be close friends and have playdates and birthday parties. I wish you all the best with your pregnancy and am here for you all the way. <3

Aren't they cute?