You Will Know My Pain...

Jaejoong
(There is pain. There is darkness. Then there is my pain, and my darkness. Where your screams are swallowed by my wrath.)

∞A Broken Soul...

Jaejoong was only a mere merchant's son. Not a killer, nor defender of Justice. Sure, when he played with the other village kids, he could become the great commander of the Star Guard, but he was never really anything of the sort. Just a child who was playing with friends, before he was cruelly snatched away from his home, to watch it burn to the ground as everyone and everything he disappeared and transformed to a filthy cage. His was set aside from the other children they had taken because they had different plans for him and the other boy in the cage with him. The boy was fed scraps each day, but he had no complaints as it was something and before he was captured, there were days where he went with nothing, therefore he was content with the morsels they received. However, he yearned for his father, his aunt who took care of him since the day he was born and even the mother he couldn't remember as he sat in that dirty cage like an animal. He cried for them till he couldn't force out anymore tears. He watched day by day as young children, even younger than him, be dragged away, alive or sometimes dead. Jaejoong grew attached to the older male who was in the cage with him and often the boy would pull the younger into his arms and comforted Jaejoong as he cried. The elder seemed to know what was coming for the both of them and would always give the younger half of his day's meal to help strengthen the four year old for what's to come. One day that very male was taken out of their cell, kicking and yelling for Jaejoong to do his best to escape. That night, while mourning for his lost friend, his will broke. All hope for freedom dissipated along with the boy's childhood. He felt apologetic that he couldn't honor his companion's last wish, but he had lost all desire to fight.

The next day, he was also taken out of the cage and sold to Heuksa Chorong. He spent his days training in the art of combat, to deceive, seduce and most importantly, kill. At first, because of his age, he was only taught school subjects and various exercises to work on his flexibility and balance. Then on to strength and agility. Only at the age of ten, was he taught his first killing maneuver. Over the years of training to be an assassin, Jaejoong's heart hardened to stone and all traces of the child he once was, eliminated just like his family was.

The final test he had the undertake was to kill the thing most beloved to him. Jaejoong couldn’t imagine who they would bring to him as his time in Heuksa Chorong was a lonely one and he had no one he loved that was still alive. Despite almost all emotion being drained from the young boy, his heart ached at the sight of the very friend who comforted him night after night during those days in captivity. Jaejoong tensed up as the male was brought to kneel before him. He was hesitant and his tutor saw that, but he knew what the boy would do. The youngest in the room raised his sword, his hands trembling. With a quick swing of the weapon, Jaejoong slit the throat of the last person who cared for him. From that day forward, he was no longer alive, but only a hollow shell of his former self. It seems like he became a killer after all.

As the years wore on, his power built. He rose through the ranks as quickly as he could plunge a knife into his victim's hearts. Jaejoong was only 16 when he became a dragon, a well reputed one too. He was loyal only to the lords and no one else, but that all changed when he was assigned a mission to assassinate the current Lord Commander of the Imperial Star Army. He was to dress as a gisaeng and seduce the commander and at the right time, he'd strike. That day, the Lord Commander was celebrating a victory with several of his soldiers and there was a particular one with a strong jaw and sharp features, but warm welcoming eyes. The way he spoke to Jaejoong was not like the way the other men edly , but rather as a person, a human being. Like he had worth. He'd only experienced this one other time since he had been taken from his home. All other memories of warmth and comfort had been washed away or locked in the back of his mind. It was the first time in years he has felt actual emotions and it scared him. However, Jaejoong knew that all men here would have to die tonight so when others weren't paying attention, Jaejoong whispered to the man, to leave quickly once he gave him a signal and to wait for him by the grove of trees. The man, whose name he found out to be Mooseok, was confused and tried to ask him why, but Jaejoong just repeated his request and told him not to speak of it to anyone. One of the other gisaengs, who was also a member of Heuksa Chorong eyed the two suspiciously, but said nothing. Moments passed and when Jaejoong gave the signal, the male left after giving an excuse. As he walked to the grove of trees, a high pitched whistle that could be mistaken as a bird was heard, though he thought nothing of it. Mooseok waited for the mysterious gisaeng to come fetch him and about half an hour later, he did, with his hanbok ripped and dirtied with blood, some being his own. Jaejoong returned Mooseok to his home, deflecting all questions the young man had for him. He excluded parts pertaining to Mooseok out of his report in order to protect the man. In his free time, he went on secret excursions to meet with the young soldier and speak with him and as time went on, the two found themselves in love. However, Jaejoong's partner in that mission had been watching his suspicious acts for while and soon found the incriminating evidence to bring the influential Dragon down. With a single swing of his sword, the Sky Lord killed the man as Jaejoong was forced to watch. His promises to protect the man, the warm embraces they shared and Jaejoong's heart was lost with Mooseok's life. He was ordered to drive a dagger through the heart of the fresh corpse as punishment, but Jaejoong refused and was sentenced to execution before the members of Heuksa Chorong as an example. Luckily, with the help of a scribble, he escaped and ran to the capital where he stole clothes from a common family's clothes line. He disguised himself as a young farmer's son from a far away town who aspired to become a soldier of the Imperial Star Guard. FRom then on, he planned his revenge on the organization which stole away the life of his family, the one he loved and his own.  

Jaejoong's aptitude and great skill at fighting allowed him to quickly complete his training and surpass those in his rank. Of course, he allowed himself to fight at their level as to not rouse suspicion and made plenty of mistakes at the beginning of his training. Although his skill definitely stood out from the other's and he swiftly rose through the ranks once again till he reached the coveted position as Lord Commander. He led the army through many victories and he was deeply respected, but a few people thought him strange. Those close to him see that he is sick, but would not mention it to anyone and does not question it. At times when he is not harshly giving orders to the guardsmen and alone, he will lose himself in thought for long periods of time. There would be a deeply hopeless look in his eyes, bleak, lifeless and haunting. Sometimes Jaejoong would see a figure that resembled Mooseok and followed after it, only to find it disappeared by the time he caught up to it. To others he seemed to be chasing nothing, but Jaejoong only saw Mooseok. He would at times hear the man's deep, rumbling voice in his ear and turn only to find no one there. He was slowly losing his mind to the one he also lost his heart to. The agony tears at him, but there are no tears, only a stoic expression that rarely changes to anything more than a grimace, frown or snarl. It seems that the only emotion that had been stolen from his that would not return was happiness.

∞A Tainted Purity...

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