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Jan.4.2015 

 

Jan.16.2015 - Sometimes I'm a stubborn boy however you are so accepting and caring that I cannot fathom how I got so lucky as to be with somone like you. I know there are probably others more deserving of your attention, probably more attractive and less whiney than I, however I feel so utterly grateful that I had been the one to have caught your eye. Another ten days and I would have met you for the first time a month ago, a month of falling in love, getting to know and just admiring how someone, anyone could be as caring, selfless, and admirable as you. There are many things I could praise to others about when talking about you, such as your handsome smile and the way it lights up a room and makes everyone happier. Or the way your skin around your eyes crinkle up when you smile and the eyes themselves nearly disappear, it's quite cute. The way you get worried sick about everyone and cannot stand to stay still and absolutely must do something about it in hopes that people can be happy once again. That laugh that causes my heart to pound wildly in my chest and make me feel warm all over in delight and happiness. How you don't care about appearances, you would willingly carry me through the streets to a movie theatre despite the fact that I am most likely too big for it and in my opinion will hurt your back. You indulge but you do not spoil too greatly, you attempt to but I will always refuse because for me, I only want to live  modest lifestyle with you. One where happiness, love and laughter is the most important thing within our home. I always want to hear someone's laughter within the home that we will share soon. Am I writing a novel? You may think so, but indeed this is only just a note, a note of how much I love you. Every day I want to write you one to show you how much I adore, love you. Jung Daehyun I Park Jinyoung, the little boy from the orphanage will always love you. From the moment my ice cream dropped on the ground during that day at the ice cream shop and you placed your hand upon my shoulder and said "Hey I'm sorry" then proceeded to buy me a new ice cream cone, I think that moment I knew. I would never have said so at the time, who would believe a silly child they just met haha, however I'm happy I had gotten to know you, because you are the most amazing person I have ever met. You helped to vanquish my fear of adults and made it so that I could feel like a normal person. Due to you, I will finally be able to call somewhere home, call someone my family, call someone my loved one. You are everything to me, a child who has never had anything their entire life. You are the only thing I could ever want above all else, sure I dream of children, a career and other things, but if I had to have only one thing in the world, but one thing I would choose you over and over again.

 

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 Jan.17.2015 I have finished the adoption present. It's not that wonderful but I hope that you like it, in time I want to get even better so I can make even more beautiful images of our relationship together. Appa, I want many memories, I want to turn those memories into something beautiful. I know things may get rocky because nothing ever stays perfect, however I vow to protect you, care for you, and above all love you. Each day with you feels like a miracle, there is nothing to explain the happiness, excitement and perfection of the moment you signed those papers. Knowing that as I play with little Chihoon I was becoming yours, your family, your love, and you mine. I know that I may have ruined it a little bit by asking if Chihoon could stay with us that first night, however there are some things I must settle with him, such as telling him that even though I'm leaving the orphanage I will always be there for him, I will always support him and love him like an older bother and a mother. I would hate more than anything than to break a childs heart when they have already suffered from so much. I know that you would understand but I still felt guilty asking however the nights after this one will be filled with just you and I spending our time together however we please. I hope that you will tell me all the things you would like to do, I want to try them all with you. I know I'm a simple person with simple goals in mind but above all else I am happy and content at where my life has finally landed me. There are no regrets, no  sad thoughts, I just feel as though I belong, belong in your arms. I cannot help but wonder how our lives will be from now on? I feel as though it will go pleasantly with laughter as you teach me many things, I am excited to learn from you to be taught all the amazing things that have made you who you are. I hope to be half the person appa is when I'm older. 

Love you Appa forever and always your now son Park Jinyoung (Or would it be Jung Jinyoung? ♥ Either way I love you appa!!!

Jan.18.2015 - I just realized something, we began a new year falling in love with one another appa. I feel shy to say it but it's so extremely true. I'm glad that because I loved you many wonderful things came about, such as being adopted, being able to live with you and just having the ability to love you openly. I am anxiously awaiting the nights and days to come when we are more accustomed to being together all the time. I keep on wondering if it will be strange transitioning from being a child at the orphanage to being someone's child however I feel as though you'll make the transition smooth and comfortable. There are some things above all else that I would love to do with you, cuddling on the couch, going swimming together, taking a bath together, waking you up, going to sleep together. So many simplistic goals but I want you to be the first person I experience those with. So here's to the days coming, let they be blessed and joyous as we move forth in our lives and adapt to being each others other half. 

Love Jung Jinyoung? - ♥ XD

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Jan.19.2015 - Wah, dates, our first date. I can't believe I'm able to do something so fun and exciting with you. To be honest, it hasen't happened yet but I hope it will. I blush just thinking about it. Ever since I thought about coming here with you I went to a computer cafe and looked up amusement parks and read about the ferris wheel. There were many stories about couples kissing when it stopped at the top while underneath the sunset. I feel shy thinking about it, but I want to do someting cheesy and romantic like this with my appa. I also must say I feel like a bride on her wedding night all cuddled up to you on my bed exchanging kisses and such. Oh gosh, more blushing, appa I'll be patient for when I'm a little older and enjoy the innocent side to our relationship for now. I won't try any of those things my hyungs told me about like the hand games in the car. I want to savor each moment as though it were our last because I want every moment to be specal. 

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥

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Jan.20.2014- Kisses, cuddles, always wanting to touch one another, be it a hand, a shoulder a waist. I can't get enough of you appa, everyday these feelings grow stronger and I just want to get closer and closer. It's getting hard to hold myself bacl. I think I'm finally that thing called puberty, gosh it sure is weird. Wanting to always kiss you, be near you. I sound so weird, however I'll try to tone it down? I love you daddy so much and I'll try to be a good boy while living with you. 

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥

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Jan. 21. 2015- Another day, another feeling of bliss, the way you'd curl me up in your arms when I scared. It proved that you are truly my hero, who could ever make me feel so safe? You're definitely father material, and I am proud of you for it. You're amazing and no one else could ever compare to you, or at least I don't think so. I love you so much that my heart feels as though it is about to burst. ♥

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥♥♥

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Jan.22.2015- Seeing is believing, I believe that we love one another very much. I don't know what I would be able to do without you. Youre the person that makes the smile on my face either get bigger or go away in general. I am so in love with you that my happiness changes like adapting to whether, you are my weather and I'm the frog. I feel when you're tense, nervous and whatnot and I want to be able to hold your hand through it. I know that sometimes I can just be a little silly, but I'm your little silly. 

Love Jung Jinyoung. ♥

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Jan.23.2015- I feel like writing you a poem. 

Stars shine brightly in the black sky that iluminates the lights from the dreams of the people who still have hope. Hope is somethig that does not come often for many people lose it in the struggles of life. My hope, my dreams, they were non-existent I owned no such things. The luxury of dreaming was beyond my capabilties for when you are a child such as me with little to live for you can't dream, but dreaming I did like running watter through a stream. Quick, flowing and overwhelming in the way my heart ran for you, flowed for you and then stops at the lake where I settle for you. You are my stars, you're my lake, you're my dreams, my hope and my heart.  

Love you always and forever, Jung Jinyoung ♥

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Jan.24.2015- A minute away from you is like someone ripping my heart out of my chest and squeezing it tightly. Like nothing will ever be right in the world, but even so I will try my hardest to continue to do good deeds so that when you do see me once again you can tell me how proud of me you are. The love in my heart only grows stronger each day, like they say appa distance makes the heart grow stronger. ♥ I feel like our love grows stronger whenever we're apart because when I'm not with you I'm not sure what to do with myself and I just continue to find myself thinking about you.  

Love you, love you, love you Jung Jinyoung. ♥♥

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Jan.25.2015- The sweet flavor of love as it rolls down my tongue and makes my taste buds cheer. It's like stars and fireworks exploding in front of my eyes and my heart expanding every second. Or at least that is how it feels for me, I am just so madly in love with you. ♥ Other people may think we're weird and cheesy but I don't care, all that matters to me is you and how you feel. I hope that every day will continue to be as happy as the last. 

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥♥♥

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Jan.26.2015- Let me write you a poem♥

Hope is for those that can afford the luxury, the luxury to dream and know there is a future. Kids like I who spend every day in the worst living conditions don't have that ability, they can't dream, they can't hope however upon meeting you I began to hope for all things can be changed with just that tiny bit of hope. A cheerful smile, a hand to hold, a heart to pound. My love began like a current in a creak that lead me to a big river, that river was you. You surrounded me, protected me and taught me. You are my hope and my dreams and my love, without you, I wouldn't be me.

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥

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Jan. 27.2015 - There are so many heartwarming things I could say however I just want to thank you for all the little things you do for me. Your smile that warms me up on the cold nights and your hand that holds mine protectively so I won't get hurt. I cherish those moments more than anything else. I don't know what I would do without them, because above else a child wants nothing more than their parents to care, protect and love them. I feel blessed because it is as though I have all of those things when I didn't before. 

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Jan.28.2015 - Watching you with Chihoon is one of my favorite sights so far, because it proves that someday when we have children of our own you will be as caring to them too. I think that even with me myself you're an amazing father, I don't think I could have asked for anything better. I believe that you are one of the best fathers out there and that others should aspire to be able to go as far as you for their kids. I don't think I will ever witness such a great parent for the rest of my life. Thank you for showing me a whole new world where things aren't bad and adults can be good, thanks to you I can finally speak to other adults without being scared and you are the reason for that. I have improved imensly with my social skills because I have to admit appa is quite the social butterfly. 

Love Jinyoung ♥

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Jan.29.2015-  Tomorrow is a day I always look forward too wondering which adventure we'll go on next, because every day for me is an adventure I never want to stop. I want to take walks with you, go to the amusement park, take baths, go to the park, camping and so on. I want all my greatest memories to be made with you because there is no one I would rather be with. When things get hard or I get sad I think of you and I instantly cheer up. You are like a good luck charm, or a happiness charm because I'm always happy when I'm with you even if we're just watching a show or cuddling I couldn't treasure anything more than spending time with you. 

Love Jung Jinyoung. ♥

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Jan. 30.2015 - Wings wrap around a shattered body and shield it from harm, mending itself the body grows stronger until it can shield the wings from harm as well. The body cares for the wings and loves the wings with as much of his heart the body can give until one day those wings disappear and the body is left empty and afraid. Everything disappeared the moments those wings did as well. When the body finally found the wings they were tattered and torn and the body felt heartbroken because the body couldn't protect the wings like the body had wanted to. The body vowed that through love the wings would not suffer anymore because the body would be there taking care of and loving those wings for all eternity. 

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥

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Jan.31.2015- 

If I were to go back in time and have the choice of choosing over again I wouldn't. I am so in love with Jung Daehyun, I couldn't ever ask for another daddy to replace him. No one can replace him, not in the future nor in the past. He is the only person for me, the only person that can make me smile from my heart or cry from sadness. I feel as though even if he were to pick someone else I myself wouldn't it would be as though my heart were breaking into a million tiny pieces. I am grateful everyday that he chose me, because without him god knows where I'd be, or how I'd be around people. I'm so afraid of how it would be without him, how alone and scared I would be. I don't think I'd be able to make it through without him anymore. I'm only a kid who relies on their daddy, my heart isn't capable of loving anyone else like this. He's the only one for me, the only one who I could ever say I love. 

Love you with my entire being Jung Jinyoung. ♥

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Feb.1.2015 - It's getting closer I can basically smell it, that special day where couples celebrate love. I'm wondering what shall I do for you, because this will be our first Valentines day with one another. My heart is beating fast in my chest. Like a budump, badump, badump rhythm. Gosh I don't think I've ever been so excited before. If you have something you'd want in particular just tell me arrasso? ♥

Love Jung Jinyoung. ♥

Feb.2.2015

Wah I can't believe it worked!!! I've never posted a video before so I'm feeling quite proud at the moment. So, this song, the moment I heard it reminded me of you. I was literally sitting in a chair curled up, headphones in my ears and going through new songs on youtube when I happened upon this. A new singer from JYP's new side company, and the one and only singer so far is G.Soul. For the first time in my life I felt so moved by a song, I was literally crying. The lyrics reflect me every day attempting to write these little messages to you. I'm not one that is able to write what I feel and think very well, I'm always trying and trying to make everything sound better so that I can make you smile. However words don't come to my head because there are things I could do, things I could show you that would convey those feelings better than any words ever could. This song is the perfect example of my love for you. The writing then erasing, feeling stupid for not knowing what to say but knowing that I only need you beside me, you're the only person I'm ever thinking of, and the only person that matters this much to me. Without you there is no me, because the person I've become will cease to exist. I feel so overwhelmed by the emotions that rush through me at just the mere thought of you appa, the feelings of wanting to rush into your arms and feel your warmth, to know that you'll never let me go. This song is all the emotions that are trying to burst from my heart, the melody is the melody of my life every time I look at you. The sweet lyrics rushing over me as I think about all the things we've experience together, the tears, laughter, pain and smiles. This song makes me think that I couldn't have picked someone better to love because really like G.Soul said "All I need is you." There has never been a line more true, because in this life all I need is you, my strength, my protector, my love, my heart. I want to say that this song has made me see our love in a different light, a brighter more passionate one that makes me realize I love you even more than I thought I had.  This song somehow has made me feel so inspired in thinking about our love and finding words to describe how I feel. I'm very thankful I had discovered it because now, hopefully you will be able to see my sincere heart and feelings. 

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥

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Feb.3.2015-

Some poetry to make your day brighter. I've been thinking that there are so many things that I want to do. I want to help be a part of your life, help to give you things instead of only recieve. I want to be an equal, someone that can keep you grounded. I don't think I could ever be one to have appa do everything. For once I am grateful that I am at an age where I can still be a child yet be mature and know what I want. I want to say I miss that handsome smile already, those warm arms that held me close. I miss all of you but I'm so proud at the same time. APPA HWAITING! I'm very proud of you. You ccan do anything, I believe in you. 

Love Jung Jinyoung. ♥

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Feb.4.2015- I hope I got you the right puppy. I wanted to get you a present, because I remember saying how I was going to buy us pets and how we agreed upon a puppy and a kitten. So here are our beautiful angels.

 

The kittens name is Minty, and the puppies name is cookie and cream, Cookie for short. After our favourite ice creams that brought us together. ♥ I dreamt about that moment last night, of you placing your hand on my shoulder and your worried gaze as you apologized to me. The way you wouldn't let me leave until you bought me a new ice cream. Then the way you insisted you walk me home to the orphanage because it was getting late. However at the time I didn't realize we took much more time walking there together than it would have taken if I had walked by myself. However that was the moment when we were walking and I cried in your arms that I realized you are not like everyone else. You are a special person who has the power to make everything in my life seem better than it really is. From that moment I wanted to become a better person, I wanted to be able to make people this happy and make them realize life isn't always as bad as it seems. From then on it was an uphill spiral where I realized I wished I had a male rolemodel like you, someone to guide me and teach me. I found out that night that that's what a father is, someone to guide, teach and care for a young child. You became that father figure I so desperately needed my entire life. However you also became so much more than that. The beating of my heart around you was a painful thud in my chest because I didn't know I was allowed to love you that way. All the tears I shed at the thought of being with you yet not really having your heart the way you had mine. The shock I experienced when we realized our feelings were mutual was a moment I could never forget because my heart was so filled with joy and the paint that was there disappeared. I had never confessed to anyone before, but all those feelings were true, every moment I spent wiht you is something I wuold never want to replace or recreate with anyone else. Those are our memories and they are the reason why I smile because they were all with you. This is why our babies are named Minty and Cookie because when I look at them I remember our promises and memories. ♥ I really hope you anjoy having these little guys in our life. I miss you but I hope you're doing well appa. ♥

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥

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Feb.5.2015 - Today I was thinking it will be sad if we can't spend valentines day together, however when you get back I want to give you a special present of granting you a wish, any wish you want. I want to make you feel as special, wanted and loved as you make me. I hope that when we're able to be together again I can make you smile and laugh and make it feel like the time we're apart never happened because all our happiness will fill in the gaps of those times. ♥♥♥ I love you appa. I love you more than anything else in this world. 

Love Jung Jinyoung. ♥

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Feb.6.2015- I didn't imagine that the moment I got to talk to you I would be that emotional. The way my body froze because wow, there you were and I was just so excited, so in shock and so overwhelmed. I smiled brightly as I just looked, and then I began to cry because wow. I didn't know how much I really missed you until I saw you again. I'm so happy just for those few minutes to be with you, my heart was pattering in my chest wildly as I jumped into your arms. I felt so blessed to have such an amazing preson like you in my life. You are everything and more to me. This is how I feel when I'm with you. The heart shattering moment when just giving myself to you, just letting you have my bare heart makes me love you more. I feel so vulnerable yet so loved. There is no better feeling. The way you love me, even all the troublesome parts of me makes me know that there is no one else out there for me. I want to fill our days with laughter and love. Through our days together as we grow older and our love grows stronger and more passionate I know, I have known that you are the man I couldn't have asked for, the man I didn't know I deserved. You made me realize there is more to life than where we come from, it's who we are that makes us, and makes those around us love us. ♥

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥♥♥

Feb.7.2015. - I got my hands on a ty novel, appa, I want to give s too!!! *giggles* The females make it sound so yummy. Appa big too so it would be hard to swallow but yummy, yummy. I would get appa's yummy milk. I want to drink it. Now onto more amazing things I want to say that cuddles with appa are the greatest thing to experience, I love cuddling with you, whether it be in the bath, at the park in your bed, on the couch. Having your warmth envelope me makes the world seem right! I love you appa. 

Love Jung Jinyoung ♥

Feb.8.2015. - It's almost Valentines day and our aniversary. I seriously want to cry, I'm so happy and to think that those are two special days dedicated to our love and being with one another. I don't think I could be happier than I am now. The fact that you want to be my Valentine. ♥ There are no words for how happy I am, you are the reason for my happiness, every smile is yours, I don't think I could be able to smile without you anymore. If you were to leave my side I would be a shell of myself. No emotions would be able to describe the pain of you not being there. I pray that I can be with you for the rest of time. Forever yours and only yours. 

Love yours truly, your baby boy Jung Jinyoung. ♥

Feb.9.2015 - I have never felt so hot and bothered in my life before appa. Having my small rub against your big one, and . *bites my lip at the thought* It's better than the novel said it would be. I felt so special at that moment, to make you feel pleasure and to feel such excitement drove my mind crazy. I just wanted to feel you, touch you, let you touch me and let us fall into a craze of pleasure and excitement. Yo