Shinwoo

dear the love of my life, shin dongwoo. i, jin jinyoung hereby declare to make you the happiest man on earth. well, i can at least try. i love you so much and i cant think of a better life. Our babies are all grown up so all we can do is sit and watch them, but there is no one else in this world  that id want to watch them with. im sorry for being such an idiot sometimes and ill try to fix that but for now, thank you for loving this silly fox-eyed appa. I will love you now and forever. im sorry for pushing you away and causing you pain and being selfish only thinking of my feelings. I hope Channie will be able to heal you and make you happy, and ill watch over youguys as thw group leader. Ill confess here that im jealous and i regret ending it so quickly. Seeing how far youre getting with Channie makes me sad and miss the times we had and makes me wish i was him getting touched and loved but i know i pushed you away and i know you love him now so i wont interfere. Just dont forget about me amd how much i love you even if i keep pushing and letting my feelings get the best of me. I just got super pissed trying to hide how I really felt and I was dying to find out you changed your feelings but I'm not going to over react anymore.. I'm gonna work on it like I said I would when we started dating. i hurt you and i hate myself for it. I regret every second and every moment. Im not asking or trying to get you back, i just dont want you to hurt because of me anymore and im sorry for wnding things without thinking of you even when i keep saying i love you. I'll work hard as our group leader and I'll hope really hard that our Sandeul and Baro come. So one more time, im sorry and I love you with everything in me. 사랑해 신우!! <333.