Personal Message
You know I can't express myself with words, right? That's why I dance. I dance, because I can show you my true feelings through dancing. I was never good with words.. And i can't simply say someone that I love them. But I said it to you. And honestly I never regret it even once that we ended up together, Sehun. You're my love, you're the only person that I think about.. And my dances are dedicated and meant for you... And please, stop doubting yourself my love, because for me, there's no one better than you. Thank you for accepting my heart and I'm sorry for this emberrasing letter. You know how awkward I sometimes am, right? I just love you, my baby.
I know it's stupid of me and you won't read that anyway,
but let's say it's a reply.
Or rather a confession.
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You know, I remember all those sleepless nights
when I was just staying in my bed, and simply wondered what would be if...
if I'd hold you in my arms instead of being alone, dark frame wrapped in white covers,
empty on the inside, "kai" on the outside.
because I should be Kai.
Because everyone adores Kai.
kai, kai, kai.
K.A.I
but what is it?
Who is he?!
he doesn't exist.
he's just in my mad imagination.
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sometimes crying, sometimes smiling.. Feeling myself like a fool, because I can't have what I'm craving for, I can't have the right person because he's like my brother.
And loving brother is not right, that's what I thought.
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im always afraid.
Im afraid, because what if I'll lose you one day?
If there will be someone better than me?
whiter, more elegant, talented, his smile will make your heart flutter.. Just.. Someone, who's not me.
Because what I am, Sehun? A dark guy who's only having dance in his possession?
you deserved more than that
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your pale skin, rosy lips
makes me want to plant kisses all over it
let me
and I'll show you better me
You are my treasure.
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