Ezra

The fact THAT people find my disorder a turn-on makes me question society at the same time embrace it. Though I'M sure my craziness will make them run away at some point.

28

Anesthesiologist 

Panual 

SINGLE; NOT INTERESTED 

"If i was wanted somewhere, they they must not know who I am yet." that was one of the many things i argued about during my years with my "parents". my problems became theirs once they borught me in their home. they probably thought a kid couldn't be as psychotic as me. ever since i was young apparently, adults feared me and my strange personality. obviously i don't remember my younger years, but i still can feel the hatred i felt for them. i had a high intelligence for my age and understood that they didn't want me, they wanted the benefits. my lack of sympathy for them, is mainly the reason i poured a scolding cup of tea on my "mother's" leg. i can't say i regret it, she was the reason i ended up this way. every time i saw her, i burst into rage. her huband though, had more emotion, he's the one who brought me to a psychologist. They told me i have aspd, which is anti-social personality disorder. after that they got rid of me, but i'm not upset with him, but more with the devil that persuaded him, killing my chance at a normal life. i spend the rest of my teenage years in a damp orphanage.

now i work as an anesthesiologist, i have a stable job working with those who don't talk back. when i was in that orphanage, i knew that i had to get out-live a better life. i, with no drugs or therapy, fought to get through high school and college--well halfway through. I had enough money for drugs once i got a job part-time, but cigarettes stuck to me the most. the taste of nicotine mixed with the warmth of my breath got me addicted. i don't care if it kills me, my insanity will if not.

i can't talk for , obviously, but i can still be an . the time's i do talk, most people get offended, but hey, i don't really give a flying . obviously i have something wrong with me, so don't take it to heart too much.