@☆ taekwoon j. Seems like it. /there's a hint of smugness in my tone, yet as you lean in closer, I free my other hand to fit to your waist, drawing you close; my eyes fall shut as I feel the brush of your lips, expected now but still oh so pleasant; I open my eyes as if to reply, only feeling the warmth of your lips as you linger so close, and yet my eyes fall shut in surprise when your lips cover mine; my hand slips from your waist toward the small of your back to hold you close to me while my lips move slowly against yours in our first kiss/
@☆ wonsik k. You figured wrong, Wonsik /leaning closer, my other hand reaching up to rest on your other shoulder, I press my lips against your cheek, lingering for a moment before straying closer to your lips, pressing another kiss to the corner of your mouth/ I've been wanting to hear that you care about me for a long time /my mouth hovers over yours briefly as I speak, but before you can answer, my lips cover yours, moving slowly, savoring our first kiss/
@☆ taekwoon j. I mean I've been keeping things to myself because I figured that was best. /as you lift your hand to my shoulder, my hand comes up to follow, placing my hand over the back of yours at my shoulder/ I've seen you as more than just my hyung for a while. I just figured that wasn't something you would want to hear.
@☆ wonsik k. Does that mean - - have we both been hiding our feelings? Feelings we share? /my hand leaves yours, coming to rest on your shoulder, and using all my willpower, I force myself to look up, my eyes meeting yours/ I thought you saw me as your hyung and nothing more, Wonsik - - if that's not the case, please tell me now - -
it made me really sad to see that people in kpop only really unite when sad things happen and I just wish that we can be all love and support in the majority.
it hurts, you know? i just... i havent even looked at any of the official things. i just... rolled over, and wonsik’s rper told me, and i just... ah. i didnt even believe it. i kept saying “what do you mean?”
@☆ taekwoon j. I don't think you're the only one, hyung-- I don't think it's just you... /shaking my head adamantly, my hand feels surprisingly warm beneath yours and I lower my head, feeling anxious until you draw nearer and there's but a sliver of air the breadth of a piece of paper left between us/ You couldn't have let me down, I just wanted you to get well, hyung, and I wasn't about to refuse you when you weren't.
@☆ wonsik k. I know sometimes I don't express my feelings very well - - /leaning into your touch, I reach up, covering your hand with my own/ I guess I've been scared that I was the only one - - and I didn't want to ruin things between us /taking another step closer to you, our bodies nearly touching, I mumble/ I wasn't telling the how truth before - - I wanted to perform for our fans, but mostly I didn't want to let you down, Wonsik
@☆ taekwoon j. /your words manage to tug up the corner of my lips as if on a puppet's string, though the feeling behind it is genuine once the two catch up; yet when you call me special, I hesitate, uncertain how to react; watching my actions, as if I'm separate from my body, I move my hand to your cheek, cupping it gently/ You've always been special, hyung.
@☆ wonsik k. /picking at your sleeve, my fingers plucking at an imaginary thread, I lower my eyes again, finding it easier to speak when I'm not gazing at you/ I love all of you - - my band members - - you're the brothers I never had /my voice to low, my speech modulated as if I'm choosing each word carefully/ But you - - you're special, Wonsik
@☆ taekwoon j. /when your eyes meet mine, I can feel a flicker of a flame within me, and I glance away at the last second/ I hate it as much as you do, but I hate the thought of you having risked your health even more. /the slight twist of my shirt sleeve draws my eyes down to your fingers where they curl in the fabric and I flick my eyes up to meet yours a moment later, my voice barely a whisper when I speak/ Then what is it, hyung?
@☆ wonsik k. /when you push back my fringe, I look up, my eyes finding yours, the intensity of your gaze striking me dumb for a few moments/ I feel much better now - - and I hate to disappoint our Starlights, don't you? /disappointed when you remove your hand, I curl my fingers, still resting on your arm, twisting the fabric of your shirt/ It has nothing to do with you being one of my band members - -
@☆ taekwoon j. I just-- at the time it was better to keep it to myself. /as you look down, your fringe covering your eyes, I don't think twice as I lift a hand and use the tip of my finger to brush your fringe aside, hoping to meet your gaze/ It wouldn't have bothered me if we had to cancel every single show after you went to the hospital, hyung. /hearing you clear your throat, I withdraw my hand as if I've been burned/ I mean I figured... as a fellow member, I have to be, don't I?
@☆ wonsik k. I - - I didn't know that it bothered you /playing with the drawstring of my hood, I look down, my fringe covering my eyes/ I knew that our fans were disappointed that we'd missed some shows, and you'd worked so hard on the LR music /my voice catches for a second before I clear my throat nervously/ I mean, you're important to me too - - don't you know that, Wonsik?
@☆ taekwoon j. You just are, hyung. You have been for a while in case you hadn't noticed-- why else do you think I didn't fight you when you made it clear you wanted to be on stage when you weren't well? /my eyes search yours for a brief moment, though even I'm not entirely certain what it is I'm searching for as you step a little closer and my breath hitches in my chest/ I don't know if many people would agree with you on that. Just-- know that you aren't interfering with work.
@☆ wonsik k. /when your hand tightens over mine, our fingers linking, I raise my eyes, meeting yours, surprised that work is not what is weighing on your mind/ How could I be more important than your work, Wonsik /smiling softly, I move a step closer/ You're always so kind, and I appreciate that you're concerned about me, but I would never want to interfere with your work