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@jung taekwoon Taek--
/your movements are faster than I can keep up with as you wind your arms around me and pull me close, repeating yourself as you pull me tight and your lips meet mine; with my hands still at your cheeks, cradling your face, I feast on your lips again, my eyes falling shut, lips pressing hard and then soft, and then hard again as I pull at your mouth, needing to taste you desperately/
Taekwoon I--
/when you pull yourself onto the low wall and me between your legs, I keep my hands where they are and let you touch me as you want, making no protests against the feel of your hands on me even though pushing the extra layers up just makes the chill bite a little closer to the bone thanks to the ice/
I love you.
/the words come easily when I'm steady on my feet and pressing between your legs, up against the low wall; one of my hands remains at your cheek, the other rising to your hair and combing through your locks as I kiss you again just as hungrily, like trying to feed on your taste and what little warmth remains in your skin; at this hour, on the ice, it hardly matters with no one else around to watch us here, sharing this moment/
God I love you.
You gotta know that now.
/mumbling against your tiers, my teeth nip at your bottom lip, stretching it out before I release it reluctantly when it will go no further and letting it pop back into shape/

@kim wonsik /as you trap me in my place i look at you quietly, gaze having to lift a bit as my face is generally tilted down towards the ice for now, trying my hardest to not have to look at you
/nods resolutely, confirming i'd rather have this over and done with quick as i brace myself for the expected, the worse case scenario to me no matter what
/jumps a little when your hands reach up so suddenly, startled but staying still when you cup my face in your hands, my arms slowly dropping to sway against my sides
/those three words have my breath audibly hitching, lost in the cold as my eyelids droop a little more and i look at your lips, tears prickling in my orbs and making me press my tiers together
wonsik-
/whispers your name, though its more choked and caught in my throat as i stand there, my hands clutching the sides of your clothing by your waist, clinging onto you desperately now
again... say it again
/murmurs against your lips, the frost on my breath puffing out between the both of us before i wind my arms around you, pulling you in tighter against me
say it again
/pleads with you but before you can do as i've begged i'm busy almost bowling us over as i throw myself at you, clutching you to me so you don't fall and my lips clash against your own
/no time to wipe the tears away i slide my hands down and over you, slipping beneath your shirt to at your skin, needing to feel your skin, to know you're actually there with me right now
say it before i go mad
/propping myself up to sit on the low wall i make room between my legs for you to stand on your skates, my hands now trailing over the front of your shirt, back up to hold your neck, bringing you down to kiss me again

@jung taekwoon /following you around the ice I want to lash out when you mention not wanting to have the conversation, though I rein myself in, knowing I don't exactly have the right to do so and that it's my temper and my jealousy that put me in such a place before; when you stop long enough to let me catch up, I find myself slowing down, watching as you put your face in your hands and listening to the quiet sound of your voice when you speak to yourself at least as much as I can catch before I actually do catch up; grinding myself to a halt on the ice, I come in front of you with you turning your back to the low wall and I reach out, placing a hand there to keep myself upright on my skates/
Yeah, I just thought i was making it up for myself.
/seeing you wrap yourself up in your arms, I look you up and down as I pull myself a little closer, my other hand coming to rest against the low hall to keep you in your place, almost as if I were able to read your mind rather than just your body language/
Taekwoon...
/though there are a lot of things I could say, and far too many for an ice rink at this ungodly hour of the morning, I have to heed your request/
Look I-- you want it quick? Fine.
/clenching my jaw, the muscle in my jawline flexes, rolling visibly beneath skin/
I...
/my fingers tighten on the small wall until my knuckles turn white and I reluctantly let go, hands almost flying up like nervous birds and coming to cup your cheeks; bringing my face near yours, my lips hover just outside of touch and my breath mingles with yours as a visible puff of warmth in the cold/
I love you.

@kim wonsik /hearing you push off to come after me it just makes me go faster, frowning to myself as i think its not fair, the hand life keeps on dealing me at this point
really? because i kinda don't wanna have this conversation at all
/turning to skate backwards i gesture back and forth between the two of us, rolling my eyes a little as i turn back around and skate ahead
/catching myself by one of the low walls i grip onto it gently, closing my eyelids for a moment before i bow my head into my hands, palms hiding my face as i do so
/sighing to myself i know its just my luck that this is the thing you have to remember after weeks and you having been drunk that night too
of course- of course it is, taekwoon
/muttering to myself i turn around finally, hands on the low wall behind me still whilst i hold my ground and look at you, biting the inside of my cheek as i wonder what i'm supposed to say
do you remember how i said you don't need to say it back? and that you don't owe me anything?
because that applies still
especially now. like, right now
/lifting my hands i wrap them around myself, frost on my breath now as i stand there, body warm, too warm and i want to bolt for the exit and run but i know i'd never make it far
say what you have to, wonsik
but maybe quickly? so i don't have to feel like this is a bandaid being slowly pulled off. grant me one mercy
/adds on quietly at the end, almost just a whisper whilst i look down to the ice at my skates

@jung taekwoon /the quiet reassurance that you had the mess I made cleaned up is less a relief than I thought it would be even when hearing it from your own lips; with you distracted and me a little too close to the edge for being in a public place, I don't realize at first that you're all the more put off by the tone to my voice which comes out without my meaning to; when you fall I keep a hold on the lip of the wall and offer a hand to you to help you up/
Taek...
/it takes me a moment to realize just what you're saying, drinking it in like something bitter as I realize that I wasn't mistaken from the start, and worse yet that you wanted me to forget that you even said it/
Well I didn't forget it.
/when you finally meet my gaze after what seems a while, either between you trying to stay away from me or me looking toward the rink's ceiling as if the vaulted space might provide some answer or solace or at least a reprieve from my troubled thoughts/
Taekwoon you...
/perhaps there's more sense in my drunken mind than in my sober one, but hearing you say that and then watching you turn away from me to skate off has me pushing away from the wall and try to slide forward, hoping not to let you get away from me/
Hey wait-- Taekwoon stop, I don't wanna have this conversation with you skating away.

@kim wonsik yeah. i've been so busy with schedules i haven't actually had time to go back and rest. its not because of the mess you made a while ago. i had that tidied pretty much the day after
/i smile in reassurance though when you snap at me i feel like it echoes around the rink, frowning a little and wondering what i've done now
/glancing down, i stub one of my toe picks into the ice repeatedly, watching the flecks of white splintering off until you mention me saying i love you
/the rest of your words unheard for the most part, the moment of distraction and shock at you remembering has me over swinging my toe pick and sliding my leg out from under me
/falling flat on my i groan and end up laying back on the ice, lifting my hands to cover my face as i just lay there for a good moment or two, not wanting to even be looked at right now
/sighing i eventually get up, rubbing and dusting off my backside before i skate in little circles, not far from you but just out of your reach as i chew on my lower lip
i was hoping you'd just... forget it in your drunken state
/mutters softly under my breath before i come to a stop in front of you, still out of your reach whilst i lift my face, trying to play it off as nothing much but its obvious it means the world to me
yeah-
/beginning to nod, i glance away again, pushing my hair back from my face before i run my tongue between my suddenly dry lips, meeting your gaze as my arm swings down to my side
yes. i said i love you
... and i do
i love love you
/giving you a small smile i lift and drop one of my shoulders, fingers wringing in front of me together before i turn away, pushing off on the ice as if i can skate away from my problems and admittance to my feelings - from you

@jung taekwoon Wednesday?
/blinking repeatedly in surprise, or alarm, I try to understand why, though it seems all the more likely that the wreckage of the incident is probably still there; I try not to think of it, the door, the splintered wood, the deconstruction of my sanity that by now must be woven into the linens of your apartment like the smell of stale beer/
It's okay, we don't need to talk about it now.
/uncertain what I expected from you, I watch in disbelief as you push ahead of me, watching you pick up speed and lap me around the ice while I slowly try to traverse from the outside edge toward the side where I had ended up leaving my shoes; when you return to me, brow raised and looking plenty cocky, I exhale in a huff, hand resting on the edge of the wall while you continue to prod about what's on my mind, what's bothering me/
Jesus Taek, it's not like--
/feeling irritated, perhaps by my own failing, or perhaps by your insistence that I speak out on something I've been trying to put behind me, I tip my head up and snap perhaps a little too loudly, thankful for the mostly empty rink save for the employees when I rush on a little too quickly in exasperation and half-growled words/
You said that you love me.
/my eyes narrow as I look away, needing to rush through the rest/
Right? I can't figure out if I'm imagining that because I want you to have said it.
Or did you actually ing say it because I-- I really can't keep kicking this back and forth on my own along with everything else.

@kim wonsik mnh... no
haven't been in my apartment since... wednesday?
/murmurs as i honestly can't remember for a moment, just shrugging afterwards if anyone knows about what its like not being able to go home its going to be you
what's been bothering you, wonsik?
/asks as i look at you, tilting my head a little bit before i hear you say you can just wait for me, pursing my lips before i force myself to pick up speed
/speeding ahead of you i turn around, zipping around the rink once, twice, three times before i come to a sudden stop, toe picks flicking off the shavings of ice as i do so
/panting softly i stop in front of you, looking at you for a moment and tilting my head, brows raised as if to prove a point to you
i'm all done now-
go on. tell me what's going through your mind
/holding out my arm to you i offer it in some kind of balance or stabaliser for you, smiling to myself as i do so and knowing i seem even more volatile on the ice than usual
really i was just going over the musical. but i have most of the lines down now
so... what's wrong?

@jung taekwoon /when you stop so suddenly I have to stop myself, hands moving out beside myself as if to reach for my balance before I lose it completely and I notice the labored quality of your breathing/
I uhh... honestly I just thought I would find you here.
/when you push off again I continue, bringing myself to pace alongside you, having to push off my heel a bit to keep myself from nearly moving sidelong into you/
Nah, it's fine it's not something you've gotta apologize for.
Something's been bothering me awhile now. I went to your apartment first, but obviously you weren't there.
/when you move backwards on your skates, coming to face me as we skate along, I take in the sight of your face, figuring it would be time for you to get off the ice sooner rather than later, and suddenly feeling all the more guilty for coming and interrupting you and knowing that what I want and need to say would be better kept to myself when you're busy rather than selfishly foisting it off on you/
I can always wait until you're done here.
You shouldn't let me interrupt you.
I can uhh... I can just see you back to your place later.

@kim wonsik /glancing up at the clock i wonder how much time has passed, not much i suppose, unable to remember when i got on the ice anyway
/pausing for a brief moment i sip from my water left on the side of the rink, leaving the bottle there when i'm done and i'm off again just before you step onto the ice
/briefly seeing another figure i assume its just someone else, either sleepless for the night or practicing seriously for actual competitions and i give pause to the thought of leaving them to it
/a voice comes to me above my own voice inside my head, lifting my head i turn on my skates, coming to a sharp stop and face to face with you, almost bumping into you as i breathe a little heavier
oh- wonsik? what are you doing here?
/stepping back a little i wait before pushing off on my skates again, a slower pace then before as i skate alongside you this time, putting to rest the musical and its lyrics in favour of your presence
can't sleep? sorry if you contacted me, or tried to. i left my phone in the locker
/vaguely gestures to the front desk, turning on the skates to move backwards instead, looking at you curiously with my slightly frost bitten cheeks and tinted red nose

@jung taekwoon /it had been a while since an incident I was hoping to put behind me at least in terms of our relationship, such as it is, though my memory was making sure that I wouldn't be able to forget it, and at best there might be some level of silence on your part about the entire incident; now a couple of weeks on, what I could piece together now that there was just a small, almost white scar on my shoulder from where you had to stitch me together yourself to remind me, were things I mostly couldn't trust beyond the damage I knew that I had caused and my body wasn't about to let me forget; I had gone to your apartment in hopes of offering to at least pay for the damage, to fix it if you hadn't had it fixed yet, and maybe to get a little clarity on what had been itching at the back of my brain since that next morning when I woke up in your bed still holding you and with my entire body aching; when you weren't there I went through the process of checking all those odd places you would spend your time, so that by the time I made it to the skating rink it was nearly four in the morning and I wasn't in much of a position to strap on skates and move onto the ice with you, but I still follow you all the same, hoping to smoothly come up behind you as you make your laps around the rink and I speak just a little louder than the soft whisk of the steel blades of the skates on the ice in hopes of getting your attention/
Taekwoon...

@kim wonsik /finding some time to myself i decide to spend it going through my new script, which brings me here, currently fastening my skates in place
/the rink is basically empty considering the time, the glaring red numbers reading '03:47 AM' and i don't think i can blame anyone else for not being here, though i do feel a little bad for the poor workers who have these shifts
/walking over to threshold i step onto the ice, careful as i wobble at first and then remember what hakyeon said about keeping my knees bent and leaning more forwards than back
/soon enough i begin finding myself on the ice, nothing fancy, no sweet footwork or jumps and loops, just me skating in circles and maybe half turning to go backwards when i want the cool breeze off my face
/going over my lines i perhaps look a little odd talking to myself, sometimes with such animation on my face as well, so into my role i catch myself sometimes and start over
/tugging my jacket collar up around my chilled and pinked cheeks a little more, i take no notice of my surroundings nor the time, still going round in my senseless circles and its far better than being stuck in my own head after my confession to a drunken man in my apartment a couple weeks ago now ... or so i tell myself

I'm semi-good so don't be shy~
I'll try to make sure you dont fall and I'll try to catch you but most likely I will fall first nd I'll drag you down with me

Does anyone want to ice skate with me?
We can just fall on our asses and be complete fools lol

@lee sungyeol You are the best for me, oppa. /as you place a hand over mine, I carefully part my fingers to let yours come between even for a brief moment; when you kiss my cheek I turn my head, and my lips press lightly against yours/ Let's go to the hotel, oppa. I... I have a good feeling about tonight.

@hong eunki only the best for my princess. /when i slip into the car, catching the sight of your hands pressed to your stomach, i reach across to press my hand over yours, smiling softly as i look to you, leaning into press a kiss to your cheek
it'll be alright, princess.

@lee sungyeol And such a handsome prince. /murmuring quietly, I withdraw my hand as you swat it away, and I catch myself holding my breath before you close the passenger side door; when you get in, my hands are folded against my waist, my palms pressing my jacket back against my stomach and I listen to your words which cause a pang in my heart/ I hope so too, oppa. I... I really hope so.

@hong eunki such a pretty princess. /chuckling softly, i lightly swat your hand away from the seatbelt, reaching to pull it around you instead, leaning into the car to buckle you; pulling back, i flash a smile to you before making sure you're tucked into the care safely, shutting your door and carefully making my way to the driver's side, slipping into the seat and buckling up, turning on the engine
i hope... i hope tonight is the night.

@lee sungyeol /succumbing to your kiss, I swallow down the desire to whimper against your lips and when you pull back and gesture to the car, I give your chest a light pat before I quietly slip into my seat and reach for the belt with only a few words/ You don't have to tell me twice.

@hong eunki /when your hand comes to my chest, i hold you by the waist, and i press another firm kiss to your lips, giving your lower tier a gentle tug before i pull back, releasing it and gesturing to the car
and i'll give them to you before we go to sleep and when we wake up. come, princess. we'll get a baby quicker if we go tonight.

@lee sungyeol /as we reach the side of the car, my hand slips from my pocket, the warming pack nearly falling from inside my pocket as I place my hand on your chest; as you kiss my lips my eyes fall shut as I cling close to you and your chest/ You know I'll probably demand belly rubs every night.

@hong eunki /leading you to the car, i pop your door open, smiling softly as i listen to your words, raising a brow as i lean against the car, gently tugging you with me to hold you in my arms; pressing a gentle kiss to your lips, i murmur softly
im going to love my very round boyfriend. more than anything in the world.

@lee sungyeol /huffing quietly, I walk out with you, my steps shuffling a little as opposed to normal as I keep close; as you glance over to me, my free hand slips into my pocket against the hand warmer, and I gently press both against my stomach from inside my pocket while self-consciously crossing my fingers/ If it does happen, you'll have to deal with having a very round boyfriend.

@hong eunki you most definitely are. /with my arm draped around you, i lead you from the building, tucking my free hand into my jacket pocket as i hold you close while we walk away, my lips curling into a small, smug smile as i glance over to you
fingers crossed, baby. fingers crossed.

@lee sungyeol I'm not adorable. /as you return the skates, I stand beside you, yet as you tug me close a soft gasp leaves my lips; my body presses against your side and I turn my head, sneaking a soft kiss to your cheek and allowing the tip of my nose to brush over your cheek/ Let's do that. And maybe... maybe tonight will be the night.

@hong eunki you're adorable, princess. /walking with you, i lean in and press a gentle kiss to your cheek, and once we're at the stand, i put our skates back; with a small hum, i turn and tug you close, grinning widely
i know you do, princess. now let's get to the hotel.

@lee sungyeol I know you did, oppa. /speaking quietly, I keep a hand in yours and I bow my head; a soft, self-conscious laugh leaves my lips, and I lift my head to look at you; my thumb brushes along the side of your hand, yet as you slip an arm around me, I sigh softly and hang my head a little/ I know. You know I love you too, right?

@hong eunki i did everything i could, and im still doing everything i can, to make sure you're never broken again. /murmuring softly, i look up to you, and when i catch you swiping at your eyes, i hesitate for a moment, though as you stand, i pick up my skates and slip an arm about you
i love you, princess. you know that, right?

@lee sungyeol That me... that me was too broken to be me. You... /my voice trails away and I lift my free hand, the pads of my fingers swiping at the corners of my eyes; rather than openly tear up and cry, I give the hand warmer a small squeeze before I slip it into the pocket of my jacket and I slip my hands into yours to rise, bending to pick up my skates after/ Let's go do that. I don't want to stay here much longer...