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i actually reallly did thoughh!

then you never really liked the game ha

faair enough. i cant remember any more than thaaat

yea when i feel like it. i need more details than that if you want me to figure it out pfhh

you still play that?? i cant remember the name but its a story like game like that but betterr

residents devil reminds me of resident evil ha

this is burning my brain cells by the seconds and i need to think about something else and i need squishes and something something sweet nice and right yuhp im over this and everything that has to do with it or ill turn into residents devil over night

i dont get it. literally everyone but the first time for me its such a big problem. but anyways im not .. bothered any longer, i feel like when your vocal about your emotions and if you are bothered by something someone would throw it back in your face and taunt why your bothered and say they arent, so i stick by if youer not as troubled as you want me to be you dont really care therefore i dont. you know? kind of hand for hand but i guess you have to be that way to not get hurt.

i cant respond to any of that, that just scattered my thoughts.
i dont see why you cant even .. get that.... no ones perfect, everyone reverts back to old ways or slips up and makes mistakes i just dont understand why its so easyy to give you bull, yeah you have ing tempers sometimes and everyone blindly misunderstands and reacts wrong until things are cleared up and explained

but yea.. i dont know why i think of such negative . maybe because im never proven wrong, im blamed im forced to feel guilty im easily given the 'treatment' or brushed off like i dont exist. but never proven wrong.

can you imagine all the ing in the world id get if i just did that because i was "mad" or didnt like something. its things like this that would make me think if i just erased myself, no more harm done.

thats reaaaaaallly ashame because i even think that.. and to cut ties like that with someone youre supposed to have some bond with, just because they frustrated you or made you angry or whatever, say so much about them its terrible

i could never say something like id be absolutely done and over someone and not want to talk to them again after something, but i feel as if thats towards me with such quickness ha. its really unfortunate.

i always hope things that lead to that kind of cut off are never the people im really close with. i notice that too.. its as if, people could be to themselves or someone else be saying that youer so entitled or something but because its the calm they wont just say it but as soon as something happens they say how they really feel about you

disgusting too and i wouldnt know who that person is i dont care who it is. you know what i notice, is that when people really want to say somethinh or have been holding that in, they say it all when theyre mad. and thats the thing, no one says thoughts like that and for all anyone knows maybe we just dont know that. but nonetheless that would be too much and so unnecessary.

"oh yea im like this and id do this" thats so ing bold. for once id even choke and be stunned as . if something so ing stupid and pointless makes that huge of a problem, id feel so .. damn.. much in the most negative way humanly possible

but you know

dont dont dont dont do that, it is and im not even gonna think about if it could be real. i dont even know how id feel if it was rven possibly one, but its one of those things of course NO ONE would out and say "oh yeah im like this and id do this" its those things you never know until you REAAALLY get to that point and ill be done so done i wouldnt know what to do with myself. thats ..thats just. this is hurting my feelings already wow

i dont even know if its really just 'general talk' and if its lowkey true. its really one of those things i think about because i feel like that dynamic is possibly a thing, and it makes me want to disappear somewhere because theres literally no point to how much time i wasted

i- oh its that serious- it sounds like somethingg hurtful and uh unexpected for distancing to say hello so im glad this is general talk and not facts or anything because what ever it is id probably go crazy

so.. honestly, im not saying this is with anyone or saying its like this, this is general speaking and i feel i should get it out, but if it is, id be so ing disappointed and id seriously leave.

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