↳ chan

@christopher bang boys his age must have been in this kind of situation too. jeongin's mind raced with his heart beat as he blushes at the realization of what he has just blurted out. out of his wildest dreams would he ever think that his pants will become tight with a raging teenage whilst under his leader hyung, right after they made up from a cold war. blinking as to his confusion, jeongin relished and basks in the attention and skinship his attractive hyung is giving him.

jeongin couldn't really make out of anything in the situation they're in. one, he has a that is starting to hurt. two, he is hyper aware of the tent he is feeling from the other's pants. three, the alarms in his head is blasting "BOY YOURE A ". and four, the panic of the possibility he is misunderstanding the situation. but jeongin, a busan man, isn't gonna back down from the ual tension scare. no he is not a coward, even with these. thus--

"hyung," he managed to rasp out, his eyes fluttering close and a tell tale blush creeping from the base of his neck to the tops of his face. "kiss me." he breathes before looking into the other's eyes, biting his lip. "all over."

@yang jeongin he allows to let his head rest at his chest, a soft sigh leaving his lips as he buries his nose into it, inhaling the sweet scent of jeongin's briefly. his eyes flutter shut as he relishes in the other's warmth, senses sharpening. suddenly, the other's touch feels so exciting to him, it.... seemingly takes him higher, having his body rest against his like this. even though there had been literally no friction between the two of them, chris could already feel how hard he had gotten. he's so close to just getting up and leaving, at the same time, it would've been absolutely dumb. firstly, jeongin would've seen. secondly, he didn't want to go. and thirdly, he kinda wanted to seduce him. but only kinda. and he'd never admit it.

his lips part briefly as the body underneath him shifts, and he flexes his muscles, ready to hold onto the other's frame, afraid he might leave him now. chris lifts his head back up again, and he bites down on his bottom lip briefly when he feels the bulge in his pants brushing over the other's thigh. his eyes widen for a moment, however he just keeps staring at jeongin. now, the worst thing that could possibly happen was for them to fall silent in shock, so chris makes sure to keep eye contact.

"well, try it out", he replies in a rather nonchalant manner as he drags himself further up a bit, his crotch now grinding over jeongin's thigh. "you're be so good, baby. doing so well", he fantasizes, his nose buried in the expanse of the maknae's neck.

@christopher bang skinship isn’t too new to jeongin considering the fact that he is showered by affection by every member of the team. maybe he still indeed has that cuddly maknae image to which really he doesn’t mind. the affections were things he liked for he feels he’s needed by his hyungs and of course the other people around them. liking the kind of proximity they both have right now, jeongin couldn’t help but think about every word his hyung has been saying to him. it made his heart flutter, his face coloured with a tinge of pink and his body turn hot— he wasn’t sure whether because of what.

as chan turned to drape his body around his, jeongin couldn’t help but bite his lower lip as he realized how other people would think about their position right now. yes, for one he doesn’t really care but two, he’s really into cuddles— but this is chan. believe it or not, jeongin could look at anyone in the eye it he wouldn’t be able to deny he’s attracted to his beautiful leader. jeongin squirms under chan’s body, careful to not move too near the other, for he doesn’t quite know whether his pants has formed some tent. but due to the closeness of them, jeongin jerks off in surprise when his leg grazed something in between the older’s legs, his eyes widening in surprise.

in the few second that passed as he questioned what he just felt, a surge of curiousity and courage filled his young blood. jeongin was extremely full of questions and most of all, daringness. thus, he looks into the eyes of his hyung, determination clear in his eyes, and his eyes lingering on the full lips of the older. without realizing he blurts out his thoughts and spilled the dark things running in his mind, “how soft would they be to kiss?”

@yang jeongin he eases himself back down onto the mattress slowly when the maknae steps closer, a quick hand running through his own bright strands briefly in order to brush them back. his gaze now trails up to meet the other's again, and all the troubled feelings he had bottled up are so evident to chris. slowly, he himself starts to feel a little guilty for putting jeongin into this situation.

"ease up, baby", he starts off slowly, lifting a hand to let his fingertips run over the other's back slowly. "ease up", he repeats, arms squishing jeongin's frame in their embrace briefly, "i hate seeing you sad."
upon speaking out the little confession, he lowers his hands to tug the younger male closer to himself by his waist, leaning forward a little to lean his forehead on his shoulder.
"you know that hyung loves you, don't you?", he mutters, nuzzling at the spot softly.
"it means a lot that you're here right now, really." he sighs out softly as he shifts a little, turning his torso to lay you down. without giving the other time to untangle his legs from his waist, he drapes himself all over jeongin, hips resting where his legs part as he noses at his shoulder once more. "...you down for some cuddles?" closeness had always been some kinda key to chris' heart, however he does have a tendency to get... really hard really quickly. but, since it's the maknae lying underneath him, he's convinced his body would never get weird around him. well, he's wrong. terribly wrong. he's glad his crotch doesn't touch the other directly, because good lord, how would he explain to him that he just gave him the of his life? chris had a thing for make up , however, he also knows that jeongin's a , and in addition to that, he doesn't even know whether he'd let him at all.

@christopher bang eyes glistening with lightly spilled tears, jeongin is eaten by guilt and relief as his leader’s gaze soften upon him. he’s known the other male for a long time and has developed attachment, love and adoration for him, his opinion matters greatly to jeongin, resulting chan’s big influence on his decisions and feelings. it is indeed a big heavy stomp on his heart to hurt the leader who have always given up his own comfort for the rest of the team. he looks into the eyes of chan and sees the gesture and hesitantly padded his feet across the floor to eliminate the suffocating distance between them.

used to being treated as the baby of the team, he didn’t mind sitting on chan’s lap. it seems endearing to him if anything but with their misunderstanding just passing like that it made everything more meaningful to him. jeongin realized how he doesn’t want to see the other male disappointed, stressed nor sad. and the thought of wanting to erase everything that made it hurt or hard for chan crossed his mind and he is determined to try and make him feel better no matter what it takes. jeongin takes this chance to wrap his arms around chan’s shoulders and hug him tight, balancing himself on the other’s lap, relishing the newly found comfort in chan’s arms.

@yang jeongin he reaches up to brush his hair back briefly before you step inside, his throat feeling so terribly dry. he truly wonders whether he will even be able to speak properly or not, because right in that moment, chan doesn't feel like talking, not at all. he just... wants to be alone, he tells himself. but even he himself happens to accept that he needed to communicate with the other members when they had problems within the group.

basically, the main reason why chris had gotten weak was the tone in jeongin's voice - so vulnerable... so guilty, so...-

he shakes his head briefly, now tilting it up to muster the younger male as he steps closer. christopher sighs, and he bites down onto his plush bottom tier firmly when the other starts speaking.
"what you can do, you're asking?"
he raises a brow firmly before lowering his gaze for a moment, clicking his tongue as he speaks, seemingly nonchalantly: "come here. and give hyung a hug."
his gaze softens as he looks back at you, palms now rubbing over his own thighs before giving them a brief, inviting pat.
"come here, baby."

@christopher bang wary of how the older would respond, jeongin became more anxious when he heard the rather calm instruction of the group’s leader from behind the door. it took all of jeongin’s energy not to burst out crying after hearing how lifeless that sounded to him and thus he twists the doorknob and pushed the door open to see his hyung huddled on his bed, and a unreadable expression painted on his face. jeongin’s heart almost broke and he’s not too happy about how he looks so blank.

“hyung,” jeongin started, hesitant to take any step closer as the door closed with a click. “i— i’m really sorry hyung. i didn’t mean to disappoint you nor i didn’t want to listen to you— i just— i was thoughtless.” he stammered as he tried to get the apology out to make his hyung feel better. jeongin desperately want to make it up to him. hopeless he asked, “what can i do to make it up to you, hyung? i don’t like it when you’re cold towards me.” he says, tears threatening to spill. “i don’t like it when you do not talk to me at all.”

@yang jeongin a quiet huff leaves the elder one's lips as he hears the knocking against the door, a finger quickly shifting to press the space button to pause what he was watching - meme-y edits of songs and visual representation of the mess they've created - and he now shifts to get up from where he's laying, freezing for a moment in order to listen as suddenly, a way too familiar voice starts speaking to him from behind the door.

it doesn't take a second for him to realize who the one speaking to him was. his features drop a bit, and he lets out an inaudible sigh, walking towards the door, however he doesn't speak. " just come in", he says, stopping about 2 steps away from the door, watching the handle as he waits for it to click and for the younger male to enter.

@christopher bang jeongin couldn’t be anymore guilty, seeing how their leader has been cooped up inside his room he knew it was his fault chan was not in his best mood. young and lacking in focus, jeongin knew he wasn’t the best jeongin he could’ve been when his hyung has only been trying to help him improve his skills and keep up with their other members. heavy hearted, jeongin acknowledged how he didn’t listen to his hyung and went on his way and stood right in front of chan’s door, his fist in the air hesitating to knock.

chan has always been special to jeongin, well everyone in stray kids is. but chan is not only a hyung to jeongin but he is also a role model, a superstar and most especially, a crush. well, isn’t it normal to develop small crushes? its not as if jeongin’s going to act upon it and confess and ask his hyung out. he’s so much of a chicken and too young to even know if he likes someone. but what he knows is he hates that chan hyung isn’t in a good mood because of the things he has done. thus, he knocked three times.

“hyung,” he said softly, hesitant. “its me jeongin. can you please open up for me?” he added, playing with his fingers, guilt eating him whole. “i’m— i’m sorry, hyung. at least let me say sorry in front of you.” he says, his lips forming a sad pout.

chris often drowns out the silence with questionable videos so thoughts couldn't drag him down and chain him to bed too much, and today said man would've been likely to actually get consumed from ugly thoughts and moods. lord, how much he hated not being listened to, especially when it concerned something as important as practising. sure, jeongin has to revise for school as well, however if that's the case, he should rather quit playing video games in the evening instead of cancelling schedules. it made him mad to no end, and just a few hours ago, chris told him about his views on the topic. he noticed how jeongin seemed to struggle at times due to not having practised as much as the others - or not having practised with the members - and at this point, chris is just annoyed.

@christopher bang "aw, but it was sincere and i just wanted to let you know how much i appreciate you." he emitted a short cheerful hum. "oh no, then you should have someone to sleep with you so when you wake up from a nightmare, you will have someone there to comfort you." he slipped his arm under yours, flinging it over to give your back light touches with my hand. "do your dreams seem realistic, too? you know, i'm already much convinced to stay here in your arms forever so you can get a good night sleep." he paused briefly, shielding his yawn with one hand and he only speaks after a while, silently and in a barely audible whisper. "we love you, hyung. i love you a lot because you're like my older brother here already."

@han jisung "too much praise for a simple man like me, jisung." he lets out a soft laugh, patting your side gently. "i sleep. not too much, but when i do, i don't really sleep well. because of the nightmares, too." he clicks his tongue, sighing out silently. "most of them include me being chased by something. i just wake up after some time because it gets too stressful", he explains, one hand reaching up to let his fingers card through your hair slowly. he relaxes in the moment of silence, humming questioningly as you speak again. "hyung's listening."

@christopher bang "i still think you're the best hyung, leader and if i think about it thoroughly, you could also be a great father figure, channie hyung." he shifted his head up to a tilt enough to brush the tip of his nose against the underside of your chin. "so you do sleep..? and you have nightmares, too.. i didn't know. ..what kind of bad dreams have you had?" he had shut his eyes closed to observe your steady breathing and the pattern of your heartbeat in silence, brushing his cheek against your chest a couple of times. but his soft voice filled the silence for a moment. "hyung..?"

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@han jisung he frowns a little, humming out in thought. "i'm by no means the best, but i'm trying to be a good hyung for you." he keeps threading hks fingers through your hair, a pensive hum leaving his throat. "i doubt it would. you have no idea what kinda nightmares i have sometimes.
he sighs out silently, shaking his head briefly. however, he falls silent once you relax against his chest, only to speak after a few moments again. "that's fine, jisung-ah." he hums out silently, his other hand caressing your back slowly.

@christopher bang he lifted one hand up to rest it on your shoulder, giving it a light squeeze. "you're really a good hyung. we love you lots." he closed his eyes at your touch and smiled small with a hum, leaning his ear to your chest to listen to your heartbeat. "i think it would just haunt you for days, hyung. and anyway, i think ill just start babbling if i start, you know how noisy i could get. right now, i'd rather listen to your voice or just stay silent like this."

@han jisung "biggie or not, i'm here to listen to you." he shrugs lightly, hugging you closer. "i'd be concerned if the others had been awake already", he admits, resting one of his hands on your side, the other absentmindedly playing with your hair. "nightmares . if you ever want to talk about it; i'm here", he mumbles as his fingertips start massaging your scalp gently.

@christopher bang he sighed in relief. pulling on the string of his hood, he carefully tucked his bangs properly before nodding shortly at your question.
"its really no biggie.."
he let you tug him close, laying down just at the spot you have gestured to, instantly snuggling towards your frame. "its only this time that i actually took courage to approach you, hyung. i figured you'd be the only one awake. it was just a nightmare but im a bit calm now." he gazes up to your face with a reassuring smile.

@han jisung "it's fine. i always have time for you", he reassures you, stroking his hair back briefly as he crawls onto his bed. "you wanna talk about it?"
he reaches out to pull you closer to himself before laying down, patting the spot just behind you in an attempt of signalizing for you to lay down as well. "you can always vent to hyung."

@christopher bang he fiddled with his fingers inside as his hands were tucked in hoodie pocket and he made his way to your bed with a tired pout, plopping down on the cushion immediately. "hyung... hope im not disturbing. i feel like just woke up on the wrong side of the bed..by that i meant the floor...and i need someone to cuddle.." he scoots himself closer to you, sheepish grin plastered on his face.

@han jisung he notices how his door is being opened by the way the spotlight from the lamp in the hall is now wandering over the wall of his room, and he turns around on his working chair, taking his headset off.
"...jisung?"
he asks, quite surprised, however he plases the headphones aside, looking at you. "of course you can stay. sit down." with a quick motion of his hand, he gestures you over to his bed, shuffling over there on his chair before sitting down on the edge of his bed.

@christopher bang Poking his head into the room's doorway, Jisung whispered but in an audible volume, wdering if his hyung was in the room. "Channie hyung..?" He dragged his feet inside a bit too groggily since he literally just woke up not too long ago. "C-Can I stay here?"