❥ Christopher's Place

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *shakes my head slowly*
You don't understand Sejun. It's not that you have to be owned. You can absolutely choose to stay at the shop if that's your wish
*makes this clear before putting down my notebook*
I think we're done for today. Do you wish to schedule another session?

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ Why do I have to be owned by someone to feel accomplished why can’t I just be me? *asks the questions my brow furrowing together in frustration as I shake my head* I want to be able to stand on my two feet why do I need a human to do that for me?

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *nods understanding that indeed that was a problem*
I am really sorry this happened to you Sejun. But you're safe now. And I'm going to have to tell you that not all humans are like that. I'm sure one day you have the chance to find a really sweet owner

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ I get cold, my body temperature needs to be higher than normal otherwise I freeze, *i explained about my other condition that I had from birth it being costly a couple of times* I didn’t have a life before then, I was birthed and raised to belong to that person, *sighs knowing mylife was made for a person who fully rejected and left me to die* what would you do in my shoes?

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *nods slowly taking in the way you talk about yourself realizing that what we needed to work on most was your confidence*
That sounds lovely. It's true that sleeping is easier with someone around. Sejun do you mind telling me what your life was like before... meeting that person?

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ It’s different being human to being someone like me, you don’t choose to be able to be free I’m some human pet for other’s wishes and desires a trophy *gazes at you intensely only to soften when my friends get mentioned* ones a fox hybrid and the other a puppy hybrid.. I sleep with them *pauses a moment only registering how bad it sounds* I mean.. I get cold easy and I share beds with them, they help me to get warm and have the social interactions I require

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ No it doesn't Sejun-ah. There are a lot of cruel people in the world, human or not, but that doesn't make words like this true. Physical flaws don't make us a lesser person. Never forget that
*nods slowly understanding that losing half your seeing sense was quite the huge adaptation*
Who are these friends? What kinds of things do you do together?

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ Doesn’t it? Being conditioned your whole life to have someone say they love me only to have them see imperfections and say I’m nothing more than trash, I can’t help that it hits close to home, *frowns thinking about the question* I’m ok, I’m still getting used to being half blind, I don’t see humans much to where I stick around *gives a slight shrug* not exactly but I have two friends who make it liveable, I appreciate them very much

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *takes in the information doing everything in my might not to gasp when you tell me these things*
Now Sejun none of those things make you less a loveable creature
*makes a note about that comment unsure whether to touch on that now or preferably later*
There's nothing you need to be sorry for. How have you been doing lately? Do you feel comfortable at the shop?

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ I was conditioned my whole life this one person was going to be my owner, I am not like most hybrids, most people want cats, dogs something with fur.. I’m a snake hybrid, more specifically a blue python, I don’t have fully blue scales and I’m far too sensitive to the cold *slowly opens my eyes to look to you once more* he did things to me so that no one would want something like me again *tries to smile but it was hard* I’m sorry..

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *listens carefully trying to paint a picture from what you told me*
I'm sure you know what he told you wasn't the truth. You're in no way imperfect nor should you be defiled.
*frowns slightly wondering in how far therapy like this can help you if my mere presence made you anxious*
Do you want to tell me something about yourself Sejun? Who are you, how old are you, how have you grown up?

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ I don’t trust humans.. *my brows knit together keeping my eyes closed considering if I don’t look to you it doesn’t trigger my panic* I got attacked by my previous owner because I wasn’t what he wanted, I was an imperfect product and that I should be defiled and thrown with the trash..

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ Good. You're here to get help and I'm here to help you
*speaks in a gentle voice trying to help you to calm down again*
And that's okay. That's why you're here. But back to my initial question, what can you tell me about the issue why you're here

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ *shakes head again when you ask the question* I uh.. therapy *my jaw is tense as I try and focus my attention into you* sorry it muddles all together when I’m with humans..

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *keeps the smile on identifying this for what it was - you living through something that wasn't here, whatever it was something had triggered you*
I'm sorry Sejun I don't know. Try to focus for me. Where are we right now?

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ *flinches suddenly when you enter the room wishing I wasn’t half blind his brain playing tricks on him once more as he scrambled to be further away* you should know- you did this!

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *smiles at you gently and follows you after a moment taking place on my chair a meter away from you*
Hello again. Are you okay with me calling you Sejun? Of course I have been informed about why you're here but would you mind telling me about this from your perspective

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ *after a few moments of being frozen in place I walk to the back room that you asked me to do* a-ah yes sorry *holds onto my head slightly shaking it slightly only to take a seat finally constantly looking around the room*

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *can sense that you are anxious but I don't understand just how deeply this ran*
Mr Lim would you like to come in?
*asks cautiously stepping back ang giving you a bit more space*
Would you go to the backroom and take a seat please?

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ *the pure terror on my face as I see you, you didn’t sound like my previous owner in the slightest but my vision almost blurs just the sight of someone who had similar build to him, you weren’t him and deep down I knew that but it was because you were human that I couldn’t handle it I was a mute at this point in time my brain trying to see if it would respond in its fight or flight.*

@Lim Sejun ᵇˡᵘᵉ ᵖʸᵗʰᵒⁿ *was still fairly new in this profession but had done everything to educate himself and furnish the small office located in his house, he needed to make enough money to provide for his little family if they were to accept him back that is, perks up when the doorbell rings opening the door after glancing at the calender to check whose appointment this was - Lim Sejun*
Hello Mr Lim welcome
*greets you as I open the door for you*

@Christopher Bang ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ *I had no idea to why I decided to think it was a good idea to decide to go see a therapist And not just any therapist a human one, I could feel my heart hammering in my chest, I was so nervous I could be sick, I couldn’t trust humans not after what had happened to me from my previous owner, I was damaged goods and I saw no hope of myself being fixed, I paced in front of the door, the fear of being late worse than the fear of this human. i finally pushed in the door bell with about a minute to spare of my appointment, I prayed that you weren’t home so I could just retreat and go back to the pet shop where I felt a belonged.*