the city

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ Naturally i couldnt help the never ending urge to want to care for you, especially with how you allow me to each time, it’s become just about second nature to make sure you were comfortable, and if there was anything i looked forward to the most other than observing how you’ll adapt to being a mother; it’d be doing going through that similar adaptation with you, cooing once we got the copy now that i understood how it looked, i couldn’t stop looking back to it after we made our way into the transportation. Pwahah, i oddly love to hear that really.. maybe she’ll carry that same routine when she comes out too, it’s going to be difficult not to want to record even the smallest moments -

@choi soobin it was always a breath of fresh air how easily you would pick up on my cues, it was one of the many reasons ive felt so comfortable being on this journey with you, knowing your instincts and how well you treat ones around you, the thought alone had me aching to see just how great you will be with little sooji, holding onto you as i stepped down from the reclined seat and slipped back into my shoes, resting my head against your arm as we left the room, being sure to tug you with me to the receptionist briefly to retrieve our copy of the ultrasound before we exited the building. i simply cant wait honestly, i feel like a broken record now hah. She does each main meal and more in between, it feels like a never ending tunnel sometimess. Just when i think im full i crave something else and it magically fits a space of hunger tooo.

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ Sure I’d most likely think of the moment after the fact, far later even, albeit at the time being i was simply taking it all in, offering help of fixing your shirt as well as you began to tug it back in place, from how brisk your moments were i could tell you were ready to get going; so as your question registered in my head i gave a brief nod in response to it, my gaze lowered from your features to your midsection as i brought my hand to alongside yours for a few seconds before helping you down from the chair and start towards the exit. ah yea i’ll be really done for then hah. She does eat really well huh? a healthy baby she is. mmh, we can go now

@choi soobin any other instance bashfulness wouldve been more prominent in my emotions for crying in front of you; something i wasnt quite used to yet to not be embarrassed about but the robust joy i felt simply overwhelmed every other emotion at this time, causing the stream down my cheeks to be a far off thought in the back of my mind, tugging my rolled up shirt back down my stomach finally and swinging my legs off the edge to sit sideways, i was ready to wrap up and leave, the fatigue of pregnancy making itself known again, my hand naturally going to rub my belly as we spoke of her, a fond smile present the full duration. Mine mightve just already- wait no it certainly will when i finally see her and my heart will be completee. She eats so much its no wonder aahh. I think we’re done here, right?

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ I couldnt imagine my heart growing fuller than it felt in the moment, as i descried your overjoyed expression, i had to will myself not to press many more upon your rouge pair, your glistening orbs enough to trigger the very same welling within my own that i had to blink towards the ceiling a multitude of times to quell, my hand coming up to cover my eyes and even dry them as a simper still planted itself on my tiers. thats so cute,, hah.. i didn’t think so either but I’m extremely happy as well. At some point my hand had fell and i was reaching over to swipe away line of wetness against the apple of your cheek in a absent minded manner as i listened to the remaining run downs, making sure to remember to grab the pictures on our way out albeit once they were finished and the doctor left, your words caused me to nod rather vigorously before a huff of elated laughter seeped out. Yeah.. aah my heart, it’s going to explode, i wonder who she’ll resemble more.. did you see how big she’s grown pwahah its so cute.

@choi soobin only sound that came out was a hum of acknowledgment to the statement concerning the deal, if i weren’t situated in the middle of the seat id be on the edge as i stood still until the reveal, immediately perking up from excitement and facing you about the same time as you turned towards me; the pure elation was written on each one of my features, relieved at the lingering peck you planted, myself not ready for a quick part just yet, i nearly forgot the existence of the doctor amidst the celebration of the reveal, looking up to you when we parted with a bright expression and cheerfully glossed orbs, small streaks seeping from the corners down my cheeks. Yeah she is, waah im so excited i didnt think i could get anymore excitement but here it iss. peeling my attention from you for the sole purpose of retaining the due dates and instructions for a safe delivery the rest of the way, informing us how the nurse will have the physical ultrasound for us to keep at the front desk for us on our way out, the doctor then bowing and allowing us some personal time alone as they excused themselves after concluding the appointment. so.. our little sooji, right? wah I can’t believe it….

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ I leant down closer to you despite it not being necessary in order to hear you in the otherwise silent room save for the shuffling, humming and beeping, my voice lowering to mirror your tone as i responded. Eehyy okay, tell me later then when you figure out what you want. A huff of an chuckle could be heard from me following your reaction and I instinctively rubbed the outside of your hand in comfort, i couldn’t take my orbs off the screen and how the scenery slightly shifted with the movement of the device, head slanted as soft sounds of understanding left my parted tiers with every section explained, and finally hearing the congratulatory tone as they announced it was a girl, I couldn’t contain the exclaim that escaped my tiers before i turned to face you, leaning closer and pressing a lingered peck to your lips, mumbling softly. wah, aegi bear is a she. Far too excited to remember the doctor still present within the room yet once i did; i merely pulled away with a rather sheepish simper despite still squeezing your hand, albeit as the doctor merely expressed amusement as they continued on about the due date and what to prepare ahead of time.

@choi soobin with the new addition to the room, my voice came out quieter as to keep the conversation more so between us two, although the doctor was deeply enthralled in the screen in front of them, the precaution was instinctive of me. no no not this time, i already had a milkshake i dont want another one so soonn. Even with the incoming warning, i felt myself in a sharp air when the tool connected with the surface of my stomach, grimacing as the device was glided over and around my tummy as the doctor began to point and describe each part we were seeing on the screen, starting with the head and how they were positioned in my belly, at that point my eyes were glued to the screen soaking in and looking at each and every aspect i could get my eyes on, the only time my eyes were torn from the screen was when they began pointing at the midsection and describing how to identify the gender, my orbs gradually growing in size as well as with anticipation as they finally revealed the gender after the explanation, unaware of how my hand tightened the hold on yours as time ticked on.

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@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ My tiers twisted to the side in a smug simper and slight attempt to keep my laughter down from your reaction to it and pretending it didn’t happen on the form of glancing around the simplistically decorated room, avoiding the squint i merely caught a glimpse of in the wake of my feigned interest in the room. I didn’t hear you correctly at first i thought you said shakes, i was going to say eehyy thinking you want a shake as your deal?? The knock caused me to perk up in tearing my gaze from you to the door before they came in, promptly returning the bow they offered before incasing my other hand over yours that i was already holding as i watched the set up process, bobbing my head when necessary to their explanations and offering short glances between you, the doctor and the screen, biting my lower tier to keep the widespread grin that threatened it at bay from the look you expressed towards me, i felt the anticipation warming my chest as they began pouring the gel onto your stomach before prodding the handle of the machine into the expanse that was covered.

@choi soobin the goofy exchange made it that much harder to muffle my laughter that only became deeper watching your silly antics, it was a task to remind myself not to allow my laughter to become to boisterous, giving you a playful squint eyed glare at the time you hushed your own laughter after setting mine off ironically. true true so fair enough. Oh definitelyy, now im hoping ill win with the new stakes even more. it wasnt long before a knock could be heard at the door and in came the doctor, glad in a clean white lab coat with a pen neatly clipped to the pocket of the coat, greeting us both with a bow as they entered and took a seat on the rolling stool by the machine before instructing me to lift my shirt, as they began pressing buttons on the machine by the bed; informing us of how the test went and how the gel would bring a cold discomfort; the slight pout i wore displayed my distaste of the description of the process as i rolled up my shirt to reveal my rounded belly, shooting you a conspicuous look before glancing back to the screen as if id even know what was happening on it.

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ I’ve grown used to your consistent stares and glances that when i caught it I couldn’t help the playful pop of my brows and exaggerated mouthing of ‘what!’ Before joining you in laughter once i heard your own, mine merely sounding more hushed after witnessing you quiet yourself from it, once it died down to nothingness was i able to hum a bit and offer considerable thought to your words. yea, well.. not that an excuse is needed, i like to touch you for no reason just as much. They are hah, I wasn’t expecting that now should we treat the other to something whoever was right?? The wait in doctors offices of all places usually felt dull however spending it with you brought no feeling of the sort as i was able to wait out the duration with you instead.

@choi soobin from observing the machine beside the bed to eventually focusing back sights back onto you, alternating between glancing to our hands then your features, finding myself in a state of admiring you whenever you didn’t require a response from me, your words causing me to laugh out, quickly hushing myself when I remembered our atmosphere, a cautious hand ghosting over my mouth as a volume shield of sorts. You think so? maybe but then again maybe not i enjoy a good excuse to feel you. But yeah it probably most definitely wouldnt be. Yeah? Aah our guesses are totally opposite haha. i offered the nurse a amicable smile in greeting before she exited after the announcement, the built up excitement had me rocking my foot anxiously, curious of which ‘guess’ would be correct.

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ As if the words melted into the relaxed expression i wore, my mere acknowledgments were verbal noises to your every response and brief nods of my head instead, I couldn’t the deny how i’d oddly miss the weighted feeling you garnered over the span of time when i held you albeit possibly that was signs of my adoration towards each stage of your changes, i figured now my random urges to merely admire your appearance would transpire my thoughts to those things. Mmh, hah you’ll forget you dont need help anymore and do or yourself. Eehy it wont be the same but thats alright too. Oohh, i was thinking a boy pwaha, but i guess we’ll see hm? grinning rather hard for a reason i wasnt sure of myself during the glance, once we were inside i offered the nurse a greeting nod before i stood beside the bed, grasping your hand once more prior to them announcing the doctor would arrive shortly.

@choi soobin it was instantaneous how the simple touch of your hand tugging at the plush of my cheeks was enough to distract my thoughts, the simper i wore the product of such testimony. yeah haha we really would be. me too, and each day that excitement only grows. mm mm i doubt itt. i couldnt help but release titters of amusement whilst you assist me from my seat, a task that become routine in the duration of the journey in the later time, your words had me shaking my head at the glee in your tone albeit still smiling ear to ear at the moment as it grew to be one of my own favorite parts too. Will you? Haha its okay you can still help me up after too, it just might not have the same feeling maybe- oh mmm i think… a girl! Haha what about youu?? tilting my head when i spared you a quick glance, as we headed towards the appointment room with the nurse, slipping off my shoes to sit down once we reached the space before sitting on the reclined bed as directed, ignoring the chilled discomfort of the cold surface against my legs.

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ Setting aside my own indifference, i always noticed the slight air of discomfort you held each visit, usually making it any means to distract you from as this time around my unoccupied hand came up to pinch at your cheek, feeling my hand that you held onto yours be shifted against the firm roundedness as i d my thumb over the back of your own hand. That would only make it worse, ah we’d really be a mess — mmh of course we will, i really look forward. hah i probably wasn’t. I automatically glanced up as i heard you were announced before standing up immediately after, your grumbles of protest not going unnoticed as I couldn’t hold back the chuckles under my breath knowing it was from a minor inconvenience, giving a brief nod i use our interlaced hands and grasped the forearm of your other arm to pull you upright and towards me. Wah.. i think i’ll miss this the most pfh. What do you think it’ll be by the way- quickly quickly

@choi soobin never growing tired of the feeling that spread in my chest at the mere sight of mirth that flooded your features, crescent orbs and the familiar indentations of your cheeks equally had my sight peeled onto you fixated; subconsciously giving a squeeze to your larger hand when we entered, carrying a love-hate relationship to the hospital, despite grossly enjoying what we came for each time, the building itself was never a favorite of mine; tugging our lanced palms into my lap once we were sat and waiting, intermittently rubbing the back of your hand against my protruded stomach. Yeah I’d burst out crying everytime i seen you im sure if that were the case. Oh definitely, but im sure you’ll both enjoy it so much, mama had her bonding time now its papas turn. Haha yea? No you werenttt. Oh goshh haaha and thats just what’ll happen tooo. my attention quickly panned towards the front desk at the mention of my full birthday name being called from the receptionist, a pouty grumble leaving my throat as the hard plastic chair had just started getting comfortable, although it meant becoming one step closer to finding out the gender so i couldnt mind for too long. oh- thats us, come on come on. And help me up too pfth.

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ A chuckle under my breath didn't go unnoticed as i, too had to laugh at my own words, our connected hands slightly swinging thanks to my own initiation as the simper rested on my tiers weren't enough to contain the bout of anticipation coursing through me, As if it merely increased the closer we neared the entrance, albeit after making it inside; my gaze still wandered around the premises even after the previous consecutive trips to the very building, Only until we reached the waiting lobby to take a seat within. mmh im glad too, i think it'd be pretty sad if any other way. pwahah will it? i should prepare for my hands to stay full then huh? eeehhyy i was kidding, i think - probably both. no no mama has to keep her heart intake, aegi bear has to be the one to finish it off pffttt

@choi soobin my sight predominantly fixed at the ground to watch my steps once i was out of the vehicle fully, tightening my hand around the spaces of yours, waddling beside you leisurely, a mirthful grin adorned my tiers as i listened to you, a small fit of laughter passed at the cutely silly explanation. Oh yeah? That’s definitely it ahaah. im glad we shared the same sentiment really. Haha yeah? Well from how my backs feeling that will be the first few days will go haha youu holding themm. Mhm, ah i think its a common thing mostly… but it could also be that too who knows haha. I think a bit of both really. Ahh so cuuuttee, do you wanna burst my heartt??

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ I was rather grateful for feeling your warm, caressing hand against my own, it drew me from my ever consuming thoughts even if they were merely pertaining to our bundle of joy, despite how they conjured a mess of excitement within me overall i couldnt wait to meet them, making sure to securely hold along your hand and even watch your steps for you until you made it out of the van and we began sauntering towards the building’s entrance. Ooh really? Maybe its because you’re mommy and the mommy super powers are setting in pfth. Im also happy though.. mmh thats true, i just cant wait to hold them now.. paha, are they? I wonder if that’s normal or they’re really taking up after me after all, i was a pretty chunky baby you know!

@choi soobin by now all i felt was the overflowing anticipation to finally get to know more about the little one, a soft smile resided on my lips while i kept my gaze trained towards you, watching how you nervously chewed at your tier, urging me to want to hold onto your hand as i moved to do; giving a gentle squeeze to the back then retracting back to my lap until the van came to a stop, taking the offered hand as a aid in climbing out of the vehicle. Yeah but somehow im no longer nervous just anxious and ready and excited and just happy really. Eii yeah but each milestone brings up a new feeling or increases what we already feell. Mhm he or she is quite heavy now so i think ill keep needing it haha

@yu jimin ᵏᵃʳᶦⁿᵃ The nerves yet anticipation were perceptible along my features the closer the van neared to the building, awfully looking forward to what more we’d learn this time around as this was primarily the last visit before the due date, nibbling along my lower tier as I was aimlessly playing with your fingers merely until the vehicle had come to a halt, i glanced towards you with my tiers pressed into a thin line resembling a simper before i moved to unbuckle my belt then slide open the backseat’s door, stepping out first to then hold my hand out towards you in the considerable case you needed it. Are you excited? Well .. of course - but im also nervous, i think i should be getting used to all of this by now but ah- i don’t know.. do you need help?

@yu jimin Hmmm yeah, i wouldve too- pft no but i could’ve easily switched it so its okay. My orbs lowered to the snack then back up to your features before giving a short nod then reaching inside of the open end of the bag and pinching one piece out before stuffing it in one side of my cheeks, merely raising my brows from the strong flavor but nonetheless responding around it. Mmh you should pft. maybe we should’ve got multiple of these though.. flavors i mean- Nearing the vehicle we arrived in, after tugging the backdoor open i urged your figure inside first before settling after you.

@choi soobin oh alright,, okay okay i wouldve felt bad if you ate it but it wasnt what you actually wanted.. the expression you were had me holding back titters that threatened to spill, there wasnt a need for words your face alone was the sentence and i just glanced off to the ground with a jokingly defeated smile before watching you tear open the bag and hold it put to me, sparing no time to grab the treat and taking two pieces into my mouth, humming at the immediate burst of flavor. Haha i dont think it’ll just be one- ten …mm maaaybe- pfth. Want some??

@yu jimin Yup exactly. No it’s fine really, i didnt know exactly what i wanted anyways. Looking almost expectantly, i wasn’t completely convinced with the shake of your head before a wide spread grin took up my features, once we were far enough in the dim lit parking lot; halting in my steps to dig in the plastic bag containing the chips, tearing the bag open before offering it to you. Mhmm it wouldn’t hurt to have one.. or ten on the way-

@choi soobin oh too bad then guess ill just have to deal with it huh. mmyou dont think? ahh thats too unsure.. see you shouldve chose your flavor mhnn.. once again following shortly after your footsteps towards the exit, the suggestion was tempting however the thought of mixing it and eating together would satisfy my cravings better, shaking my head slightly in response. Mmno i can wait abit longer and eat it when we get back.. mmwell no actually it wouldnt hurt to eat a chip or two-

@yu jimin oh, too bad then, you still have to share them with me either way. oh yea its okay, no need to i dont think. giving a shake of my head, i paused to spare a glance towards you as i began sauntering to the exit doors once more, making sure my strides were considerate enough for your sluggish state after walking around the store for the past thirty or so minutes, and after pushing the door open, once again allowing you our of it first i thought to hold out one of the bags as i spoke. did you want anything right now or were you intending to eat it all when we got back?

@choi soobin mmnothing when it’s something good to share but i dont think faults are something anyway wants to share - oh so is the strawberry still okay? We can get you a different flavor if you want? the questions came as we were making our way towards the register thus making it more a rhetoric unless you actually wanted to, and i found myself eying the contents of the basket when we came to a stop, my orbs going between the items and the counter with each time they were pulled out before bringing my attention back towards you with a soft smile.

@yu jimin yea yea you would know wouldn't you. what's wrong with sharing? nothing of the right things of course. peering into the container with curious orbs as you decided on each flavor, then a small simper spread over my lips as i gave a quick nod to them before guiding us to the register to began placing the items over the counter, it didnt take long for the few items to get scanned and after releasing your arm to dig for my card to pay for them, did i couple up the bags between my hands and hold my arm out towards you once again. yup perfect- although for me, ive been liking fruity flavors these days pft.

@choi soobin okay yeah true but stillll - i dontt know how am I supposed to keep track i guess being so great comes with many faultss. mm mmmnn you just wanna share yourss. reflexively leaning more into your hand at the pats, averting my attention to the standalone freezer when you gave the decision to me, humming as i scanned through the options before picking up one strawberry cheesecake flavor and one cookie and cream swirl, lowering them into the basket before looking back to you with a smile. I think these will taste good? I’ve been in a big chocolate mood lately so that was bound to contribute to my decision.

@yu jimin Ohohoo oops- its okay its way too late for anyone to be out at such a time- mhmm when did i have all these faults again? Im prettu sure that ones yours. A wide grin that had small quips of chuckles spilling out was displayed over my features as i brought my free hand to simply pat the side of your hair, before we came close enough to the appointed drinks for me to grasp the flavors we agreed upon and place them in the small cart, finally by then i was tugging the both of us towards the last destination being the freezer doors, however i opted to look inside the stand alone freezer that held single serving ice cream bars and icicle sticks. Hmm you can pick for us, it doesn’t matter for me -