▶ library ◀

*part of him longed for hobi. But the other part of him knew he wouldn’t. He wouldn’t treat hoseok the way hoseok deserved anymore. Not when he too had no feeling of his heart. Had he grown cold? This detachment to his original life? Yet then hobi spoke. His eyes grew I n pain*…good luck hoseok..:

*He listens, nodding before he closes his eyes, letting out a long deep breath. Right to not exist? That hurts excessively much, but he pushed it away. When he looked at you again, he seemed more calm.* I see. Sorry for being annoying past, gee. *Chuckles before he stands up.* I wanted to see you. I wanted to see what changed. Who you have grown to be now free. I am not sure how to feel about it. You don't want me now, but you were the one who brought me here. I wish you didn't. I wish you would let me go months ago. *He took one deep breath in.* Do not worry, I won't push myself on you. I know when I am unwanted. I can tell it's over. *He forced back the smile, but it turned into a grimace.* I will free you just like Hoseok freed me, but I am not as good as him. I can't just smile and pretend it doesn't hurt. We probably won't see each other, but if we do, well, you will be a stranger. Good luck on your journey. *Hobi couldn't stop himself, he booped your nose like the old times.* Goodbye Taehyungie. Be well. *Hoseok offered you a smile, a genuine one this time, before he turned around and walked away. Indeed, you were now free.*

*how more obvious could he have been? How more obvious could he be for you to realize Taehyung isn’t that Taehyung anymore? Isn’t attached to you in the same way. How come he must be tortured with your face like it’s a stain on his past? You were right to not exist. By this point in time, he couldn’t even feel that pain he had before. To the point he had forgotten. The library was only giving him bad feelings.* I am aware you loved me for me, Hoseok. You were my hoseok first before that Lord V had taken over and hoseok had taken over you. And yet…that life feels like nothing but a past to tie myself down to yet I don’t want to embrace it. I know a lot more. I’ve felt a lot more than I’ve ever wanted to feel. I’ve changed hoseok. That is fine if you decide to live for yourself but I don’t think I can go back even if you were to convince me otherwise.

*He lifted his brow, not very impressed.* Oh yeah, right. How could I forget. I have fallen in love with a demon. *Chuckles without any humor behind it.* Unfortunately for you, I also have some of Hoseok memories as well. * He tilted his head, looking at you.* You are ready to kill someone you wanted to have here. *Hobi hums, looking out of the window, thinking back, remembering how he cried.* Everything changed, but I am my own person now. I do not expect anything from you. After all, my feelings were always mine, and I already cried once because of them. *He rubbed his arm unconsciously, as if feeling the ghost of pain.* I will deal with them again. For me, it's kind of like a blink of an eye but also it's not. Whenever you like it or not, I do loved my Taehyung and I still do.

Maybe the problem is not with me. *He lifted his brow.* Perhaps it's you who is scared because you don't know whether I loved you for you or the other guy who was there. Lord V? *He almost spit the name out.*

*his eyes grew even darker in realization. Then he smirked pulling out his lollipop* have you ever wondered: if you died in the multiverse, would you die for good? Right now you are nothing but a tie to my past. I’m sorry to hear I must do this once you received your memories already. But *smiles* it’s for the best, beautiful. This world is only and will only be suffering. Especially as I cannot return those feelings anymore

I won't because it wasn't your damn fault, but it doesn't make me less pissed. *His fingers tapped the table.* I was wandering for months, without direction, not remembering anything and turning my head every time I saw orange hair. Now, I finally know why.

*stares into hobi’s eyes with his cold ones* please do neither

*Stares, crossing his arms over his chest.* ... *Curses looking down and shaking his head, laughing, his knee bumping from the emotions.* I don't know what I want to do more, kiss you or slap you.

*frowns yet reluctantly sits*

*Points to the chair before him* Sit down

*looks to hobi with a lifted brow* yes…?

*He lifts his head up and glares.* Oh hell nah you are staying!

*enters and realizes* no I’m turning back

*Hobi sat down again as he waits, covering his face with his hands, thinking about everything that happened so very slowly. It was a lot to take, but it also he was so light. So very light out of sudden. Months of wandering over. *

Aren't we both. I will go now. Thank you, for coming back.

Like wise, ghosty. Although I would appreciate it if things were done differently.

Very well. I will call you soon… I …. *He smiles,* It's nice to see you so full of life.

*He huffs* As if you know anything about my Taehyung. I saw him. I know he is different. But that's still my Taehyung. Even if he won't want me. I still want to look at him and know it's my Taehyungie. I still wish to speak with him.

Taehyung is not the same. Be gentle?

But?

*He nods, chuckling softly.* I sense that he will like it. I will call you there when I am done. It shouldn't be long... but..

*Hobi glares, crossing his arms over his chest.* Fine. You have debt to pay. I don't know how you will pay it yet, but I will figure it out... and your Lord V? Do tell him a sincere ' you' from me as well.

I will call for him but... I would like to talk to him first. That's all I am asking from you.

Where is my Taehyung? I have things to tell him as well. Demon huh... god damn am I a lucky one indeed.

I deserve it. *He nods.*

Of course, you won't, I have your damn memories too. Jeongguk it is, right? At least one thing you did correctly. It's not feeling like a complete waste. Still, you hyung. you a lot, honestly.

You are. I won't apologize for it. I won't give it back. I took it, I gave it to someone precious. They deserve it. But you have a chance to live here. You can hop the worlds. But you won't ever come back to the original one.

And I can't even be mad at you. *Hobi grunt lowly.* I would do the same. You did your best to make sure I was okay. It wasn't your fault, your soul was too strong. *The anger was still burning in the back of his throat, but he understood. He understood it, unfortunately, and it was difficult to blame the guy because he knew him. Those feelings. He would do the same. He loved just as much.* So... I am dead in that world.

*Hoseok took hits without complaint, he deserved it, and he waited. Watching as a thousand emotions run through Hobi face.*

you! *He slapped the guy, hard. Leaving an angry red mark on his cheek, watching him take a step back, as he lost his balance.* That's for me! *He moved again, slapping him once again. Another mark. * That's for Taehyung.