ϖ Psychiatry

@Jay Park *smiles* im' felling great~

and you???

@ϖ Baekhyun -waves- how are you?

@ϖ Jay Park ahhh~ annyeong~
*waves back*

@ϖ Baekhyun Annyeong -grins-

*yawns and enter the room, looking around*

-walks around-

@∞ L (I'll die by the sadness of not knowing what did I just do wrong.)

@Ђ Kai (...)
(I like you two. So I hope it gets better soon.)
(And still, I am coming for you soon.)

@∞ L (Because Jonin was.. is stupid and it seems like he lost Dodo and he is.. he couldn't handle this. He just lost it all. I am sorry.)

@Ђ Kai (And why are you dying... Why did you become Kai, Jongin? ><)

@∞ L (Well, I'll be here. Dying slowly. But I am not going to die as the rules excludes death.)

@∞ L (Well, I'll be here. Dying slowly. But I am not going to die as the rules excludes death.)

@Ђ Kai: Oi... Jongin... You know you're my friend, and I don't leave my friends alone in such situations for too long. Wait for me~ I will soon come to find you.

His head was about to explode. Maybe because of the cold, maybe he was just like that… mad. Was he? Was he insane to think he could live normal life, to love and to be loved. To think he could be himself, without to need the support of Kai? Jongin needed Kai, he needed him more than ever. He had to let him heal. Because he didn’t want to break down here. He…
He wiped his tears and looked over the bench as he was curled there on it. He saw the windows in the hospital getting dark. It was the hour when everyone should be sleeping in there. So it was really late. Jingin checked his phone, but there was no chance the battery to charge up from the air. He sighed. And shivered. Where should he go? He felt sad to think about being in Kyungsoo’s warm bed, sleeping peacefully. He felt sad to think about Kyungsoo. What was wrong, where did Jongin go wrong? He knew, he knew the answer… he shouldn’t be Jongin. Jongin is weak. He was Kai. Kai is a survivor… He stopped shivering.

Jongin lost it. He was checking his phone nervously every minute. Why wasn’t Kyungsoo called yet? Just why… The battery died after a couple of hours and the hope died in Jongin within. He shivered. Then cried a bit. But he stopped himself and looked around, feeling like someone was watching him. There was no one. He was alone. He must be at home, studying. But he was nowhere. Worrying.
Was Kyungsoo okay? Was it safe? He must be. So… he was mad at Jongin? Was it because of the damn bill Jongin paid in the restaurant? What was it for…
He cried more. It was just too cold and he couldn’t hold himself from crying. All the bad thoughts rushed through his head, ruining the peace he was fighting for with himself for so long.

(I am sad. I will spam. Like here. It seems to be the right place for it.)

Jongin didn't know what to do anymore. He was alone, he was alone outside. Myungsoo didn't pick up his phone. Kyungsoo wasn't calling. Yet. Still. Jongin felt cold, so cold. He got scared and walked back to the Psychiatry. The only place that seemed to be right for him to be. And he even felt welcome here.
He sat down on a bench in the park. It was late. Really late now. He just curled and hugged his knees, trying to stop the shivering.

@ϖ Kai "Do you even need to ask me this?", Myungsoo looked back at Jongin. "Do you even doubt it?"

@∞ L "I'll do this myself.... the helping... but still", Jongin bit his lips, "You'll help me too, right?", he stared at Myungsoo with puppy eyes.

@ϖ Kai "I see.", Myungsoo looked at the bag and thinked. Well, he's got his reason... "I hope it's going help you."

@∞ L "Because...", Jongin stuttered and put his bags on the ground to cross his arms seriously, "studying medicine will help me to get better with myself as I will know better what is happening with myself"

@ϖ Kai "Why?", he asked

@∞ L Yes... *says not really confidently*

@ϖ Kai "Sure I will.", answered seriously and looked at him "But are you really sure you want to study medicine?"

@∞ L "Well, you have potential", Jongin giggled, "But you need to work really hard... Hyuuuung! If I want to study in the university, would you help me with this... just don't laugh at me I am serious...."

@ϖ Kai "So I'm this hopeless...", Myungsoo mumbled before to start walking ahead

@∞ L "How so? Don't joke with me, hyung, the jokes are not your thing. Take me home", Jongin said nervously.

@ϖ Kai "I see... Where are we going now?", Myungsoo asked and decided not to change the topic

@∞ L "Huh, I didn nothing, hyung", Jongin shrugged, "You are the one who do things to me"

@ϖ Kai "Sure.", L said and headed the exit of the building. "Jongin, what did you do to me? I didn't use to go out in my free time this often..."

@∞ L "Not like I even look at you that much, you know", Jongin pursed his lips and took his bags in hand. "Shall we go?"