Huh

I started writing again, which feels a bit weird to do since I honestly can’t remember the last time I wrote anything (especially actually enjoying writing it). I’m losing a lot of weight which is both good and bad cuz I stress eat and since being in the shelter my stress has been through the roof and I actually gained a lot of weight. So always feeling sick and losing this weight is worrying me a bit (even though I can definitely afford to lose the weight lol). My new therapist is pretty cool so that’s a plus and she started me on new medicine but I ran out of it last week so I’ve been hella tense since I won’t be able to see her till at least Thursday but i’ll be okay (I hope). She also said she wants me to start physical therapy and I’m just like meh cuz tbh I’ve done it before and even though it helps it’s annoying af and I hate it especially since I don’t have a stable living situation right now. I’ve had GOT7’s You Are and Seventeen’s Hip Hop Unit’s Trauma on repeat cuz those are my songs (and I totally die whenever I hear Mingyu singing cuz I didn’t know he could I’m just hnnng). Oh and my younger brother got arrested again over some dumb and I’m kinda over it and him at this point orz. I’ve sacrificed too much for this kid to go everything up like he always seems to do. But being who I am as much as I want to and have every right to I can’t just say it and do me.

Rip idek why I wrote this. I don’t even write a diary and yet I keep writing blogposts. It’s almost therapeutic in a way, I can’t really explain it. But yeah...oh and if anybody made it this far my rp just started it’s Halloween party so you should check it out and join. Speaking of rping I really need a computer or a laptop or something cuz this mobile life is starting to irk me to no end. It’s fine when you’re just rping but it’s a mega pain in the when you’re tryna admin.