Kim Jonghyun

When I was only 8 years old, my sister got into K-Pop

Of course, it took me a few months and eventually I fell in love with SHINee.

I got into them in late 2009, early 2010.

I’m 16 now. You can do the math.

That’s a really long time to love a group.

And honestly, no group has ever been able to do what SHINee has done for me.

They’ve gotten me through the worst years of my life, they’ve kept me distracted when all I wanted to do was leave this world.

They kept me going. They developed my passion for music, they created who I am as an aspiring singer.

My dreams are alive because of them.

My heart was given it’s beat because of them.

And I am so grateful, I am so blessed to have SHINee.

They’ve been in my life longer than all of my friends have.

Part of me belongs to SHINee and always will.

When I woke up this morning, the first thing I saw was that.. Jonghyun was found dead.

I went blank. I still don’t believe it but the more news articles I see, the more I realize that it’s true and he planned it all out.

Kim Jonghyun, what happened to you?

You were so loved, you were admired. What made you feel so worthless?

You were never worthless.

I know it’s hard to keep yourself going when you’re not doing it for yourself, but you could’ve gotten through this. You just needed to find help outside of Korea. We could’ve helped you.

Nobody deserves an ending like this.

I am honestly so heartbroken right now. And I forever will be.

Part of me lives through each of the SHINee members. The part of me that lived with Jonghyun.. I guess he took it with him.

Jonghyun, please know that we love you. Always have, always will.

And we miss you.

Rest in peace <3

Kim Jonghyun (April 8, 1990 - December 18, 2017)