You know what flippin' . (warning there are a lot of f-bombs)

The ing drama on this site is ing petty.
Yes I am ing suicidal since December 20th. Yes I am a ing biual male in this site
Yes I am a ing fluffball.
But I will not let my personal feelings cloud my judgement on something that I love doing. I love being on this site since August of 2017. Meanwhile I was here in July of 2015 thru August 2015. And I came back after dealing with college and I lied to my parents for two years straight that I was going to school but I was getting high and being a ing and wasting their money away. I am not a ing good person. I am a ing SpearB is right, I am a ing .
You all want to know why I posted two suicidal blogs today, because I need help. I have tried on 3 separate occassions to get help. Call me a ing attention , call me an assinine narcissistic , I don't give a . But I am tired of the ing pettiness and shade being thrown towards other people. I am not the ing perfect person people think I am. I am not your ing savior. I am just a male that wants to come here and roleplay. And I am here to ing change the pettiness here and the ing social outcasting that happens, I am ing sick of it.

People tha are my friends aren't used to me cussing and . I am sorry for my profanity but I have been holding this back since the end of December.
 

I want everyone while you read this to go up to the members and click on the first two that pop up. I bet at least 1 of you that reads this as a problem with at least one of those people, and I am 98% sure it was over something that happened IC and not OOC. Yes I get it that people date others on this site, and that is great, but do NOT drag your friends down into this drama, that is between you and your ex. So how about for one day we can not post shade blogs about other people or try and bash on them. Hell I have bashed on people before here you can ask SpearB DamnHui or any of my co-admins. I have talked about people before. But that ends right here and right now.

You want the reason why I am suicidal and currently on anti-depressants (which I stopped taking as of last night)? Because I have been ing bullied for being biual, I live in a very conservative town in the United States and if you aren't straight it is like you are a jew during the Holocaust. And as of right now I unblocked everyone that I have blocked, because I am done holding grudges, I am going to accept everyone for who they are and what they stand for, even if they ed me over. I dont give a anymore. I am going to start loving everyone before I love myself.

I have friends on here but I always feel alone, I feel more alone than I ever have, I feel like I am trapped in a box and I have no way out. I have no one to turn to in the real world. I am not going to burden you with my problems.

My request for everyone on here is to open your ing eyes and realize that people are human and we have emotions, physical problems, and mental problems. We can't keep on hurting each other or establishing cliques to other people over.

We need to learn how to cope with people around us, and if you don't like them, say it in a polite way, not by outing them in a public blog or by spreading gossip or by posting random non-important petty about them.

That is why I am making an RPR Milk Group yup thats right, I am taking someone's idea from Super Junior and I am making it on here and KKT. I am going to be raising awareness for Suicide Prevention and for Suicide Awareness in general. If you want to be included in this group please PM me on RPR.

This blog isn't meant to attack anyone or groups of people or a person, this is mean to be a huge PSA to all of RPR, and if you just read this and move on, great, just know that you may need help and we can all help you but you aren't alone. But if you do care then comment and say how you feel. It is the internet for s sake.

And if you wanna block me after reading this, defriend me, report me, go ahead and do it, it doesn't matter to me it just shows that YOU do not want to help a growing problem in the world and this place is MY HOME. I AM NEVER LEAVING MY HOME. I LOVE THE USERS HERE. I HAVE MADE BEST FRIENDS HERE, AND I PLAN ON KEEPING THEM HERE FOR AS LONG AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE OR ON KKT.


~Aces~