I.. think.. I don't..

So a parent told me to kill myself today, and like.. with everything that is going on I just can't anymore... life is seriously way too hard, my mom, my own health, threats from parents on three different occassions.

The world is so cruel and for what reason, to make someone laugh, to make someone feel better because their own lives are instead of them getting help. Everyone hides behind a mask online, at work, at home. We each have different masks that we wear for different reasons, but does anyone say anything, nope. I have come to accept that this world is as much real as it is fake. People are smart but people are dumb. People are kind but people are mean. She is nice but he is mean. He is nice but she is mean. Life is just a bunch of heresay and it is completely wrong. I know I will get a lot of hate for saying this but when is the last time you have met a genuine person that has not used you, took advantage of you in any way, or has actually cared about your feelings genuinely. For me I haven't met someone like that in a long time. Yes i know people are nice and whatnot but it is just a mask so others can project themselves onto them. I say what is on my mind 98% of the time, and I don't care normally what people think. But this stuff with cyberbullying, harassment, excluding others because of their race, social status, gender, ual oreintation, or lifestyle choices in this world ESPECIALLY on this site has to stop. This site has went the complete opposite of where it was last year, this time last year it wasn't nearly as bad as it is now. Grow up, it is a roleplaying site not life or death. What happens in South Korea with the suicides, that is life or death, what happens in the Middle East that is life or death, what happened at the Holocaust, 9/11, WW1, WW2, those are life and death situations. People shouldn't be dying over words said to them online especially on a roleplaying site or any site for that matter. How many of us have mental, emotional, or personal issues on this site raise your hand? Everyone has their own path their own problems to deal with. But please just because you are having a bad day do not take it out on someone else. Oh wait, but didn't I just say my own problems in a post? Yes I did, but like I said I will be brutally honest with what I say, I am not afraid to say something that will get me hung out to dry like what the United States government did to the Japanese during the Internment Camp Phase in WW2. If you think no one has tried to kill themselves because of what happens on this site, then you are living under a rock harder than when SM or Pledis sleeps on their old groups.

I am just trying to say, from someone who dealt with hate on this site, in real life, who has tried to commit twice on two separate but very similiar situations, please be nice to everyone, I am begging you all at this point.

I will be starting a gofundme most likely for victims of suicide who are alive and were saved or to the families of those who are suffering with the losses of their loved ones.

~Ace~