Im going through pains again, this time its because of myself and Jonghyun, I finally cried over his death, it felt like but I did while listening to all of his music.
But now its worse, I feel the same way I did in December as I do now, I feel suicidal.
But I have to much to lose if I do want I want to do, I want to keep on fighting but I just dont know where it ends. I dont want to do anything on RPR right now, I just... I even deleted KKT and my social media accounts. They are all gone off my phone the only way of communication is my phone number (hell nah yall aint getting that), I just dont know anymore. I made this public because I want people to know that I am trying the best I can to come on here and run the rps that I am trying to help out, but whenever I would go on RPR I have a playlist, it consists of Astro, Seventeen, SHINee, Taemin, and finally Jonghyun, and I went to play it today and last night, the first songs that came up were Lonely and 2:34, and then after those two came Goodbye by Taemin and Let Me Out by Jonghyun. Its like my Phone knows how I feel right now like it wants me to get better but... I know I can try to, but how far can I get better.
God I wish RPR had a disable comments section like they do in the rps.
Pheonix Rp Admin ThisIsMyLIfe and the other co-admins, I am sorry that I couldnt live up to the expectations, so yes I want to be demoted to a regular member and I will only keep Sunmi and Jisung as my characters.
My wolf au rp... I am so sorry, I know that rp had such high hopes, I ed it up by not being active, I love you all over there, and to my co admins, you all literally are my children over there, the ones that stayed and the ones that left I love you all the same.
My best friend on here my bestest friend on here........ I dont know if you can see this, but, I am sorry for not being there for you, I should have been there, I only cared about myself at the time and I should have been listening to you as well, also I am starting to like GOT7 now, my bias is Yugyeom and my wrecker is JB, my favorite song is If You Do followed by Moon U.
But thats my update...
PS: Add a disable comments option RPR... *shakes fist angirily*
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