ok since i’ve never dated anyone i thought this would be the best bet— here we go
GRADES K-5 — ok so this guy wasn’t ACTUALLY my crush— idk if kids at your school did this but whenever you said “i don’t have a crush” they would insist you were lying and make you say someone. this guy was the only guy in my class that didn’t look too bad and wasn’t related to me. he was a fast runner but was a real . he was also really short and he was my best friend/cousin’s other best friend so we hung out a lot. not much to say other than he was my default crush in case anyone asked.
GRADE 1 — in grade one i moved to my first public school in the city (i went to a community school before that- hard to explain) but only for a month or two. at the time i didn’t call this girl my crush because i didn’t know i was even kinda gay and well i really wanted her to be my friend. she was a year younger than me and she was really cute and had a lot of freckles. her name was like olivia or mackenzie or something. she had a lot of troubles with her best friend and because we sat next to each other in class we just kinda hung out whenever her and her friend were in a fight.
GRADE 7 — i didn’t have a lot of crushes, lol. but this was probably my first crush, which i really hate to admit because i just hate how hung over i was on this guy. he was the tallest guy in the school other than two really gross guys. at the time, i was basically taller than most of the girls and guys so having a guy that was taller than me was actually quite great. a lot of drama went down in seventh grade like damn. BASICALLY i liked this guy who my friend also liked but ofc i never told her because that's just... ew. but then this guy liked me and even asked me o u t. but because i was literally 12 i noped tf out and never said yes to him. he kinda hated me after that but we're still kinda friends today so- anyways, so i really liked this guy for some reason like. he was so cute and funny and we actually got along??? we didn't talk much but when we did we kinda hit it off. nothing was ever said that he liked me back or whatever because yeah like that would happen but i kinda hoped it did?? but still to this day idk what i would say if he ever asked me because i was legit... 12.
GRADE 9 — this kinda died but is kinda alive but there was this german exchange student going to my school (quick psa, i have a thing for germans for some reason. there is more than one) and my singing teacher was his home-stay mom. so we spent a lot of time together. i still don't know why i liked him that much because he's really annoying and like... 7 mentally but he's kinda handsome and hilarious. he's also incredibly tall. i have a thing for tall guys ok
GRADE 10 — ANOTHER GERMAN EXCHANGE STUDENT. ok this was a really big crush but it was actually justified. i think so, at least. i'm pretty sure if i saw him again i would still be really lowkey in love with him but omg. so he was my singing teacher's second male german exchange student but he was really handsome and wasn't incredibly tall but quite athletic. i usually don't go for athletic people but because i'm the opposite of athletic and we would have nothing in common but... ok- so we had classes in a town 30 minutes away every thursday. my mom would come pick us up and drop us off every week. he came with us because we lived in the same town, obviously. with every other guy or person, i never really talked to them and connected. but we actually connected and talked a lot. i still know a lot about him. and i learned a lot about germany and the german language because of him. i'm pretty sure he kinda knew i had a crush on him because whenever i saw him i would smile stupidly and oNE TIME i was standing next to him and i kinda stumbled and landed into him. i didn't MEAN TO I SWEAR but he kinda chuckled at me and looked away and oh god. anyways yeah i had a real big crush on him. THE OTHER REASON WAS because we were in a play together and it was written by his homestay mom AND I SWEAR SHE KNEW I KINDA LIKED HIM and it's really rare for me to show any sort of interest in boys like. really. it is. anyways- she made our characters flirt with each other CONSTANTLY and then we even got engaged and ?? kinda kissed ???? AND JESUS I WANNA CRY. my friends still poke fun at me to this day. also did i mention that he was in grade 12 at the time so it really wouldn't have worked if i made a move???
TODAY — i've had a crush on this girl since grade 6. but back then i didn't think of it as a crush because i was "straight" but she was a year older than me and i have this distinct memory of her when i was younger. she was this really cute girl who had glasses and always had her nose in a book and she wore these cotton blouses and just. when i got to high school i didn't see a lot of her until grade 9 or 10? by then i knew i was attracted to girls as well but i never really noticed it to be a crush until grade 10. then whenever i passed her in the halls i would start blushing pROFUSELY and just ugh. i still have a crush on her. the past semester we were in the same chemistry class and because i sat next to her ONE DAY we had to do a lab together. oh god i kept BLUSHING and LAUGHING and she probably thought i was such an idiot but she's so cute. she's like... 155cm and i'm 166cm and she's so cute and small and she has the PRETTIEST eyes and she's so petite i wanna kiss her forehead bUT I DON'T WANT A RELATIONSHIP at the same time like. ugh. sometimes i see her in the hall and i will just smile and look away and sometimes she catches me looking at her and i bet she thinks i'm so freaking weird but it's totally worth it.
i don't have a lot of girl crushes because a lot of the girls in my schools were straight af and i don't like going for straight girls because they're just... hurtful lmao. but the girl i like now-- i bet she's mostly straight but i've never seen her in a relationship so ya never know.
also i've had a LOT of crushes but a lot of them lasted a week or a few hours or they were very shallow and they didn't last long because they were shallow lmao. these were the most noteable ones but another one was the famous venteux/cathedrals. i had a crush on him in like... 9th grade LMAo. but it was dumb and we're better off as friends so we talked it out and i actually kinda hate him now lmao. so don't think it's awkward that our characters are dating or whatever because it ain't gonna happen.
SO THERE YA go.
pls tell me about your crushes so we can all cringe and cry together because the likelihood of your crush liking you back and the two of you starting a relationship is slim but heeey it can happen ya never kno
i'm also watching valerian right now and oh man add kris wu and cara delevingne to this list
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