Leaving Roleplay Republic

I remember how I stumbled upon RPR. The very first time I tried roleplaying, it was at wattpad and then the admin there said we should move to rpr so i made an account and all. My first roleplay was that rp, i think it was banana lol i forgot but I was Suzy before. My very first un was "IAmSuzy" lmao she's the only kpop idol i know because of Dream High and I really liked her. Lot of things happened, i joined new other roleplays when that rp closed cuz I think roleplaying is fun. I joined this Filipino roleplay called "Haus ni Kooya" which I am thankful of cuz bRO STRUGGLE IS REAL WHEN ENGLISH AIN'T YOUR FIRST LANGUAGE. BUT HEY, the good side of me joining english rps here is that i began learning new english words, it's fun. So I basically grew up here (ok fun but actually not fun fact, i was soooooo freaking young whn i joined here, lemme give you a clue i am 15 now) so anyway, I even joined a roleplay wherein I am Yoona and there's a Syoung girl i rped which is now my very close rp friend, we've been friends for how many years, if you happen to read this, we'r both ugli but ily. Okay back to the story, I was so happy when I also opened a roleplay of my own called Notice me Senpai. NMS isn't my first roleplay, i had few others which isn't very successful, sadly. I also dragged my cousin here, this is the reason why she became kpop fan, also my other younger cousin lol we are like the trios who are addicted to kpop. No regrets tho, hun. Anyway so I am thankful to all the people who helped me with NMS, i only created that cuz I was bored af man. Lol. So uhm.. As i said, i've been here for few years now. Basically, Roleplaying has been my life. I GOT MORE LOVELIVES HERE THAN MY REAL LIFE AND GOT MORE ANGSTY HERE, MORE DRAMALMAO. Truth be told, Roleplay Republic is where I run to if my real life is too hard to handle, when my mom died, i came here for comfort. I forget everything here. Every problems, I forget bcs of this. I am so thankful bcs of this website. You know, before, I always read blogs where people leave rpr, i was like"but why? It's fun here so why would you leave?" But now i understand it. I cannot handle things at once. I actually rp at ig too. And I feel so bad everytime I am there and I am not here. Don't worry y'all, I left there last year just to be here so RPR dun be jealous. Okno. So uhm.. the thing is, I am planning on leaving here. My decision isnt' that full yet. It's either I leave or I have a long hiatus. Please help me though, do you guys still want me back? If ever I left, I'd leave all the rps too and God knows when will I come or if I ever will still. If I have a long hiatus, I'd comeback but it is uncertain too and It really hurts for me to leave all the people I am rping with rn. It's really hard, I don't want to leave them but I dont' know too.. to whoever took his/her time to read this, I salute you man hahaha. Okay, thank you and sarangi.