No one is there for me anymore

Ive become a monster that scared everyone.

Everyone I know goes away in the end

I warn them dont get close to me.

I let them down, I would hurt them.

If i can start again, I would. 

I keep myself isolated. 

So that I wont be lonely once again.

Over...and over....

I focus on the pain

the only thing thats real.

The blood spills

and im here silent

so no one could hear my screaming

for help....for love.

What have I become