I think I'm going to go into a semi-hiatus all over. I'm not necessarily quitting roleplaying but I think that I may be falling back a little with how active I am, although I could honestly be a lot more active than I am. I feel bad (like really bad) for not being around as often anymore and, even more so, when I have these spurts where I'm highly active for like a few days to a week and then I just...you know, poof kind of. To me, it feels weird to even take a break from here, if that's even what I can call it because I can't say that what I'm going to be doing is like really important. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. There are so many things that I'd like to do but I'm just kind of floating, like I usually am though to be quite honest. I bought myself a new laptop so that I could start working on more of my creative stuff and try to, you know, make something out of my life. I'm thinking of becoming certified...I forgot the letters for it. I think it's TESL. Teaching English as a Second Language. Yeah, that looks right. I'm going to try working toward getting that certification and I think there's a second one that goes with it but yeah. I have projects that I want to work on, regarding writing and script-writing and things like that. I also...just lost my train of thought. Part of me would like to be a YouTuber. I actually have a typingstory video on one of my channels that got like over 1K views I think. Writing is apparently all I'm like really good at. I think. Not sure I have the personality to be a YouTuber but I could be wrong... Part of me would also like to be a singer/songwriter but I don't even really know the basics of production software because, yeah, I'd also like to produce my own songs. I need to practice my drawing. I like to roleplay because it helps me stay on my toes with writings and forcing out my creative juices but, as you can see, there's a lot that I'd like to do and it makes me a mess because it's like sitting in the midst of a giant puzzle but one of those 2,000-piece ones and it just gets hard to tell what goes where and in what order I should start. I don't know who I am or what I want to do. I just know that I enjoy entertaining people in a very casual way. I enjoy knowing that I've made someone smile or spent time with someone doing something that they enjoy. I just...would like to be less of a mess.
Oh, did I mention I want to have my own radio station and possibly a game show? Yeah. What the heck is focus and how can I get a taste?
A semi-hiatus just might seem like a good idea since I'm all over the place mentally. I want to be a good roleplayer for everyone but I feel like I'm honestly just not doing good in that area and it's not making me happy. But yeah.
Thank you for reading. You are wonderful. Always have been, always will be, no matter what anyone says. <3
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