can y'all relate?

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Authorsusurrus

Created Jul 23, 2018 19:33:38

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it's kinda sad when you lose what little motivation and drive and inspiration you have. in a general sense, i have, but as far as roleplay republic goes, i just... it's depressing a bit. i used to be so passionate about roleplays, used to care so much about layouts, used to be so motivated to do things, but now i think i'm just dying out. no matter how many rps i join, no matter how many i make, no matter what layouts i code, no matter what i do, i just can't find myself really enjoying it, y'know? and in no way do i mean for this to be one of those "i'm leaving the site" blogs, but like... is this a sign of the end of my time here? are the curtains finally closing? at this point, i have no idea.

what's even worse is i don't want this to be the end of my roleplaying career. i genuinely enjoy roleplaying and coding and everything that rpr stands for, but i don't know what to do. i feel like i've exhausted all my resources. i've even tried rping on different platforms to gain muse, and for a while, it worked, but sometimes i wonder when even that will make me fizzle out. i just... i don't know guys.

everyone keeps saying rpr is boring now, that it's dying now, but like... no matter what some of us do about that to try and combat that, it feels like not enough of us really care about fixing the issue. and i think this is part of why i've become so jaded, why i'm losing hope. over the past few years, i've been making and remaking all sorts of aus, semiaus, and sometimes nonaus almost monthly so that people can have a place to write, a place to creatively explore. over the past few years, i've joined countless roleplays so that i can have a place to do the same, but if i'm honest, i'm starting to gain this "what's the point?" mentality.

i don't like it. not one bit.

it kind of upsets me that part of me wants to join in with the folks that go "why try?" and the like. as much as i still want to try, i don't know if i can. i don't want to give up, but like... what else is there to do? i can't keep ting out rps and i can't keep joining 4943024032 rps if things are just going to be the same in the end. it's frustrating and insane to continue this cycle.

rpr is what you make it, yes, but a handful of people can't change the whole damn site and make it better for not only themselves, but the people around them too. or maybe they can, i don't know, but at this point i doubt it. i'm just tired, i think, and i feel like i'm losing what little enjoyment i got out of being here as time passes, i guess... i want to change this, but i don't in know what to do about it anymore. can y'all relate? do you have any suggestions? i don't want to be stuck thinking about this and feeling this. :")

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e77a4cdcc9a067ac4de7 6 years ago

Like you know...same couple everywhere? Same people hyping same ? Hate to say but the so called 'lit' always try to be the same and no hate on them but seeing the same things in again and again --- I'm loosing muse for AU's

e77a4cdcc9a067ac4de7 6 years ago

The need to find a 'bae' is what ruined rpr imo.

vanillachaii 6 years ago

This has been my mood for the longest time.

realllllmino 6 years ago

i has an idea and some thoughts. i haven't joined rps for a very long time, not because i don't enjoy meeting new people and stuff, but because of some other personal reasons. i have definitely read and seen so many of my friends' blogs about how they're losing muse on RPR and getting so sad over the fact that things have changed. i think change is great, and it's even good. but i see from a lot of old roleplayers that this kind of change on RPR is unwanted. the best thing about being human and being a large community is that we're all susceptible to change. not just the bad change, but good change as well. a lot of roleplayers who want to change the pace of RPR are making amazing AUs and filling them with people who go with the flow of things. i think as creators and admins, it's important to let roleplayers that join your roleplay go about their flow, but also keep them in check if roleplayers are really roleplaying or are they just chatting away in the chatroom.

i think it's also the community that you bring to your roleplay. are these people serious about AUs or do they usually just join AUs to chat with people. of course, it being picky and chose-y but there is definitely a way to filter out the people who do. you put a lot of thought into your roleplay, the description, the rules, the application. make it extensive and tedious so that you know that the ones who put in the work as much as you do, they're the ones who are serious about roleplaying and staying.

i think it's important to remind people who join roleplays that not only admins are in charge of upholding the roleplay's atmosphere and rules. it's also their job to keep the roleplay alive by taking advantage of all the rooms that are opened instead of just waiting around in the chatroom. they have to hit people up on walls and not be afraid of rejection. sooner or later, some person is going to come hit you up on your wall and ask you to roleplay.

as i was saying about change, RPR is getting a flood of the new generation who have very low attention spans. i believe that the best way to really hook them is to try new things and incorporate the site's features with roleplaying so that people actually begin to roleplay. people need to have something fun to keep them motivated.

as shoganai said to me, roleplays are always a 50:50 chance, but with the right people by your side, filling your roleplay with hardworking, passionate people, and knowing your audience can really shift that probability ratio.

FINALLY, i wanted to ask you formally if you'd would like to work with me on an AU roleplay that I have put some thought into for a very very long time. The ideas that I have, have never been implemented into rps before and if they were, they were probably controversial, but I have ways to keep them from spiraling out of control. I'm very excited to present them to RPR and its community because I know that it's going to be different than what most people have seen on this site. I believe that if I gather the right people to work along side with me, we can really start to change the atmosphere of RPR.

plankton 6 years ago

im hiraeth by the way eueuee you might've seen me play hipposa thicc before

plankton 6 years ago

PREACHHHHH

we all grew up together on this site, treated it like a second family.
i think it's hard to accept that we're all grown up now eAe
and interests change as you grow up- like your motivation fuses and sdjknjdkjgkjdg
this is a depressing topic

6a40ae523979caec1bae 6 years ago

i relate ;; a lot. its one of the reasons i switched to mostly private rping. i dont know, really, ebcause i've gotten into the state of "i give u making rps that have these amazing concepts because most people will just kind of on them, or ignore them, or let them flop" -- not because they want to, but because its just... how things go? idk how to explain it. im in the same spot, though. it doesnt quite feel like a chore but its very... "what's the pont if no one cares" you know? i relate, and i wish i could help but all i really did was pull away and mostly stick to rping in private with people. which isnt exactly fun, because i'll look at all these rps and go "wow there are all my friends" but i dont want to join just to sit and talk, i want to rp, but nothing really goes past a few posts, or its too crazy, or whatever. theres never a really in between and it just throws me off and makes me not want to do it anymore, even though writing is my passion. im not any help but hey i said something ; ;