i didn't want to make this long and emotional but -- i am just happy to come in the new year with many of you and no ill feelings! i want nothing but happiness and blessings in all of your lives, and that is for anyone reading this. to my amigos - i am so thankful for each and every one of you! even if it was watching scary movies with me or calling just to talk about nct or cry haksjasd or judge me for my love of naruto :/ we have had so many beautiful memories and i hope to create more with many of you! i have gathered a list of movies/songs/videos to watch so if you're ever down, or need to rant or cry just call me or we can even rabbit or message me here! i know i sometimes take forever otl but trust me i am always here! i have learned a lot throughout the years and i am happy to say that it has healed me completely! i know i haven't been around as much as i'd like, but i'll try to be more active before i start my next semester!
i was thinking of making a message for every single one but that would take forever to do -- just know that i am thankful for you guys, honestly. for being there for the tears, laughter, growth, 4am calls asjdlajdas and the bad and good days we have all shared. words could never describe how much you all mean to me! i'll probably make those messages when i find time and add them to my profile, message them to you, or make another blog. ily guys. thank you for making me a big ole' soft teddy bear : (
and to anyone needing to hear this, you're beautiful, you're important, and you're special! i never knew how much these words could mean to me until i heard people say it to me, and finally found myself reminding me and others. if my journey for peace and love taught me anything, that is learning to accept you for who you are. seriously, the key to happiness is finding out yourself. i learned i could NOT be happy when i was broken. i was looking for others to fix me without realizing that it was i, who needed to do the fixing. accept my mistakes, learn from them, accept the moments where i was WRONG - apologize for them, accept that it was OK not to be OK, that it was OK to not do well at times and fix it by working even harder! look deep into yourself. embrace your smile, those features you hate, the curves, the non-curves, your accent, beauty mark on your buttcheek idk, literally - love it all. when i first moved to where i live at now, i was so insecure about everything! my curly hair, the weird accent i got from my hometown, how short i was -- you name it, i always founded something to pick on. but when you finally accept who you are i swear you'll GLOW differently! if you did not do it the last few years, make this year the year of loving YOU and accepting YOU! we can not look for happiness in others and expect them to be our source of happiness if we're not genuinely happy ourselves or lost! go find yourself! what makes you smile, what makes you laugh, what makes you cry, what makes you shy -- find out yourself again. we go through so many phases in our lives that we lose part of us each time that happens so it is OK to take time to yourself to find out who you are. i wish you all blessings upon blessings this year. ♡
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