— to you, that won't ever see this. ; my last blog.

dear anonymous, 

this is my last poem to you.

even though we reached a sad end, a scent of bitter lemon still lingers after

i still remember every second

i remember every second of the time we spent together from day one, the day i found courage to talk to you, to you both

how grateful i was to have met you, oh you, the one who was able to make me so so happy

from the way you made my monochromatic life into something colorful, something beautiful. 

you gave color to my world

i loved everything; even through the heartbreak and sadness, through the happiness and joy, i loved it all

but i'm letting you go.

you taught me happiness and love which i'm so grateful for, and even when it was hurting like i was dying, i embraced it 

but it's time to finally let you go. 

even though you're permanently gone, you still remain etched into my world as a light that never fades but i won't recall you, not anymore; you are not my guiding light anymore

even when you're crying,

you're lonely,

you're hurt,

i'm hoping that you find what you're looking for and that you can fight through the pain like you were always able to

if i could rewind time to go back to the summer i fell in love with you, i wouldn't. as much as it hurts, i wouldn't go back. it was a chapter that began and ended soon after

we've started a new chapter — without each other

you are just another dream that has the soft fragrance of the bitter lemon that i have stopped chasing

even if you forget about me,

live a good life. 

if it helps you to forget everything,

then please, forget everything. 

we're worlds apart, but we're still under the same sky

under the vacant, vast sky filled with constellations that guide you and i, i hope your journey goes well

but now i'm taking the first step away from you

so, anonymous,

this is my last poem to you,

my last words to you,

this is my final good bye to you.

farewell, my lemon-scented memories, i must let you go.

sincerely,

seventeentv.