warning: super sappy, hella personal info ahead** just needed to get this off my chest lmaoo
so. about a year ago and a half ago i was able to pull myself out an abuse relationship, but it ended with conceiving a beautiful daughter in the end. don't get me wrong, i love her to death but some days she reminds me that i'll never truly be separated from my ex. so ultimately i felt stuck, afraid i'd never move on and truly know what a healthy, happy relationship is like. for the longest time, although we were miles away from each other, he still held some control in my life that i couldn't fight. fast forward to saturday, a guy i used to work with on the ship randomly messaged me. usually i ignore random pm's, cause im still trying to figure out who i am and love myself again, and quite honestly my relationship scarred me...so i was weary talking to guys. but something about this guy was chill and charming so we talked and instantly hit it off. like he genuinely sparked conversation and didn't say any of that generic "aye i wanna get to know you" type lol. he likes anime, final fantasy, gaming...a lot of things i looove, lol. we fanned over one punch man, some good oldies like space dandy and samurai champloo...it was just so...refreshing to have someone to talk to again like that. i'm telling you, my cheeks were hurting from smiling and laughing so much. HE HONESTLY THINKS CLOUD IS BAD AND IM LIKE-- DUDE NAH HE'S A PUNK AFLKJG
anyway, he wanted to take me out but i ended up napping for like 3 hours ;;;; and when i finally woke up, i thought he would be mad and was worried he thought i was standing him up or something. so when i checked my messages, his last one was like "are you napping??" i apologize of course but his response literally threw me off. hE SAID "naps are life, and it could have been our date" im sorry if it sounds lame or whatever but i thought it was the cutest thing lmao. anyway, he still wanted to go out and i was reluctant because i, for one, don't have a lot of confidence, and when im nervous i don't stfu, LIKE I'LL RAMBLE AND LAUGH AT THE STUPIDEST SHIET..so i didn't want to be annoying and make a fool of myself??? but he was super reassuring, just suggested binge watching anime on the beach or he'd bring his switch and we could play smash on the beach, really just anything i would want to do to feel comfortable. so like...i agreed. ;;; the anime watching/-playing games on the beach was just too ing cUTE so i had to.
moving forward, he had the nerve to ask if he'd rather me ride in his race car or suv lol im like the race car duhhh??
THEN HE HAD THE NERVE TO SEND THIS TO ME AND SAY "this will be you when i pull up lmao"
I WAS SO DONE-- THIS SMOOTH PIECE OF ALKFJALK YOU DON'T KNOW ME
so as im getting ready, i hear my phone going off. i go to check it and there's like 5 messages from him, saying "can't wait to see you beautiful " : cr ie s : and that he's lowkey nervous too, and then he sent this precious gem of a gif and said "us when we first see each other"
GUYS LMAO. im telling you he had me smiling for hours, its been SOOO long since i've felt genuinely happy. anyway he picks me up, we go to the beach and literally just sit for hours talking, cracking jokes, just overall having a good time. he beat my a few times in smash bros BUT ITS OKAY CAUSE I CAME BACK FOR VENGENANCE WITH MY BOY KIRBY AND TOOK DOWN HIS PUNK CLOUD LMFAO. but i lowkey think he let me win?? either way i got my victory lmfao. i got him to play dissidia final fantasy opera omnia with me, and we did a couple coops together. it was just really fun and we ended the night cuddling in the sand and binge watching one punch and before we both knew it, it was like 2 am and we both had work. but like we didn't really wanna leave?? neither of us wanted to say "well its time to go", but he broke the ice and was just like "let me get you back home so you can rest" so he drops me off, kisses my forehead and cheek then suggest we meet up again.
so now i have a second date this friday and im so excited. ^___^
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