This has absolutely nothing to do with anyone on this site. I just had to let this out. So, I write fanfics. And sure people who hear that might be like “oh you write fanfics... yay?” But I don’t give a what people think it’s my thoughts or feelings or even my experience delving into the character’s minds written down in my phone. It ranges from drama to romance to to horror to angst and it feels liberating knowing that with writing you can switch to any genre you want to switch to. With that being said, my private fanfics that are on my phone in a certain file are fanfics that I keep to myself and will never be posted up online due to a bit of anxiety regarding certain kinds of backlash regarding the fanfics themselves. So I keep those fics to myself to avoid causing others to get triggered since that happens a lot these days. But beside that, I have a friend who also writes who I share some of my fics with via text. So needless to say when I’m driven on something like a fanfic chapter I will drop everything and get my ideas down immediately and work on a chapter and finish it within some days depending on my writers block. It took me almost a month to get this latest chapter done due to going on vacation and other things that happened. So I worked extra hard on it. So sure there was some in this chapter and sure the fic itself has some gay themes in it. The latest chapter near the ending of it has a character admit in passing that she’s had some lesbian experiences. I didn’t really add that in for shock value, I moreso did it to give an outlook on why that character is so accepting of her significant other and their own uality. Sure to some it’s touchy, to others it could be seen as offensive due to the fact that I don’t know what it’s like to be a lesbian in society, since I’m straight in real life though I have some lesbian friends. But it was a brief mention of it in the fic. The scene could also mean that at that time the character could have been trying to find herself at the time when she had those lesbian experiences. AND THATS OKAY! Experimentation and trying to find out who you are is a great thing! Be yourself and don’t let anyone tell you who you can and cannot be! But anyways back to the rant... I sent it to her and sure she has summer classes so she’s busy. I understand that. So she read it last night. And she said it was dramatic and shocking and had some cute fluffy moments and she liked it. Then I asked her about what she thought about each individual part since I like to have an in depth review of my work in order to make it better. So it’s going good until we get to the lesbian part near the ending. Now, I’m not saying she’s by any means homophobic. I’m not insinuating that AT ALL but what she text me next kinda pissed me off. “Oh I had to skim past some bits on that though.” I almost threw my phone. What pissed me off with that isn’t the lesbian part it’s the work itself. I work hard on the chapters just so she can read them, and even though that part might’ve made her uncomfortable and that’s okay since not everyone is used to that, she didn’t have to tell me that she skimmed through that part. I write those private fics so she can read them and give me feedback, not so she can skim through it and give me a half assed statement that’s vague as all hell. It made me feel like my work on that chapter was for nothing and that she not only didn’t get the message I was trying to convey, I also feel like it was kinda disrespectful. I mean she could’ve skimmed through that part and had the courtesy to NOT tell me, which I wouldn’t have minded. But to tell me that you skimmed through one of the important parts of the chapter I bust my on writing WHILE I WAS ON VACATION because I’m that dedicated to my craft is a big slap in my ing face. I just had to get that off of my chest. I know it’s a long rant but I had nowhere else to go to rant this out of my system. Thanks for reading.
Comments
You must be logged in to comment.