RIP Mom

It’s been officially 2 years today. 2 years that my best friend left this world, 2 years that the one who gave birth to me went to a better place. It’s been 2 long years with you mom. We had our fights and arguments but what mother daughter don’t? You were still someone I could tell everything to. You always made things work even when you didn’t know how. You always had faith everything would. 
There hasn’t been a day that haven’t thought about you hell, you come up in my every day conversations. They lied when they say it gets easier, it never gets easier, you just learn how to move for it. But it never ever gets easier having to live on without you mom, sometimes all I want to hear from is that you are proud of me. I keep doing and I keep going, to better myself because I know you are watch over me. But I’m not gonna lie, sometimes I wonder what is the point of trying so hard when the one you want to see your success isn’t here, but then I remember what you said. That you are always here by my side every step of my way. I get nostalgic when I think about the good times and the bad times we had. Sneaking out at 1:00 in the morning at 1st of the month to get white castles and then grocery shop or shop in general at Walmart, or me you Derek and Darryl Pugh all go out to skyline and laughing at the boys, and their ridiculousness. Or on a   holiday all gathered up in the living room watching ted, or christmas movies. You in your room playing guild wars, and I come in hearing you laugh. Or see you laughing at the cats who did something stupid again like how Tbaby pushed tiger out the second story window and he just looked up at the window. I wish I could go back to those times when you were still here maybe give you hugs a little more, kisses a little more. I know you said never be sad when you are gone, because you spent your time with your kids here on earth now you are going to spend time with Jeremiah and Little Eric the other two who has past away when they were so young, but I can’t not be sad. I miss you. I loved how when I said always want to go to South Korea to teach English, you encouraged it, when I want to travel you said I could I just had to be careful. I miss how you said I could do and be anything I wanted (thanks to you I have no idea what I want to be and do 😂). I miss you mom I really do and I wish Heaven wasn’t to far away (that song really hits in the feels) so I could see you. 
It’s funny I remember listening to your favorite songs throughout the this week. 
Play it again - Luke Bryan
Bottoms up- Luke Bryan
Half way there - Bon Jovi
I remember you singing the last one to all of us when we were younger. Turned out to be one of my favorites as well as I grew older.
Mom I love you and you are forever missed.
RIP DI'Anna Reese