I probably should have said something sooner, given the fact that I went MIA before the whole coronavirus bull went down, but hi- I'm still alive. Aside from the fact that my life is now consumed with working in a grocery store every day and trying to fend off the ing virus from hell, I was already getting overwhelmed from school and just....yeah I tanked under the pressure. And it got worse! Yay!
I'm totally kidding, this isn't fun for me whatsoever. The only bright side is that I'm getting a raise, I got $100 in free giftcards from my work, and that Trump check is coming in soon since I'm considered an "essential" worker. Other than that...I just haven't been in the best mental place for a while. I let Amethyst go down...again. Seems to be a pattern, really, but the co-admins are trying valiantly to bring it back up again. Idk. My muse and motivation died, unfortunately, thanks to college and now this.
Not only this, I have lost five people in my church from this virus one of whom I was very close to. People I know are dying and just...guys, it's bad, I'm literally throwing myself into work to get my mind off it. And my church was all over the goddamn news, 60 confirmed cases. Five deaths so far. Not to mention my boyfriend got put under lock down because he had a stomach bug...and all because he went to my church. People at my work found out, and I got sent home early one day all because my allergies were bothering me. Needless to say, I spent the drive home sobbing my eyes out because I felt targeted.
On a lighter note, I got to see the bf yesterday, and he is not sick. Neither am I. We. Got. Lucky. So many eldery people who were my friends are passing because of this and it's one big show. I'm ready for it to be over. I'm ready to stop being mistreated at work by angry customers and people who are mad about things that I literally cannot control, not even managers can control it. *Sigh*
I want to come back and rp, mainly because I miss everyone, but like...idk. I'll try if anyone is in the mood. I got the first spark of an rp yesterday, but I'm not sure I want to go through with it. I'm going to give it some time and think about it before I post. Not to mention I have 0 time on my hands at the moment to run an rp between school and work. (I'm a criminal justice major, RIP). Maybe once things settle down again I'll come back full force, for now I'll just be off and on again for a while. Much love babes, stay safe.
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