My Mom Died

What I learned from losing a parent is that as days go by you might just think they’re on vacation or at work and you don’t see them a lot… then You’ll remember and it will make you wanna break down. You’ll see things you wanna share with them and then remember they’re not here and it hurt your heart as well. Among other things you might keep something subtle that is there’s and I think that’s healthy to work on coping. You can’t feel guilty for living and you can’t hyper focus on your own morality in the world. The world keeps turning. After you felt like you’ve cried all you can cry you might enter some shell shocked state where people convos are meaningless and you forget things easily. But know this is a traumatic experience that changes you as a person. You have to learn to be a new version of yourself after losing a parent. They shaped you and helped you grow and you ran to them for help and now it feels like your support is gone. All the things you catch yourself doing that they taught you is not a thing to grieve over (after you’ve done major grieving ofc) it’s like their legacy because they always will be a part of you even tho they’re not there. They left a hole when they left, but you were already made with pieces of them and that doesn’t go away. You can grieve for 5 years you can grieve for 3 months, everybody path different and you gotta allow yourself to have those feels

hey, I've been there done that and it especially when you don't expect it to . even though you'll be numb to it all for the first couple months, it'll . then, you'll feel it kick it when you realize you really, really won't see her again, and it'll . like it'll really and you'll cry like a little baby about it, but it'll be okay. literally nobody will understand the loss that you're experiencing, including those who have gone through it before, because it's the same but different every time. that's your mom, not their mom, and that's what makes it different. don't shortcut yourself. you're going to be sad about it when you least expect it, but you'll also remember her when you accomplish something greater than you could imagine. if there's one thing you can do to make your mother live on, it's to make sure that you're alive and thriving for her. every heartbeat that comes out of you is hers and just because she's not alive right now doesn't mean that she's not here, because she's here with every breath that you take. Live proudly, live boldly.

I wish I could offer some advice or even ways to help the pain. The closest loss I have had would be a grandparent or an uncle, the pain was intense for both on different levels. One we knew was coming the other was a shock to everyone. All that got me through it was keeping those I love close to me. I spent a lot of focus on family (pets included of course) and my closest circle of friends, those who are practically family.
Stay strong and take your time to heal
Rpr will be here when you need it but until then dont worry about it just focus on you.