Dear blog,
I feel like to much is expected of me nowadays, it's putting my health at risk, thats what I've noted from this past year. Every day I have to stand tall despite everything. I've watch my world cave in and burn before my eyes. Then have to restart from the ashes.
I've lost someone close to me who I held close to my heart. I told them to off, that was my most foolish mistakes I've ever made. I want to say I was wrong, and ask for forgiveness but I can't do that.... What I said I don't think well be friends and that hurts.
My friends see me strong and brave, but I don't feel like that at all. What they see in me I'll never get. The darker aspects of my mind cloud my thoughts. They see me as well ... I don't know.
My sister says she hates me and that I'm a bother to her and that of such. I hurts that she say that and that she acting like me. I'm scared of that, my sister want to be just like me. I'm dishonest, cruel, bad and flat out mean. I don't want her to turn out like me but learn from what I've done.
To who ever reads this- I know I have I better than most but that what keeps me going. Someone has it worse than me.
Until tomorrow
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