Just In Case

For those of you wondering what's been ed up with me for poofing. Wellllll....

Had two doctor appointments two days in a row. Had to help my mom look for a new car seat for my son cause he's outgrown the one he has. Then was told its illegal for him to be in that one cause he's not old enough. Missed a phone call from my baby daddy's mother cause I was playing with my child. Got my meds changed to that I'm scared less to take, looked at some side effects. 

Now I learned the vile woman that is my baby daddy's mother, whined to my grandmother about never being able to get ahold of me. I get no texts from her yet she claims she sent a bunch. I get no calls (except then one when I'm busy with my child) from her yet she claims a bunch. I've tried to tell people that I have had issues with notifications on some things cause outdated phone then new phone. 

The two discussed WITHOUT ME PRESENT letting my child go to the vile woman's house. For Easter celebration. One COVID is still a thing and I know for a fact that many if not all those people work jobs where they constantly are in contact with people. My son has never met these people. When he does see the vile woman, she has food or toys for him. Its usually months apart. I'm talking Christmas was the last time they saw each other.

I'm not trusting a woman who has whined to my infant son about wanting to leave with him or that I'm mean for not letting him spend the night.

WE IN A PANDEMIC

But no. I'm suppose to let my child leave my side to go to a strangers house for Easter to see his "family" that "loves" him. His daddy has to be forced to visit and even then he only wants social security number or his girlfriend (sorry wife) to come in so and I quote, he can meet his older brothers. I resist the urge to slap my baby daddy every time I remember that. He prefers her kids cause they are older and able to be independent essentially to his infant son. 

I am suppose to let my son see these people? Baby daddy's brother nearly threw a fork at me when I was pregnant. His brothers took great joy in telling a pregnant woman that the father of her child was out cheating on her. My baby daddy use to get into arguments with his father cause baby daddy broke rules of the house and didn't want to fess up about it. Which lead to 30 minute rants at me about wanting to punch, stab, or choke his father. Both before pregnancy and after even after explaining to him I can handle stuff like that.

Yet cause I want him to be able to have that relationship with his father...I apparently have to let this happen. Well, I have the option to talk it out but I know it'll end with me having my words twisted so I have to let him go. Its how my grandmother seems to operate now that I'm a mom.

So this why I poof and if poof again this why. Just cuddle me if you're in a rp with me...